Friday, December 28, 2007

khas buat warga KARISMA ^__^


kepada seluruh warga KARISMA
Kelab Rakan Siswa Islah Malaysia

ana mengucapkan selamat menghadiri
Perhimpunan KARISMA Nasional
PKN 1207

dan selamat bersidang

tahniah kepada sidang KnL '07 yg sentiasa berusaha sepanjang tahun dan telah banyak mengajar ana~

juga mohon sokongan dan kerjasama semua untuk memperkasakan da'wah pada masa akan datang!

semoga usaha kita diterima Allah..
semoga Allah membantu setiap perancangan dan tindakan kita..

jumpa di PKN ^__^



pics: MUFI 070707

Monday, December 24, 2007

fuh! fuh! (blowing away the dust~)

actually i don't know if i can update this blog with stories about events that passed since few days ago.. right now i'm feeling very tired although i've slept for urmm about 12 hours with 'breaks'.. but oh seriously i think my energy level is depleting T__T

anyway, i joined the Qurban at Adni on Saturday. 3 cows were slaughtered but I came late so i only get to watch Pak Hasni slaughter the cow.. subhanallah.. it is surely not an easy task..
the truth is, i think it has been ages since the last time i watched Qurban.. but this year someone encouraged me to join in the 'ibadah.. not by words, but by actions ^__^ thank you soOo much! yes, watching qurban is a sunnah, right? and i'm so happy i managed to watch and help around with the potong daging n masak-masak etc this year.. and never to forget my hobby, i even cut my nails (only one finger actually) when i was cutting the meat.. alhamdulillah my finger didn't bleed huhu..
urmm.. my mind was actually somewhere else.. i was thinking about the past, i don't know why i didn't join during the past years T__T man, it's really a shame and a waste of time that Allah has given us! i hope i will never again let go off the chance in the coming years..

yesterday alumni had a looong meeting! 5 hours for me, and more for many others who came earlier.. woo i was late 1 hour and 10 minutes from the time i myself set for others - 9.30 a.m. T__T shame on me.. see guys, i'm really really sorry.. i should never repeat it again, even i have another meeting before that..
umm but alhamdulillah, many commented that it's the most productive alumni meeting they've been to. i really hope what's planned for next year will be conducted and the targets will be achieved.

hoho... i left this entry and went out to buy breakfast for my sisters, and also help the helper to parut kelapa using this ancient old mesin parut kelapa from my late grandparents' house back in Kuala Selangor. recently the one-storey terrace house (not kampung house T__T) was rented or sold away i guess.. so now i only have my kampung at Kampung Baru (in the middle of KL the metropolitan city!) and Taman Keramat AU3.. but my grandma from my dad's side will stay with us starting early next year, so that'll leave Kampung Baru as my kampung for now.. hehe.. anyways, i find the activity (parut kelapa) fun, somehow. i like cooking but i just don't do it because the helpers are around.. uhh--- but heyy,, that doesnt mean i don't know cooking at all.. but i have to admit that people who go into the kitchen more often know cooking much better than i do.. uh-uhh..

okay, enough cleaning up (this blog) for today..
take care everyone!

all kids went to johor for the weekend..
^__^ pegi dusun buah-buahan
i used to go there every holiday when i was a younger


pics: Ismail, Ishaq and Raneem yg sgt chumeyl ^__^

Sunday, December 16, 2007

harapan dan do'a...

hoho~
hari ini juga perlu dicatit dalam sejarah hidup. kali ke-5 'berucap' di khalayak ramai.. haha.. snanye, 30-40 orang je, budak2 skolah plak tuh.. ^__^ eyy,, but standing in front talking is not easy maa.. tak pecaya? meh bagi nama n no tepon, i'll invite you next time i receive a request..

rasenye the 4th time aritu tak 'record' kot.. masa perkasa '08 kat kem kaizen.. itu mmg spontaneous tahap tak tau nak describe aa.. sampai team "March or Die" leh nmpak kte pegang kertas menggigil o__O" huhu malunyer..

tapi takpe. belajar dari pengalaman. credits to Dhany n Auzan for the invitation, also Mujahid n Abati (my beloved respected dad) for the ideas, and Kak Ju yg datang singgah bagi semangat, and WanTim n Farhah yg setia ^__^ hoho~
snanye tadi, tak reti 'menggoreng' ayat sampai dikatakan asyik melompat dari satu topik ke satu topik yg kurang relevant.. uh-uhh.. -__-" cakap pasal involvement in international stuff (international networking, Palestine, nasihat itu nasihat ini etc etc)..

anyways anyways,,
mesti korang boring kan baca ni.. huhu..
snanye tak dapat tido. sebabnye.. (alamak! kantoi kan diri sendiri! T__T) dari siang tadi sakit kepala.. so sblm bagi ceramah tadi minum satu mug Home's Cafe hazelnut coffee yg sgt sedap ituu utk get rid of the present headache for at least few hours.. actually, i feel quite guilty coz in less than a day i'll get a super-duper killing guest called headache, but contented at the same time because i like that drink so much -__-" hwaaaa.. sape2 ade tips yg best utk get rid of this addiction.. T__T

hmm..
these days.. i just miss some beautiful souls so badly.. T__T those people who are very dear to me, whose place are so significant in my life and my heart..

ya Allah..
i pray to You oh Lord who have Power over all things..
please protect them from any harm..
and grant them the best of this world,
and the best of the best in the hereafter..
because i love them so much..
i pray that You would love them too..
for they are the ones who always remind me of You..
ya Allah..
I only pray to You..

Thursday, December 13, 2007

selangkah menuju kebebasan

hahaha...
sesungguhnya tajuk entri kali ni pasti mengundang bermacam-macam idea yang berlainan dari minda sidang pembaca sekalian.



sekarang dalam otak saya sendiri wujud tiga perkara yang berkaitan dengan kebebasan.

SATU (yang paling remeh dan selfish!)
saya berpeluang dan telah berjaya melarikan diri dari seorang kawan yang telah menjadi bayang-bayang saya di sekitar kuliyyah of engineering UIA bermula semester ini.. oh, sungguh bebas rasanya, walau hanya 3 jam seminggu (dan akan tambah lagi satu jam bermula minggu depan nsyaAllah)..
oops!! bukan apa.. saya langsung bukan hendak memburuk-burukkan orang lain.. masalahnya seringkali bayang-bayang ini ada kuasa magnet yang ingin menentukan langkah dan halatuju badan fizikal saya. kamu yang mengenali saya tentu tahu saya adalah seorang yang sudah biasa dan perlu bergerak dengan bebas! kerana
1- saya sedang berusaha untuk tidak menyusahkan orang lain,
2- saya seorang yg banyak berahsia walaupun saya tampak seperti orang yang kecoh dan banyak bercakap (saya tahu ramai orang penat dengar saya berborak-borak, betul tak?),
3- saya perlu belajar untuk berdiam diri kerana saya juga tidak suka dengar orang lain berceloteh sepanjang hari.

malangnya, selama 3 tahun saya menjadi warga Taman Ilmu dan Budi, saya telah dapat 3 (baca: tiga!) bayang-bayang.. oh, sungguh menyeksa jiwa dan raga.
eh, jangan silap faham. saya hargai semua kenalan-kenalan, kawan-kawan, sahabat handai dan rakan seperjuangan.. saya menulis ini untuk mereka yang mungkin akan terbaca tentang ini dan tidak akan berani (lagi) untuk menjadi bayang-bayang saya.. hoho~ sila beri kerjasama ye ^__^

DUA (sudah saya bicarakan dengan ringkas dalam entri lepas..)
kerajaan malaysia sungguh pengecut. saya berharap dan sangat berharap, memohon daripada Yang Maha Berkuasa Lagi Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu- semoga setiap pengorbanan mereka yang menentang kezaliman di atas muka bumi ini dibalas dengan ganjaran yang sangat baik.. ameen ameen ameen...

TIGA (menyokong golongan yang takkan kalah!)
Beberapa hari yang lalu, adikku HAMAS mencecah usia 20 tahun. walaupun lebih muda beberapa bulan dariku, HAMAS lebih kenal erti nilai kehidupan, pengorbanan dan telah menyaksikan kekejaman yang belum sampai penghujungnya..
"HAMAS?" kamu tanya?
ianya satu sayap ikhwanul-muslimin yang memperjuangkan kebebasan Palestin dan Al-Aqsa. HAMAS dilahirkan bersama Intifadhah pertama pada 8 Disember 1987, dan kelahirannya diisytiharkan di seluruh Gaza dan Tebing Barat sehingga 15 Disember 1987. HAMAS telah membesar dengan matang dengan tekanan yang wujud di sekitar tempat kelahirannya - bumi anbiya' Falastin, dan pada tahun 2000 gelombang Intifadhah kedua telah tercetus. ketika itu saya masih bermain-main di junior high school dan langsung tidak ambil tahu tentang perjuangan pembebasan menentang Zionis laknatullah itu... T__T huhu.. 17 tahun saya telah hidup dengan hanya mementingkan diri sendiri.. kini saya berazam untuk berusaha dengan lebih gigih untuk menyertai mereka yang berusaha dan tidak pernah kenal henti memperjuangkan hak kebebasan di atas muka bumi ini..
Dan yang paling GEMPAK~ HAMAS telah berjaya menawan hati dan kepercayaan majoriti rakyat Palestin pada usia 18+ tahun pada awal tahun 2006! MasyaAllah.. Tapi dengan kemenangan politik itu HAMAS semakin digeruni oleh musuh-musuh Islam. Macam-macam usaha telah dilakukan untuk melumpuhkan HAMAS namun HAMAS tetap berdiri teguh dengan izin Allah.. Allahu Akbar! Tetaplah al-Haqq pasti menang~
nak tahu lebih lanjut? arahan: belilah buku HAMAS tulisan Ust Maszlee Malik dan juga dapatkan semua keluaran Siri Pembebasan Al-Aqsa yang juga ditulis oleh Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor. oh, buku kecil Intifadhah Pertama juga dalam proses pembikinan, (ada orang comel tgh lukiskan cartoon ^__^) nsyaAllah..
alamak.. saya harap SB tak reti baca blog XP huhuhu..


"Sebaik-baik jihad adalah kata-kata (yang menyeru) kepada kebenaran di hadapan pemimpin yang zalim"

Hadith riwayat Tarmizi & Abu Daud

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

terus tekad !!

orang-orang dalam kerajaan malaysia sangat teruk dan layak dikutuk kerana langsung tak menjaga hak sesama Muslim!

sangat teruk! sangat sangat teruk!

tanya lah anak paklah yang umur paling kecik (aku pun tak tahu berapa umur dia) hingga yg dah besar panjang kalau dia suka tengok paklah meringkuk dalam penjara.. takkan ada anak yang suka!!!

paklah dan konco-konco nya yang tidak waras kerana terlalu mementingkan diri sendiri! semoga Allah membalas usaha busuk korang dengan hukuman yang setimpal!

Please read more!!! (click here!)


TEKAD!

kami sedari jalan ini kan penuh onak dan duri
aral menghadang dan kezaliman yang akan kami hadapi
kami relakan jua serahkan dengan tekad di hati
jasad ini darah ini sepenuh redha di hati

kami adalah panah-panah terbujur
yang siap lepaskan dari busur
tuju sasaran siapapun pemanahnya

kami adalah pedang-pedang terhunus
yang siap terhayun menebas musuh
tiada pedulipun siapapun pemegangnya

asalkan ikhlas di hati
tuk hanya redha ilahi rabbi

kami adalah tombak-tombak berjajar
yang siap dilontarkan dan menghujam
menembus dada lantakkan keangkuhan

kami adalah butir-butir peluru
yang siap ditembakkan dan melaju
mengoyak dan menumbang kezaliman

asalkan ikhlas di hati
tuk jumpa wajah ilahi rabbi...

kami adalah mata pena yang tajam
yang siap menuliskan kebenaran
tanpa ragu ungkapkan keadilan

kami pisau belati yang selalu tajam
bak kesabaran yang tak pernah akan padam
tuk harungi da'wah ini jalan panjang

asalkan ikhlas di hati
menuju jannah ilahi rabbi...


Nasyid Tekad by Izzis

Sunday, December 09, 2007

masyaAllah !! my future . . . . .

this clip has been online for a long time, but we just never get bored of it... just like we never get bored of reading al-Fatihah at least 17 times a day... masyaAllah...

my future child, nsyaAllah ^__^ haha..


Saturday, December 08, 2007

INGAT 5 sebelum 5


subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!!!

huhuhu... memang segalanya milik Allah... segala nikmat boleh diberi dan ditarik bila-bila masa je... ujian-ujian yang mengingatkan hamba yang selalu alpa dan leka ini untuk kembali mendekatkan diri pada Allah...

yA Allah...
ampunilah kami...
bantulah kami dalam setiap langkah kami di atas muka bumi ini...

Ingat 5 perkara sebelum 5 perkara
KAYA sebelum Miskin
MUDA
sebelum Tua
LAPANG sebelum Sempit
SIHAT sebelum SAKIT
HIDUP sebelum MATI...

terus dan terus berdoa... supaya terus menghargai 5 nikmat ini... berdoalah untuk diri sendiri dan juga orang lain... kan doa seorang Muslim (click!) itu akan dimakbulkan...

p/s: dah jumpa cincin yg hilang minggu lepas ^__^ bawah meja huhu... alhamdulillah!!!

Monday, December 03, 2007

enuf of hols for now!!!


nothing interesting to be updated for now... haha...
except that i finally get to train my physical body sampai sakit-sakit badan last friday until now i still cant walk with ease!!... and the next day went hiking for a li'l bit more than one hour to the best waterfall I've been to. click here for the previous entry.

anyways, 29 days of holiday was really good, alhamdulillah! i think it's the best hol i've had since i joined IIUM, after the nearly-3-months trip to Jordan (+ Syria & Lubnan), of course... ^__^ i didn't just stay at home!, but at the same time managed to complete some tasks i was appointed to. hehe.. basically, it's nice! alhamdulillah!

this coming sem, i'll be starting my major subjects for my CIE (computer information & electronics) Engineering course; like Digital Logic Design, Electronics Circuit, Circuit Analysis, Multimedia Technology and so on... I've only a rough idea of what i'll be studying--- but i hope it'll be good!!

hoho~ better don't be too excited now or i'll be disappointed if things don't go the way i want.. o__O"

oh btw, some appreciation to my ex-classmates in IIC and Adni: Nadiah, Alya, KakNabila, Siti, Rabiatul, Sakinah, Atiyah, Atiqah, Iman & Solehah.. thanks for showing up in KLCC the other day... the small 'reunion' was awesome! really! although i strained my right leg for that 5 hours and 53 minutes hang out =P ahaha.. but on top of all, thanks for making me finish your plates- rabiatul, maryam, nadiah, alya n atiyah! nyum nyum nyum~ i hope to see you guys again. i think that's the only time i can 'un-imagine-ably' expand my stomach XD oops.. do i sound, urm, too selfish with ultimately bad habits??

amat bersemangat untuk start class esok! (walaupun demam sikit hari ni, 1st day of classes i skipped all three -__-")

okies, adios~

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

the Annapolis Conference


Press Statement on the Annapolis Conference
(PACE - Palestine Centre of Excellence)

The US brokered Annapolis conference here in Maryland has begun in earnest on the 27h November 2007, with the aim of establishing peace between Israel and the Palestinian people. Apart from the US and EU, the 50 nation conference is also being attended by Arab and muslim countries including Malaysia. Malaysia is being represented by her Foreign Minister, Dato’ Seri Syed Hamid Albar.

The legitimacy of the Annapolis conference is at best questionable as the so called the Palestinian representative hardly reflects the voice and aspirations of the Palestinian people. Firstly, all Palestinians, in the occupied territories as well as those living in refugee camps and outside Palestine has rejected the idea of a peace conference when the whole objective is not to restore Palestinian rights of return and right to their homeland. Secondly, the Palestinians who are attending the conference has no mandate from the people, as the de facto representative, Hamas is absent. Hamas swept to victory in the Palestinian January 2006 legislative election, earning 74 out of 132 seats contested. Fatah, to which most of the delegates to the conference belonged or aligned to only won 45 seats. It would be a mockery to democracy when a legitimate and elected government is sidelined in a conference that decides the future of Palestine.

The presence of Arabs and muslim countries on the other hand will only exarcerbate the plight of the Palestinian people as indirectly it gives further legitimization to Israeli occupation and continuous violations of Palestinian rights. Israeli delegates have indicated that they will only agree to a broad conditions for peace and will not commit to specific demands by the Palestinians. The conference is therefore nothing more than reenacting the defunct Oslo Accord of 1993 and the failed Road-Map of 2003. In view of this futile exercise for peace, PACE register our stand as follows:

  1. Reject the Annapolis Conference as the objective is never towards restoring the rights of return of the Paletinian people and their rights to sovereignty. On the contrary the conference aim to tighten Israeli grip on the occupied territories i.e the West Bank and East Jerusalem as well as imposing a total blockade on Gaza.

  2. Regrets the presence of representatives of Arabs and muslim countries as their presence will give legitimacy to the conference and further erosion of Palestinian rights. Their presence is also a reflection of lack of analysis and grasp of the political maneuvering of the Zionist agenda.

  3. Perturb by the apathy of Arabs and muslim countries towards the Palestinian people which has been subjected to an almost two-year long complete economic blockade. They should have pushed for an international effort to uplift the US led economic boycott instead of becoming a party to a conference that would only exarcerbate the situation.

  4. PACE call upon the Malaysian public to carefully monitor the outcome of the conference, as it may eventually open the way for diplomatic relations with Israel, where no such provisions are provided for with Malaysia, but that which have placed many Arab countries in a tight corner in the past, leading to recognition of Israel.

  5. PACE call upon muslims from all over the world to close ranks and stand by the rights of the Palestinian people in their legitimate struggle to liberate their homeland and the holy al Aqsa mosque.

Kuala Lumpur , Tuesday 27 November 2007/17 Dzulqaedah 1428H

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

ana muslim!



hehe.. promo sket =P
video clip Cheb Ali shoot kat Adni..
my li'l bro Adam pun ada dalam clip tu..

muslim with the small letter "m".. muslim by personality, muslim in life.. nsyaAllah!

Monday, November 26, 2007

preparation...


"ujian kesihatan membuatkan kita jadi hebat!"
said a strong soul who was 'attacked' by cancer some time ago..

seriously, that statement is like the first ray of sunlight after a series of constant and horrible storms... (although the storms might come again anytime...)

recently, i realized the existence of some similar attitude in many people when they (or we..) talk about headaches and migraines.
--- everyone wants to say "my headache is worse!!"
or..
--- "you should have a check-up with a specialist!" or "i used to have headaches too, you should try taking this thing called ..."

for the first, i will usually just keep quiet or slightly change the topic. and hey, i always try my best not to do that unless i intend to describe my tiring guest. did you guys realize if my 'training' works or am i still just the same brat as others??? now come on, be sincere.. i need a mirror in order to see how ugly i am..
for the second, i always feel this hard grip inside my chest and my heart would scream "oh do you have any idea how tired i feel when i think about medication! can you please just shut up!"

ooops. sorry!

yeah i know many people in this world care.. at least, if not care about me, they care about how to get rid of headaches.. however i have to warn you guys that not many people can talk to me about my meds these days without making me feel very 'tired'...

since a couple of years back, Mom ocasionally reminded me that everything we go through yesterday and today is a preparation for us to face tomorrow, and that He's planning a greater future ahead of us..
i always keep this hope in mind, although many times i would forget and frown... but it's a healer that keeps me going..

anyways, to IIUM students,
Sem I result is out already!! i hope what i get and what you get is the best for ourselves and what we've gone through for the past semester is an experience to learn from..
and yeah!! alhamdulillah!! I DON'T HAVE TO REPEAT ANY SUBJECTS!!!! ^___^ although my CGPA dropped 0.014 huhu...
ya Allah... i'm so thankful to You, may i be more and more thankful in the future...

a greater future lies ahead!
so beware!!
and prepare!!!

Monday, November 19, 2007

a long marathon...

Mukhayyam Generasiku
UIA Gombak
Gunung Nuang, Hulu Langat


hoho~
rupa2nye Ojah juga sudah update blog dye ttg mukhayyam.. tapi Ojah tak register utk pertandingan pulak, jadi tak dikira sebagai pemenang tempat ke-3. oh saya teringat persoalan yg dikemukakan oleh seseorang (saya tak dapat recall siapa), kalau tak silap saya semasa slot Syahadatul Haq
"bukan kita yang pilih untuk dihidupkan di atas muka bumi ni.. tak adillah kalau Allah nak hukum kita sbb kita tak masuk Islam walaupun kita berkelakuan sangat baik etc..." (persoalan dari non-Muslims)
dulu saya selalu respon kpd persoalan ini dengan menggunakan contoh 'bank account', tapi malam tu, saya dengar contoh yang lagi best dan mudah difahami. "cuba bayangkan ada dua orang masuk pertandingan lumba lari, tapi sorang tak register. kalau orang yang tak register tu menang, dia tetap tak dikira sebagai pemenang sbb dia tak register!".
samalah juga dengan kehidupan kita. kalau kita tak 'subscribe' kepada Islam (satu-satunya agama yg diterima Allah), kita takkan dapat jadi pemenang dan masuk syurga.. na'uzubillah.. Ya Allah janganlah palingkan hati-hati kami setelah Kau beri hidayah kepada kami..

hmm... actually i'm searching for ideas.. since Wan Fatimah, Khadijah Aznan and Maryam Muhammad had already updated their blogs about the mukhayyam - and for some reasons Allah placed us (me & d 1st two mentioned) in the same team "Carpe Diem!!!" (read: karpe dium) which means All The Best, Gambatte, Aja aja Faiting, Berusaha, (erm dalam Arabic apa eh? I still couln't find the word since last year), etc.. anyways, click on their names to access their blogs.


Day 1 - 14 Nov, Wed

The camp started on 14 November, and my head was throbbing. I could barely focus on the first slot "Madlul asy-Syahadah" but alhamdulillah akh Fadhil who presented the topic made the slot quite interesting. It's about understanding the Syahadah we recite at least once in every prayer, everyday, by word and by heart. Asyhadu An Laa Ilaaha Illa-ALLAH wa Asyhadu Anna Muhammad Rasulullah..


Later that evening I didn't join the games but slept until maghrib. Alhamdulillah the headache lessen, but later that night I started having backpains. It's not something unusual to me though.. I started having those headaches and backpains since I was 13. Backpains reduced as I undergo expensive treatments T__T for a couple of years, but the headache still remained as a frequent guest.

That night we have "Syahadatul Haqq". It was my third time going through the same topic, but amazingly, each time taught me something new! Although this time it wasn't that 'ganas' since the slot was only about 1 n 1/2 hours.. Syahadatul Haq - I bear witness with my heart, my words, and my actions, that there is no God but Allah and Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah.. The syahadah we swear upon should be 'witnessed' and 'felt' by those around us.. It's a blessing not only upon ourselves, but a responsibility to reach out to others..

AHhh!! I think I really need to cut this entry short! Or else I will take ages to complete this!!

Day 2 - 15 Nov, Thu
boys day out, we have the whole campsite to ourselves


Senaman ar-Ruhul Jadid ala-ala aerobic yg sangat best! An excellent warm up before going hiking up Gunung Nuang! Pastu terus start sakit-sakit badan sikit pasal dah lama tak pegi training TaeKwon-Do betul-betul.. huhu..

Then we played Amazing Race. It was quite fun, but the adventure could have been tougher.. ^__^ however the question at each checkpoint was seriously tough.. no, actually, the problem is with us.. we couldn't recall the Seerah of the Prophet and his Companions!! jawapan kat setiap checkpoint salah oh.. ade yang jawapan patut kat checkpoint 3, kitorang dah jawab kat checkpoint 2.. huhu.. confused! teruk betul.. -__-" plz visit Tim's blog for the questions.

That evening we played War Game a.k.a. ghazwatul-akhawat.. i was in the green team, became the 'Panglima'.. oh I just love war games.. I still clearly remember playing strategy games since I was a kid-- Command & Conquer, Red Alert, War Craft, Age of Empires.. sampaikan ada satu masa ni, I cried when my brother deleted my username in one of the games =P anyway, i think it was really a fair game and the battlefield was really awesome! with lots of trees but spaced..
I played on the right wing until we knocked down nearly half of the opponent team and I managed to free Kak Ida who was taken prisoner- only to later know that she's actually a betrayer!! o_O" patutlah dia dok bising2 dari awal "nela.. selamatkan akak!!".. huhuu..


we frequently accessed the situation, came up with new strategies and conquer the battlefield part by part. finally we ran out of 'bullets' with only one left- which was handed to me. i soon realized that the opponent team had also ran out of bullets and they have none! i quickly moved forward scaring the two survivors of the opponent team and my eyes scanned for their red flag. oh my, it was on a tree with red leaves!!! i leaped, grabbed it and ran for my base.. thus, my green team won over the red team..

I hope and pray that I can be as energetic and as sharp in da'wah and studies as I am during sports and outdoor stuff.. Allahumma 'aafini fi badani, Allahumma 'aafini fi sam'i, Allahumma 'aafini fi basari...


During the night we listened to our sisters about 2/10 wasiat asy-Syahiid Imam Hasan al-Banna- making salaah (prayers) a priority + reponsibility and time management -and da'wah fardhi.. oh i shall not just sit down and do nothing when I've attended and listened to these precious advice and reminder.. i will try my best..

Day 3 - 16 Nov, Fri


we headed out after Subuh+breakfast, hiking up Gunung Nuang.. our target was until the 2nd checkpoint since we only have half of the daylight.. 6-7 hours. i was quite disappointed when tanah merah with some small stones seemed to never end.. we hiked up countless hills with 45 degrees slope, up and down, up and down, for more than two hours!!.. until we reached the waterfall. oh Subhanallah!! sangat cantik dan sangat best!! cuma memang boleh jadi lebih best kalau dapat 'menggunakan' kewujudan waterfall tu sebaiknya.. huhu..
all the way, we sang the Ulat Bulu song.. it's like this:

Ada sang ulat bulu, punya kaki seribu, siapa jumpa kakiku.. kakiku..
Jikalau tak dapat, terpaksa ku melompat, dengan kaki seribu kurang satu..


then A:
Ada sang alat bala~ panya kaka saraba~ sapa jampa kakaka~ kakaka~
Jakala tak dapat~ tarpaksa ka malampat~ dangan kaka saraba karang sata~~


haa.. comel tak lagu ni??? huruf E I O U korang nyanyi sendiri lah eh. syaratnye, kalau nak tengok lagu, tengok yg original je, jgn tengok yg dah ubah huruf vowel.. ^__^ try lah.. kalo nak tau lagu dye cane, ring me up =P


personally, the hike was seriously tiring. if it wasn't the other sisters who even hold my hands despite themselves being tired as well, i might be one of the last to reach the camp. right now i might want to stress out that the scenery along the way was not worth it.. but there's something behind it that's much more important..

it's just like LIFE. it's when you always try your best to achieve something by putting in all your energy and focus, just to achieve something.. you try to hold on to anything you can so that you can stand and step forward.. but it's not all the time that you get a happy ending, or sometimes not even a little something that could make you smile with relief..

but all the time, keep in mind that He is always there.. He listens to each prayer that you recite in your heart and say with ur lips.. He sees every tear that wets your eye or stream down your cheeks.. He is always there.. Always there preparing you for a greater future..

yup, a greater future..

so... do not give up!

huhu lesenku...

You Failed Your Driver's Test

You only got 1/10 correct.
If you have a driver's license, it needs to be revoked!

haha.. memang ade rasa nak tegolek!! takde la expect dapat sampai 1/10 kan.. XD ni pasal jawab ikut perangai, bukan ikut pengetahuan.. takpe takpe, lesen saya mmg diperlukan oleh diri sendiri dan juga orang lain.. jadi, tak boleh tarik balik XP

Friday, November 16, 2007

perlu menjadi layak

Al-Quds International Forum
Istanbul, Turkey




wuu.... memanglah lagi buat saya rasa nak menangis
Indonesia hantar 10 orang wakil akhawat ke Forum al-Quds Sedunia itu.... Malaysia???
lepas tu dapat jumpa Dr. Raed Solah lagi kalau pegi...

hmm...
hmmmm...
cabaran apakah ini?
ujian menguji kesabaran yang sangat.. hurm.. sangat.. sangat..
entah.
rasa macam tak nak fikir langsung lagi.
tapi tak boleh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya Allah.....

*** nihlah, sila tenangkan diri ***

hmm
yup, perlu bekerja dengan lebih tekun
dan ikhlaskan setiap niat dan perbuatan
terus kutip semua permata yang ada di sepanjang jalan
walaupun terluka dek terkena serpihan kaca di sekelilingnya
nihlah,
kau masih jauh ketinggalan
berbanding mereka yg benar-benar berjuang demi pembebasan al-Quds

perlu menjadi orang yang layak,
baru Allah akan mengizinkan..

'news' from Istanbul: http://www.ibnhasan.blogspot.com/

cepat cepat cepat!!! sape nak bagi nama utk teman saya pergi tahun depan??? ***kemungkinan perlu menyediakan ongkos sendiri***

p/s: mujahid, ana curi gambar ye...

update sekejap...

subhanallah!!

dah balik dari mukhayyam yg sangat best! hehe.. tapi takleh update cerita mukhayyam lagi. perlumbaan untuk men-jealous-kan Sulafa', hiDayah ngan adik-bradik usrah lain yang tak pegi --- akan bermula esok malam oleh kami.. =P

oh, kami = Nela, Tim, Farhah, Maryam & Saybah

sila nantikan ye ^__^ hehehe...


Anyways, tentang Kempen BERSIH..
Setiap hari Sabtu, silalah memakai atau mempamerkan apa-apa yang berwarna kuning (cap, ribbon, t-shirt, umbrella, etc) untuk menunjukkan sokongan dan kebersamaan kita dalam mendesak kerajaan supaya memBERSIHkan pilihanraya yang akan datang..


kebenaran pasti menang!!!

Monday, November 12, 2007

sayonara!

15-18 November 2007
International Forum of Al-Quds


perhimpunan semua pimpinan HAMAS di luar Palestin
dan aktivis-aktivis Muslim dan non-Muslim


bagi semua pejuang-pejuang Islam,
SELAMAT BERJUANG!
Al-Qudsu Lana!!!

hmm... semangat juangku tidak akan luntur
walaupun ditinggalkan buat kali ke-3

Saturday, November 10, 2007

luv ye all !! ^__^

bersama kakak-kakakku yang disanjungi lagi disayangi ^__^
kak shima, kak ju, kak maryam j, me, kak dijah, kak roha

may Allah shower His Blessings upon you forever!!

8 Syawal 1428 @ 20 October 2007

my siblings a.k.a. comrades-in-arm

haa... sape nak tau???
ni lah adik-bradik keluarga ke-2 saya...


Nihlah (me) Maryam WanTim Farhah
Sulafa Ecah Hajar Dayah Sofi

yg xde: Saybah Awathif Huda

alhamdulillah saya dikurniakan adik-bradik yg sgt best
walaupun adik-beradik sama darah dah cukup ramai...
ibu nya Makcik Ton yg sgt best... hehe =P
dan mak 'ganas' dulu pulak Kak MJ yg sgt comel ^^,

Thank You ya Rabb for this very colourful life...

p/s: kan best kalau cuti pun ada usrah, ye tak? hee.. tak sabar nye mukhayyam rabu depan!!!!
walaupun mungkin kena amik break utk meeting KnL -__-" uff...

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

hypnothesis

Yesterday I attended an interesting preview slot of something called AuraShifa'. It's about all these 6th sense and aura and hypnotherapy thing.. I think, what's different and certainly good about it is that it doesn't exaggerate the 'power and existence of other unseen creatures' Allah has created. It promotes healing process by using the power of mind as a tool, other than exploring the potential within oneself...

Actually, frankly speaking, I'm not fascinated with these aura kind of stuff anymore... Yeah I find these things very interesting when I was a kid-- urm, in my early teens --when I read those comics from Japan and witchcraft and fiction novels... but today I feel it's just a normal part of mankind's daily life...

The very thing that encouraged me to go was I want to get rid of my headache as much as possible. Hehehh... We had a relaxing (something like meditating) towards the end of the preview, and later I managed to get Ustaz Rachmat help me reduce the headache...

It was like magic when my throbbing headache nearly disappeared when we were 'meditating'. But there were some things that bugged my mind at that time.. Later then the headache came back... The hypothesis also eliminated my headache when I was in the 'alpha state' (they call it) where I was brought into my sub-conscious mind. Seriously, I could feel no pain on my head or neck in that state, although I can still hear and response verbally.

So the headache was gone when I was hypnotized =P but it came back within few minutes after I returned to my consciousness...
Which is certainly normal to me, because my bad headaches definitely return few minutes after I wake up from sleep in the morning...

But at least, few minutes off the pain is very valuable to me!

click on the poster for larger view

Friday, November 02, 2007

e . x . a . m . i . n . g . t . i . s

i
n . e . e . d
e . x . a . m . i . n . g . t . i . s . ! . ! . !

uh-uhh...

I'll have two more killer papers this Sunday, Dynamics and Calculus, each represent 3 credits. Oh no, dynamics represent 2 credits. But they're both certainly not as easy as 'finding x'..

But I'm still sLeePing aLL tHe tImE!!!!!
oh nO nO nO...


hMm... i rEallY nEed sOmeOne tO heLp fOrcE mE tO sTudY!!!

-__-"


p/s: got the pics from Facebook. Anyone wants to add me? I'm already addicted to it..

Thursday, November 01, 2007

rare species

Your Personality is Very Rare (ESTP)

Your personality type is dominant, driven, poised, and self-aware.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Extroverted, Sensing, Thinking, and Perceiving.
ha ha ha ! ! !
do u guys think so?

Friday, October 26, 2007

haAa burung ni baru ok bAnyAk!!!

Your Power Bird is a Swan

You are a truly graceful and gorgeous creature.
You easily see beauty in yourself and others.
Intuitive and in touch, you can often guess what the future will bring.
And you're flexible enough to accept the changes that life has in store for you.

hahaha... tension exam walaupun belajar sket jer -__-"

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

the classic IQ test...

i think this result is directly influenced by my 'attachment' to engineering. maths and graphics aaalll the waaay....
bcoz previous tests say i'm better at other stuff...

but I'm certainly going to pursue my studies in Computer Information & Electronics Engineering, nsyaAllah!!!
although it seems very tough and stressful, i like the course for some un-explain-able reasons...

please do pray for me ^__^

*** i need to be infected by examingitis now!!! ***



Take this test!


You have a strong ability to process visual-spatial and mathematical information. These skills combined with your strengths in logic are what make you a Visual Mathematician.

You're able to understand patterns visually and in numbers. That means your mind can create a mental picture for any problem. In addition to that skill, you possess an intelligence that allows you to apply math to that picture, too. That helps you manipulate multiple parts of the picture (or problem) to come up with a solution.

You have many skills that are critical to success and problem-solving. Your talents help you understand the "big picture," which is partly why people may turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace. You flourish in environments where tasks are clearly defined, and you are a whiz at improving processes and making things more efficient. Your ability to detect patterns and your skills in math and logic, make it natural for you to come up with ideas and theories that simplify processes for everyone.

Outside of work, Visual Mathematicians tend to do well at strategic activities like chess. It must be that ability to recognize patterns — both as they are and how they develop. Regardless of how you put your mind to use, you've got a great set of talents. You will be able to envision a clear path and calculate the risks, and more importantly, the rewards, of anything you take on.


Sunday, October 21, 2007

s t r e n g t h


I have a very bad headache
for more than 5 days...
altho it slowly started on the first day of 'Eid
and increased exponentially...
it's a combination of what u see in d pic above:
cluster, tension, migraine +
what's not in d pic: pain at the back of the head & neck

one evening,
i was lying on the floor
crying so bad
punching my temple with my knuckles
when i got a very vEry beautiful 'present'...

"semoga Nela tak tewas dgn ujian ni..
al-Ankabut ayat 2
hadiah utk Nela.."

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying,
"We believe",
and that they will not be tested?


Once, I was drowning in my fears
and the twinkle in my eye disappeared
and I had no way to look on
my horizon seemed to have gone
and my whole life, seemed empty and bleak
each day and night, the answers I seek

But when, the darkness seemed so strong
and I couldn`t go on
to the sky I raised my hands
making right what was so wrong
I found the strength to carry on
up to heaven where I belong
In life, there are lessons to be learned
with steadfastness, Paradise is earned
and if, all hope seems to be gone
just hold on till after the storm
and if you ask, what purpose have I
why am I here, and why do I cry?

And when, the darkness seems so strong
and you just cant go on
pray for your helping hand
you`ll see the sun will rise again
you`ll find the strength to carry on
up to heaven where you belong
Coz life is but a journey for us all
we cry, we laugh, we run sometimes we fall
but through it all, always recall
God never gives, a burden too tall

God never gives, a burden too tall



hmm...
but i still don't know how will i go through the next two weeks...
Assignments --> 22/10, 23/10
Tests --> 22/10, 25/10, 27/10
Final Exam --> 29/10, 31/10, 4/11, 4/11
ya Allah... I need strength and patience...
and a working brain...

credits: We we belong, Zain Bhikha
appreciation: ^__^ u know who u are
all praises: my Creator

Friday, October 19, 2007

The Law of The Garbage Truck...


THE LAW OF THE GARBAGE TRUCK...
Beware of Garbage Trucks
by David J. Pollay


How often do you let other people's nonsense change your mood?

Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you're the Terminator, for an instant you're probably set back on your heels.

However, the mark of a successful person is how quickly he/she can get back her focus on what's important.

Sixteen years ago I learned this lesson. I learned it in the back of a New York City taxi cab. Here's what happened.

I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Grand Central Station. We were driving in the right lane when, all of a sudden, a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.

My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car's back end by just inches!

The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us.

My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly.

So, I said, 'Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!'

And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, 'The Law of the Garbage Truck.'

Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you.

When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personally. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. You'll be happy you did.

So this was it: The 'Law of the Garbage Truck.'

I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people: at work, at home, on the streets?

It was that day I said, 'I'm not going to do it anymore.' I began to see garbage trucks.I see the load they're carrying. I see them coming to drop it off.

And like my Taxi Driver, I don't make it a personal thing; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

One of my favorite football players of all time, Walter Payton, did this every day on the football field. He would jump up as quickly as he hit the ground after being tackled. He never dwelled on a hit. Payton was ready to make the next play his best.

Good leaders know they have to be ready for their next meeting.

Good parents know that they have to welcome their children home from school with hugs and kisses. Teachers and parents know that they have to be fully present and at their best for the people they care about.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let Garbage Trucks take over their day.

What about you? What would happen in your life, starting today, if you let more garbage trucks pass you by? Here's my bet. You'll be happier.

So.. Love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don't. Believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance , TAKE IT! If it changes your life , LET IT! Nobody said it would be easy... They just promised it would be worth it!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

adeyy... -__-" takde binatang lain ke...

What Is Your Animal Personality?

Crow
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cuba la bagi pigeon ke.. yg chumeyl2 sket arr huhu o_O" ade ke crow pnye personality mcm ni?? intelligent----~~??? (i never know crows are intelligent)

huhu... FYI, i used to hate crows like anything coz they seem to be so ugly n dirty n disgusting... ye lah, all crows in the South East Asia like to mess with the rubbish bin and dumping places and those kind of stuff...

anyways, actually for the past month i've been thinking A LOT about this very true attitude of mine --- "poking my beak into places it doesn't belong"...
since I've started walking on the path of life 'with the end in my mind', i've received comments about myself, directly and indirectly. basically, those sentences and expressions can all be concluded simply into one statement: "Please mind your own business, because I can lead a merrier life without your interference".

well, i don't know if I'm exaggerating with the statement, but really... u get what i mean right? in other words, i mean, what makes you feel really contented and happy - if it's not the sense of accomplishment - when you get to share with people you care for - about things you get in this life - especially the greatness of Allah and sweetness of iman - ??? hey, i'm not trying to sound good here...

hmm... but i really hope my dear friends in my life will read this piece, especially those who misunderstood my intention due to the ugly nature of what-i-associate-with-crows... but i guess they'll be too busy to visit my blog...

so, dear readers, any advice? ^__^
thanks!!!

huhu... i really hope...
the effort will be counted as a bunch of good deeds...
ya Allah...
please help me through this life...
for You have created me with this responsibility...
and only You have Power over all things...

Monday, October 15, 2007

Eid Mubarak!!!

haaa... akhirnya... dapat gak update gambar raya... ^__^
p/s: i got back my phone number 012---5775 thanks


(from left) Yusuf, Ahmad, Abg Amin, Musa, Ummi Laili,
Sara, Abah Johari, Raneem, Isa
Kak Nadia, Kakak Bushra, Deena, Atiqah, Auntie Mimi,
Ishaq, Ismail, Acik Hayati, Basma, Nihlah
Harun, Ilyas, Adam, Saleh
(not in d pic: Ibrahim)

err... tak tau yg mana... Ismail ke Ishaq ??? o__O"
tapi comel ^_^ kan!!!

Ibrahim Johari ~ 4th October 2007
adik yg ke 6/6 @ 18/18 hehehh...

my siblings:
Isa '85, Abg Amin '80, Ahmad '83, Yusuf '84, Musa '95
Atiqah '89, Kakak Bushra '81, Atok Ton, Kak Nadia '84, Nihlah '87

hehe... Tiqah Nela ngan Basma...
ni je gamba diri sendiri yg ade -__-"
(sbb jadi org jakun baru blaja basic guna camera amad yg pro tu)



got stuff to submit this Thursday!!! uff -__-"

- Electronics Lab report (FET biasing circuit)
- Workshop report (heat treatment)
- IKC assignment (the implication of islamic education in Malaysia)
- Calculus assignment (multiple integrals)

*** blom start satu pun lagi!!! ***

عيد مبارك
تَقَبَّلَ اللهُ مِنَّا وَمِنْكُمْ

Thursday, October 11, 2007

i don't want to say goodbye!!! T__T


Hmm...
Ramadhan akan tinggalkan kita semua sehari lagi...
Entah akan berpeluang bertemu semula
dengan Ramadhan tahun depan...

Ya Rabbul-Izzati,
Semoga kami tidak tergolong di kalangan orang yang rugi...
Terimalah segala amalan kami ya Allah...
Terimalah semua doa kami ya Allah...
Terimalah tiap titis air mata yang kami tumpahkan ya Allah...
Semoga curahan air mata kami dapat menyimbah api nerakaMu
dari membakar diri-diri kami ya Allah...

Ya Mujiibu-du'a...
Perkenankanlah doa-doa kami...
Berikan yang terbaik buat kami di dunia ini dan di akhirat kelak...
Kuatkan diri-diri kami...
Agar kami dapat terus melangkah ke hadapan...
dan terus hidup...
hanya untukMu...
hanya keranaMu...
ya Allah...

semoga diberi berpeluang bertemu lagi...
Ramadhan yang penuh barakah...

Ramadhan 1428

Monday, October 08, 2007

towards the final destination...

Everything - Every Single THING - in this world
belongs to ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY...

My phone accessory the Palestine flag from Syria... (lost)

My phone bought in Makkah... (stolen)

and above all...
My 20 years of life... (still available, ALHAMDULILLAH!)

EVERYTHING BELONGS TO ALLAH!!!


announcement first:

my phone (and my Dad's Canon digital camera) got stolen yesterday morning. so I would like to inform everyone that you'll not be able to contact me via phone for some time... It's also nice if you can e-mail or IM me ur phone no. if you think I'll need it ^__^

hurmm...

I turned 20 last Friday, 5 October 2007... and it's making me feel all tensed up... every second that passes by means I'm nearer to the end... yet, what have I done in this world to prepare for the next???

nothing.
NOTHING!!!

hmm...
but alhamdulillah, I'm still alive today, I'm still a Muslim today, and I'm still given the chance by Almighty Allah to venture on this earth and prepare myself for the next eternal world...


Utmost thanks to my Beloved Mother Laili for everything you've given and taught me for the past 20 years... And also to my Respected Father Johari for everything you've provided to make my life better...

Great appreciation to my VIPs who never stopped supporting me and pray for me and advice me and helped me in every way they can and to be a better person... and yeah, healthier too... ^__^ thanks for everything ya!! may Allah bless and bless and bless you all forever...

Thanks to my Engineering colleagues who bashed up a surprise party for me and two other (a-year-older) birthday girls Geeb & Syira in d middle of d night while I was cracking my head completing my 20-pages workshop case study. Da blueberry cheesecake and Domino's Pizza... and not forgetting the candles and the clear night sky with stars... was really cool and made me relax (a little)! Paan need d pics!!!

And friends, I would like to apologize for every single wrong deed I've done, and especially for not being able to reply your birthday-wish messages. I was really busy for the week(s) and got really exhausted. And now I can't recall all your names here bcoz I don't have my phone anymore... I mean, yeah, it's one of my harddisks...

Anyways thanks to everyone who prayed for me. I hope the increase in my age is a reminder to me and everyone, that as every second passes by, we are surely nearer to six feet underground... Let's all strive our best to prepare for the eternal Hereafter...

ربنا اتنا في الدنيا حسنة و في الأخرة حسنة وقنا عذاب النار

"Jadilah khalifah yang tabah...
Never, never give up!!!"

Friday, October 05, 2007

Sebuah Pertemuan ^__^


In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

"Indeed, the Believers are those who,
when Allah is mentioned, feel a tremor in their hearts,
and when they hear His revelations rehearsed,
find their faith strengthened,
and put (all) their trust in their Lord "



... Sebuah Pertemuan ...

Ketika diri mencari sinar
Secebis cahaya menerangi laluan
Adakalanya langkahku tersasar
Tersungkur di lembah kegelapan

Bagaikan terdengar bisikan rindu
Mengalun kalimah menyapa keinsafan
Kehadiranmu menyentuh kalbu
Menyalakan obor pengharapan

Tika ku kealpaan kau bisikkan bicara keinsafan
Kau beri kekuatan tika aku diuji dengan dugaan
Saatku kehilangan keyakinan kau nyalakan harapan
Saatku meragukan keampunan Tuhan
Kau katakan rahmatNya mengatasi segala

Menitis airmataku keharuan
Kepada sebuah pertemuan
Kehadiranmu mendamaikan
Hati yang dahulu keresahan

Cinta yang semakin kesamaran
Kau gilap cahaya kebahagiaan
Tulus keihkhlasan menjadi ikatan
Dengan restu kasihMu oh Tuhan

Titisan airmata menyubur cinta
dan rindupun berbunga
Mekar tidak pernah layu
Damainya hati yang dulu resah keliru

Cintaku takkan pudar diuji dugaan
Mengharum dalam harapan
Moga kan kesampaian kepada tuhan
Lantaran diri hamba kerdil dan hina

Menitis airmataku keharuan
Kepada sebuah pertemuan
Kehadiranmu mendamaikan
Hati yang dahulu keresahan

Syukur sungguh di hati ini
Dikurniakan teman sejati
Menunjuk jalan dekatinya
Tika diri dalam kebuntuan

Betapa aku hargai
Kejujuran yang kau beri
Mengajarku mengenal erti
Cinta hakiki yang abadi

Tiada yang menjadi impian
Selain rahmat kasihmu tuhan
Yang terbias pada ketelusan
Sebuah kurniaan untuk kehidupan
Bernama Qur'an



terkenang saat berkenalan semula denganMu...
aku mohon...
mohon dengan sangat, Ya Rahman...
supaya ditetapkan,
dan dikuatkan diriku...
untuk terus melangkah di atas jalanMu...
Ramadhan 1425
...
Ramadhan 1428
ya Rahiim...
mohon dengan sangat...



lyrics edited from "Sebuah Pertemuan" by UNIC