Wednesday, April 29, 2009

one fang

this morning after eating toasted bread with butter for breakfast, i realized that my upper right fang was chipped, although i didn't remember hitting against anything hard at my face or munching on anything hard.

i was truly shocked. how can this be??

i called my dentist but the receptionist said that she's busy until saturday. but i cant wait until saturday evening with a rough surface on my lost-fang! so i scheduled in to meet another dentist. when i reached the clinic, Dr. Zalinda was about to leave but luckily she recognized me! ^__^ actually she was initially confused whether it was me or my mother. LOL~ but she took a look at my chipped fang and said she'll deal with me for a while...

she was surprised too, especially when i cannot recall hitting my tooth on anything hard. but then she said, "or are you stressed out? sometimes people who are really depressed tend to grind their teeth hard during sleep, resulting in many dental problems..."

and even a migraine! i've heard about this from a pal in that migraine mailing list i subscribe to. these people have to wear some sort of special braces when they go to sleep..

so now she has smoothen the surface. alhamdulillah~


but alhamdulillah i manage to curve a smile again ^__^
because finally someone 'acknowledges' my depression since a few days ago
very vErY VERY TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Tag : Life's Journey

i got this tag from facebook. but i'll also post here..

The rules are:

1. Choose at least five pictures which taken when you were a little boy/girl until now.

2. Describe the pictures.

3. Please tag at least five of your friends.

So.. here i go..

i guess this pic was taken when i was in Junior 2, IIC, that is in 1995. i'm d girl with the pink - yes, PINK - beside the one with blue, that is Atiyah. next to me was Aneesah, then Anas, Ahmad n Atiqah.
we were the top-3 students in 2 classes. Anas, Atiyah and I in Junior 2 while Aneesah, Ahmad and Atiqah in Junior 1.

this is the next 'youngest' pic i have in collection. i won't go to the mess of searching other pics in photo albums and scanning them. we were the most-senior prefects in 2003, but this pic was taken in 2004 when we 'stepped down' from being school prefects. i'm the one at the utmost right, at the back line of course.
this pic reminds me of my school days ^__^ i should say, while many people long to return back to their teenage life and misses school days so much, i treasure the memories and experience but i do not feel the same way.. for some silent reasons

this pic was taken in August 2004 in Bogor, Indonesia. i really love this pic, despite having a another similar pic taken in 2008, because i can hug the tiger cub!
apart from not having other 'younger' pic in my laptop right now, i chose this pic bcoz it shows that i really love nature (including animals), and travelling.

a huge, memorable, brave step i took was to get married ^__^ with someone i only knew for 3 years (at that time) on 11th October 2008. May Allah bless us and all those who marry for His sake..
This pic was taken during our precious honeymoon~

These are my sisters, my usrah-mates. I chose this pic bcoz it represents my way of life - tarbiyyah & da`wah - nsyaAllah. i hope we will walk with firm steps on this path, never to go astray..

this is a simple story of the journey of my life.. ^__^

now, i tag everyone who reads this post. yes, YOU!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

of almonds

Almond Nut

ALMOND, my favourite nut since i was a kid ^^, is actually a fruit, or a seed!

Almonds are a rich source of Vitamin E, and they're also rich in monounsaturated fat, i.e. one of the two 'good' fats responsible for lowering cholestrol. When these foods which lowers cholesterol are combined with a healthy way of eating, the beneficial effects are multiplied!

They improve the movement of those stuff through the colon and helps to prevent cancer! They are also nutritive for our brain and nervous system! This is because they contain anti-inflammaroty and immunity boosting effects. They help prevent osteoporosis and also regulate blood pressure.

They contain nearly NO carbohydrates, thus is a good diet for people suffering from diabetes. they can be processed into flour to make cakes and bread! especially for people on carbohydrate-restricted diets, but i guess the price would be quite high...

Almond tree flower

Almonds' pollens are spread by insects, like bees. Although packaged almonds are available all year round, they are the freshest in mid-summer, which is their peak season.

Unripe almond on tree

Although many people believed that almonds are too fatty to be a healthy snack, scientific research has actually shown that eating nuts (except ground nuts) actually lower blood cholestrol levels. Furthermore, eating almonds is a filling snack. They are a good source of fiber, contains protein and other antioxidants.

Flowering almond tree

even though some natural remedies recommend almonds for migraneurs and they actually help some people, there are also cases where others experienced them as migraine triggers. i'm not really sure whether they work on me since the cause of my migraines are quite random, especially with food, but other migraineurs can always try. take them as a snack or rub some almond oil on your temples during the early signs of an oncoming migraine.

s t r e s s e d

spelled backwards


that's why we all tend to eat chocolates, cakes, cookies and all those yummy yummy fattening stuff to reverse the stress!


4 papers through, 2 more to go!
Differential Equations & Linear Algebra
Discrete Mathematics

addiction or hobby?

i thought my habit of bringing a nail clipper nearly everywhere i go was odd enough since i cannot live to let my nails grow long and i practically trim my nails twice to three times a week.

last sunday i went to study at Paan's room, and apart from noticing that she too recently started to bring a nail clipper to class, she has a set of nail clippers in her room!

yeah there are nail clippers sold in sets but somehow i find this interesting ^^

speech circuit

the last time i experienced a fault in my 'speech circuit' was years back when i just finished high school.

statements like "makcik tu 50 RINGGIT!" instead of 50 TAHUN slipped out of my mouth,
and "lepas 2 RINGGIT" instead of lepas 2 MINGGU, and few other incidents i don't really remember -__-"

today, when i was at the dining table, i said "nak sikit TERUNG" instead of PETOLA, and some moment later, "nak UDANG?" instead of SOTONG.. which was not really a hilarious error since they still make sense ^^,

but then another statement that made me and Tikki laughed until tears went out of our eyes was: "saya tak jadi makan nanti KERANG sangat" >__< i wanted to say, KENYANG sangat!

somehow the output of the circuit just got wrong!

but i know it's not the 'examingitis' =P

Sunday, April 05, 2009


since the beginning of this semester, due to my 19-credit-hour subjects i'm facing, i tend to prioritize my studies but at the same time not 'fully' neglecting other responsibilities (but i have to admit that i neglected some.. T__T). however i realize that my heart and mind became more and more - how should i say this - dry?? and ignorant..

so i pushed aside the feeling of guilt for not studying and decided to attend the Iron Wall screening organized by COMPLETE, which was followed by a forum despite having my exams around the corner..
all because of the reason that i've read through the questions drafted by the forum moderator, someone i really look up to that is Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor - the director of PACE, and that one of the forum panelist would be Ust Maszlee Malik.
i thought with the presence of these two big figures i respect would make the forum 'hot and lively'.

while watching 'The Iron Wall' in the dark auditorium, a headache slowly sneaked into my head. i ignored it coz the documentary film was a good one ^^ especially for those who want to know more about the real issue.

the screening ended after a while and the event continued with a forum. i waited eagerly for the two very-familiar faces but they did not appear on stage. instead, the forum was moderated by someone i never knew of and the panelist were the palestinian ambassador and another person i did not recognize.
i was confused.. where are Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee?

the forum moderator (middle) and panelists

i texted my friend, who happened to be incharge of the auditorium's backstage and asked if there will be another forum following the ongoing one.. he said no. still confused, i texted Makcik Azian (one of PACE's fellows) and ask her where is Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee, only to know that she is as confused as i am. i also texted Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee's wife, Ustzh Hamidah but there was no reply.

the backstage guys

i could not focus. the Palestinian Ambassador was reading - yes, reading - from his text about the Apartheid Wall and honestly, i did not care to listen because he was reading repeating talking about what we all had watched in the Iron Wall screening. i told my hubby i'd rather go home and study. then it was the other panelist turn and he started to read from his text too! my hubby went out of the auditorium while i waited for TJ and a friend who carpooled with us. soon, i realized many of the audience took off as well, for some unknown reasons.

outside, we met Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee. now, what had happened???

Ust Maszlee & Dr. Hafidzi while the forum is going on

Before the forum, the Palestinian Ambassador was surprised to see Dr Hafidzi and he said something like "i don't want that man" and when he saw Ust Maszlee he was even more shocked and demanded for Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee not be sitting with him on stage discussing about the Iron Wall!

why??? because he knows that both Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee's stands about the issue are against his - to put it in a simple way, it's like a mild version of HAMAS vs. Fatah - and he was a little bit too coward to face embarassment the truth. ** i still clearly remember in a forum a couple of years ago how he tried his best to avoid answering some controversial questions regarding Fatah and HAMAS but that's another story **

the Palestinian ambassador

how can this issue end when people who doesn't want to speak out about the truth still exist??? how can this issue end when people still misuse their power for their own interest???

in the end, i was and still am truly disappointed,
especially because i had chosen not to study this morning and then got a bad headache!

but we're all sure that there are hikmah behind all these that happened today.
and i'm sure you will never say "serves u right for ditching your school books and notes for (just) one morning" if you really understand the plight of the Palestinians..

p/s: this piece may sound bias because it's really MY point of view.

Ka Dijah, Ustzh Hamidah, Rufaydah & me ^_^

entry continued on 6th of April

oh i just can't help but to continue this post! *tried not to since this morning*
reported by Makcik Azian who stayed until the forum ends:

during the Q & A session, Ust Maszlee who was supposed to be one of the panelists but end up sitting with the audience raised up a controversial question on who supplied the cement for the construction of the wall, but he was interrupted by the angered ambassador, who denied the fact that Saudi Arabia was the cement supplier and said that we should not be blaming anyone (especially the Arabs).

in addition to the cover up, the panelist from Wisma Putra (the guy i have no idea of before) warned that the world might label us as people who make up stories if the forum is broadcasted worldwide, because the Media has a huge influence on everyone - which caused the audience to become more unsatisfied and angry.
the forum was brought to an end by the moderator although there were still people who wanted to ask questions.

ah what a bunch cowards and liars..