Epilog Pejuang

throwback October 2019. graduated master in education with CGPA 3.892 and passed my thesis without correction. i miss studying. but i don't think i can take it up now. phd wait for me. i hope it will not be too late later

35 weeks! today's 23rd march, and in a month time it'll be 23rd april! the estimated birth date of this little mujahid in my tummy ^__^ baby is now still in breech position, i.e. he's sitting upright instead of head down. this minimizes the probability of baby coming earlier than the expected date, but let's all pray that he'll turn upside down soon.. or a c-section would be waiting for me T__T it's not really impossible to give birth to a breech baby normally, but doctors said better not take the risk when he's the first child. hmm.. alhamdulillah last night i'm done with all projects and tests. oh, except for one more assignment to be submitted on 1st april. now i have to struggle my way for the final exam on 27th march, 2nd april, 6th april n 8th april. four subjects. all the best to me~~

feel like yelling my lungs out right now mainly because of the stress, and partly because i really want to get rid of this sleepy-head feeling. last Friday i received a call from Engineering Academic Affairs telling me my Computer Security exam will be on the 24th (this Thursday). since friday was a holiday i had to wait until today to know my Decision Science exam time. So glad Maya was willing to help me get my exam letter from Economics general office BUT it was written on that letter Decision Science special exam - 24th December. i went to Academic Affairs to settle the clash, but guess what??? COMPUTER SECURITY EXAM IS ON THE 22ND!!!! i.e. tomorrow morning! uhh.. it was a good thing that i had started my revision, but it was still a horror to know that i have less than 24 hours to prepare myself for the paper. i just could not focus for many hours already! T__T just had a late supper with Abah, and he said "just do what you can do" but i still fear, is that enough? *now ...

permulaan sem yang sangat busy dan penat! -__-" mungkin lepas ni kena consider betul-betul kalau nak spend the whole school holiday - yes the WHOLE school holiday dgn melancong.. khamis ni ada special exam Computer Security.. Decision Science punya belum tau bila lagi, esok kena call Econs utk confirmkan.. mujahid punya exam pulak next week.. memang kena pulun study lah minggu ni.. harap2 dapat perform dgn baik utk special exam ni supaya pointer dapat naik.. ameen~ gambar di UK yang sekarang dah snow.. tapi kitorang sempat jakun dengan ice frost je.. - Durham at minus 2 degrees celcius - dah rindu kat Harith jugak.. baik je tuan rumah kecik ni masa kitorang serbu rumah dia.. hehe.. TQ so much to Zaid & Kak Manihah sbb melayan kitorang dgn sangat sangat baik sepanjang jaulah ke sana!! - satu2nya gambar yg sempat snap masa 'che awang' ni senyum - gambar2 bercuti di UK & Jogjakarta akan dikongsikan selepas exam @ PKN kot.. harap yg dah tertanya-tanya tu dapat bersabar...

Subhanallah walhamudilillah wallahuakbar! While I was drowning in the sea of life, making myself busy with the worldly test called final exam and taking every moment of my life for granted, my Creator and Sustainer 'poked' me with a simple test, to make me remember that none of us belong to this world forever. After a whole busy Sunday preparing for my final exams, my hubby returned from Perak with a little complaint of having a stomach ache. A couple of hours later, all of a sudden and without warning, he vomited blood - a lot of blood. I freaked out. We immediately went to the hospital. After hours of waiting and check-up, Mujahid was warded. Of course, terrified, all I wanted to do was to stay with him in the ward that night despite having a test the next morning. Subhanallah Allah sent us family and friends who really cares. Within 24 hours, at least a dozen of them came to visit. I was trying to make myself comfortable to accompany Mujahid at his bed for another few days, ...

alhamdulillah walaupun kelam kabut next week start final exam things are going on much better than expected ^__^ except for the headache that doesn't seem to fully disappear since the '53 hours....' post. and yes, i did not add to the counting because it'll just make me miserable. anyways, skrg ni tinggal kena hantar Smart Aquarium System project report n assignment decision science jumaat ni. Dr. Anisah itu saaaangat baik!!! dari 3 soalan yg panjaaang tu dia wajibkan pilih 2 je bila ada students pegi mengadu kat diat his week sgt havoc.. other than that, i HAVE to study for my final exams -__-" especially utk 3 paper yg berderet itu... so, enough of that. below is the outcome of my new toy this semester. did this with 5 other girls :) Smart Aquarium System. features: automatic feeder & water temperature display and the one below with the laundry hanger is not my toy. it belonged to Najmi and her team, but they're doing it for another lab class. the fan is ...

friday - decision science midterm - multimedia lab project submission saturday - software engineering project presentation monday - ?? tuesday - data structure lab project submission - ece lab project presentation wednesday - ce big assignment submission - ce big quiz - vlsi quiz of course, with the above-mentioned activities, i could not fly to Beirut even if i really really want to =( even if i could postpone everything to a later date, i wouldn't choose to do that especially when i cannot predict migraine attacks

last sunday, i forced myself to stay at home to study for this havoc week, only to find that all my classmates were enjoying attending open houses or resting at home when i give them a call to ask about some things i was stuck at. i ended up playing computer games... 12th oct - VLSI design quiz - ECE lab test (30% of that 1 credit hour lab!) 13th oct - Data Structure lab was cancelled :) yeay! 14th oct - Communication Engineering assignment submission 15th oct - Computer Security assignment submission - midterm for my TKD skills (i'll only be doing the theory part) 16th oct - quiz for Multimedia lab? Macromedia Flash - midterm for Decision Science postponed to next week! (it's supposed to be on the 17th but of course i'm attending Auzan's & Kak Nazihah's wedding :) nsyaAllah) yesterday morning, i woke up with a mild migraine on the left side of my head. alhamdulillah it did not increase (nor decrease..) up until now.. after the tough lab test yesterday, baby ...

I NEED OXYGEN!!! fuh.. fuh.. baru 3rd week sem 1 ni.. 17.5 credits hours JE -- some would say but 4 mini projects and 2 labs are driving me vegetable.. haha.. not nuts but vege.. coz i have classes from 8:30 a.m. to 5 p.m. (no break except for Zuhr on Tuesdays) every day! and this 1st semester of the academic year is always hectic with events.. al-quds day with all those related campaigns and engineering sports carnival for now.. anyways, this is the not-so-latest pic of my beloved huge-but-little-for-this-pic family taken on 4th of July 2009

S T R E S S E D is D E S S E R T S spelled backwards ^__^ that's why we all tend to eat chocolates, cakes, cookies and all those yummy yummy fattening stuff to reverse the stress! LOL~ 4 papers through, 2 more to go! Differential Equations & Linear Algebra Discrete Mathematics

uh-uhh.. bila dekat dengan exam, tu lah masa nak online YM secara 'visible' dan update blog. haha. sebabnya: dah takde kelas, lepak dekat rumah. fuh, sem ni sungguh memenatkan! pertama kali catat sejarah dalam kehidupan sendiri, satu sem amik 19 credit hour. exceed working load utk orang average macam saya, tak berapa rajin nak study. mula kelas jam 8.30 pagi, habis jam 7.30 malam, but of course ada gap sejam atau sejam setengah antara dua kelas. final exam ni pulak, alhamdulillah tak berderet paper... TAPI, ada satu hari yg ada 2 paper!! DS & DSP.. huwaaa... yg teruknye, both subject itu masa midterm exam haritu pun satu hari jugak, and i screwed up pretty bad.. *** cries *** T___T actually, we could have appealed from A&R to change the date for the finals, but both lecturers were not that supportive.. ** cries again ** they said "two papers a day is okay, as long as they don't clash." ugh!! CS pulak, cerita sedihnya, pertama kali dalam sejarah hidup saya...

esok, saya ada 2 mid-term exam + 2 assignment kena hantar + 1 quiz yg macam 2 quiz 11:30 pagi - exam Digital Signal Processing 2:00 ptg - exam Data Structure & Algorithm Design + hantar assignment 5:00 ptg - hantar assignment Differential Equations + ada quiz sebenarnya ada satu quiz, tapi sebab saya kena gastrik masa quiz yg lepas dan lecturer malas nak buat replacement quiz, quiz esok akan cover markah utk 2 quiz... hwa hwa hwa... emmm... saya amat mengantuk sekarang, tapi kena kEnA KENA stUdyyyy... woohooo~~ gambatte kudasai ^^, semoga sem ni jauh lebih baik dari sem lepas walaupun saya amik sangat banyak credit hour.. 19 wooo... O__o" 6 core subjects + 1 seminar + 1 skills TaeKwon-Do oh! cakap pasal TaeKwon-Do, haritu pertama kali saya join tournament WTF. guess what~~ i lose on the first round!! hwaaa... SEBAB!! kena 4 kali warning i.e. tolak dua markah... SEBAB!! saya tak tau dalam WTF tak boleh tumbuk kepala/muka orang!!! huu.. kesian fadhilah dari matric tu, dua kali...

ini adalah post yg pertama untuk tahun ni amat berharap saya tidak akan berhenti berkongsi pengalaman uh-oh!! sebenarnya, kelam kabut dengan schedule awal tahun ni... O__o" belajar dengan tekun, proaktif terhadap isu palestin & berorganisasi dgn baik semoga dapat belajar & buat kerja dgn baik & teliti!! *** al-Quds Institute Malaysian Chapter macam plan nak buat misi kemanusiaan ke Gaza.. ohh-- saya mahu ikuuuuuuuttt!!!!~~~ *** T__T

new toys!!! ^__^ 8088 microprocessor

kisah lepas solder PCB: bro lab assistant (indonesian): wah pandai solder nya ya syaz n i with confidence: alhamdulillah =P bro lab assistant: tapi masak nggak pandai.. syaz n i: O__o* apa kena mengena.. p/s: it's not that i don't know how to cook, i just rarely got the chance to practice =P final piece ready =P baru first PCB project, the circuit was really simple. the 2nd project is getting more complicated, with timers and flip-flops O__o* digital logic design 7-segment decoder last tuesday tak siap experiment, only to know today that we connected the input to the wrong pin on the IC -__-" bila construct circuit tak betul, memang bazir masa betul.. but alhamdulillah we finally got the output! aren't electronic engineers' toys cool =P hehehe.. sempat update walaupun tgh sakit kepala cam hape je ^__^

hehehe.. cool toys! ^__^ PCB - printed circuit board logic gates - full-adder circuit CIE memang best! ^__^ subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

starting to get busy with school already O__o" this week submissions: - 1 DLD report - 2 assignments - 2 quizzes still busy with planning of eventsSsSs for July-August getting busy with another upcoming important event and i only had less than 48 hours of headache-free life since last week!! and i'm tired of questions like "SAKIT KEPALA LAGI? DAH CHECK DENGAN DOCTOR?" please pLeaSe and PLEASE DON'T ask me that question for the rest of my life!! onegaishimas!! -__-" if you want to show that you care, or you're worried, just remind me to take my meds and drink lots n lots of plain water. oh, anything urgent, plz CALL. SMS texts will only be entertained when i have some free time to spare

oh noOooOooOooo!!!!!! >__ confident that my exam will be WEDNESDAY, 9 a.m. ESOK!!! baru perasan (baru tengok exam slip betul2) -- actually it's on THURSDAY, 19 July 2008 i.e. 9 a.m. LUSA!!! hari ni macam bengong je belajar dari lepas Subuh but could neither understand nor absorb anything into my memory.. sampai ke Asar baru ok sikit alhamdulillah.. dah siap minum 3 mugs of hOt gReen Tea to keep me awake (bcoz it's really hOt! not bcoz of the ingredients) dari siang and prepared a midnight snack for staying-up: roti bakar n a full-spoon of chunky peanut butter (siap dah amik gambar tapi takde memory card reader pulak).. tapi bagus gak, sebab semalam tak dapat study langsung sebab sakit kpala.. ada time lagi utk pulun.. yah yah!~ doakan! **seb baik tak jadi macam Tikki, dah pegi exam hall tengok takde orang, baru tau snanye exam esoknye.. =P huhu..** thanks to Syeda who borrowed my Laplaz Transform assignment n tak pulangkan lagi O__o" fuh fuh.. this is what u call a...

exam again -__-" without realizing it, i've spent 3 long (4-months) semesters & 2 short (2.5-months) semesters in my engineering course. 2 and a half years to go.. i really hope i'll go through well, and increase my CGPA!! uh-oh.. my CGPA maintained since my first sem, alhamdulillah.. i have Microprocessor final exam this Monday. seriously, i have no confidence in facing the paper. the lecturer didn't post up the carry marks as he promised, and at the same time he said majority screwed up the mid-term exam. tak encouraging langsung! T__T i hope I'll be doing Signals n Systems well.. i don't want to be over-confident with the not-so-high carry marks i have now.. i have to do my best, nsyaAllah, nsyaAllah! well, actually, i found the hikmah of having some irritating 'shadows'. haha.. dok rumah boleh la cakap macam tu, senang nak lari -__-" takpe takpe, i should take the opportunity to study well. she proved to me that increasing the CGPA by poin...

*o__O O__o" *o__O O__o" *o__O O__o" *o__O O__o" hehehe~ exAm- eXaM- EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -__-" rasa macam nak main game sepanjang hari.. 3 Jun - Exam Microprocessor 3 Jun - submit assignment4 Signals & Systems 4 Jun - Exam Signals & Systems wohoooo~~~~~~ sambil tu bnyk lagi mende yg tak siap..... lepas tu bnyk sgt perancangan program kena settlekan.... lepas tu FINAL EXAM lagi... !!! FINAL EXAM !!! 2 minggu lagi -O__O- lepas tu cuti!!! cuti cuti cuti... nak gi mana eh? hehe.. gi Songkla, Thailand. ex-roommate saya nikah ^__^ jauhlah utk anak usrah saya sekali, nsyaAllah tapi kena settlekan buat group passport utk diorang dulu waahh.. banyak nye perancangan... semoga Allah tentukan yg terbaik~ ameen... wee~ looking forward ^__^