Monday, September 22, 2014

Taking a new step

Alhamdulillah, I'm now into week 3 as a masters student, majoring in education - curriculum & instruction.

The past 2 weeks has been quite hectic and demanded me to run back n forth from my school and the university. Lectures are all 3 to 4 hours, and many times would trigger a migraine. I don't know if it's the sitting down for long hours, or dehydration (although i dranked quite a bit throughout the lectures) or the lighting of classrooms / lecture theatre or simply the idea of thinking & focusing to much...

Uhhh... I just hope there's a way out of this. It's going to be at least another 3-4 years, so I really need to figure this out... I'm quite tired of taking supplements but yes inshaAllah i will try my best to take them regularly...

Alhamdulillah i've got the chance to chill out my my hubby & kids the other day. A couple of days at the beach n a very decent hotel, alhamdulillah. Hope to do that again soon :D

Saturday, July 19, 2014

My Little Hero

About a month ago, Irfan was admitted into the hospital because of pneumonia - pneumococcal bacteria to be exact. It was a 7 day experience for me and my little hero. Alhamdulillah he recovered.

After 2 weeks, he's coughing again with phlegm and flue. And now he's getting fever-ish again. Allahumma rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir. You are indeed The One who give us health, please grant my little boy 'Irfan a healthy life...





Tuesday, May 06, 2014

Three years

Three years in Adni... Now I start to cry when friends are leaving... Good friends who have held me up when I stand and when I fall...

Friday, March 28, 2014

Madinatun Nabi wal Makkatul Mukarramah

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

Alhamdulillah He has granted me the chance to visit Masjidil Haram and Masjid AnNabawi. Subhanallah, this is indeed one of the greatest experience I've ever encountered, with so much feelings mixed up and at the same time challenging my physical body. But Allah knows best, and He is the best planner.

The tears of joy, excitement, reflection upon myself and the sadness of leaving behind these blessed places --- is truly overwhelming. Headaches come and go, I had to take panadols and migraine meds, and its really disappointing at saddening. It really seems like my body is not fit to continuously move around... Nevertheless, du'aa is the key, and I ask from Allah - the Only One who can grant me strength.

Kids are at home. They had fever for a few days since before I left, and I can only make du'aa for them. I believe Allah is teaching me to let go and focus on my 'ibadah to Him, and not this dunya.
Al-maalu wal-banuuna ziinatan hayata fid-dunya...

There are still few days left. I really hope and aim to buckle up and use my remaining time in this Holy Land to the best and maximum, inshaAllah.

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

alhamdulillah... the picture with the Kaabah replica below was taken with my students during Eidul Adha celebration last year... Allahu akbar! We aim and we plan, and He is the Best Planner indeed...

Sunday, October 13, 2013

5 years and counting!

11/10/08 - 11/10/13

5 years it has been. 5 years!

I still remember the days when I was too afraid of losing my other half. He was everything. He is still everything every living being could be. I still remember the times when I would cry over the idea of being alone. Even today I still freak out sometimes. I guess that will never fade away.

But Alhamdulillah for everything.

I can only thank Allah for that everything.

Today, we've been blessed with two sons. Ikram Fakhri, three and a half years old; and 'Irfan, 5 months. Everyone says both of them look like their Dad, but they don't look alike. Some says that from certain angle and sometimes they look like me too.

Today, I would say that I'm still coping with the world. I have to admit that I not a perfect wife, and I am not a perfect mother. I am still trying to juggle and balance between responsibilities. But I try my best to be.

And I will try my best to be happy all the time. Yes, of course, deep down, I'm very happy and thankful for everything I have been blessed with. Maybe I need to be more expressive - show my happiness even when I'm tired, even when I'm sick.

5 years and counting!

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Nutella-Cheese Muffins

Before we start, let me tell you that the original recipe came from David Lebovitz's Black-Bottom Cupcakes

Oh ya, I really don't know how to differentiate between cupcakes and muffins, so let's call them cupcakes AND muffins, okay?

Okay. Now... my Nutella 'supplier' from Singapore (a.k.a. Tc Sharifah Haslina in Adni) - because it's waaay cheaper over there - told me that Nutella cupcakes are reaaally nice! So finally I get to try bake some. And since I really love black-bottom cupcakes, I decided to combine both recipes.

The recipe below prepares a dozen (12) cupcakes

Cheese Mix:
227g of Cream Cheese
1/3 cup sugar
1 egg

Nutella Mix:
1 cup Nutella
60 g plain flour
1 ½ tsp baking powder
2 eggs
2 tbsp Milk
A pinch of salt

Coarsely-chopped hazelnuts
Semi-sweet chocolate chip

1. Preheat oven to 170 degrees.
2. Sift together the flour, baking powder and salt set aside.
3. In a large bowl, mix all the Nutella Mix.
(tips: Mix the wet ingredients first, and then fold in flour mixture and mix until smooth)
4. In another large bowl, beat the Cheese Mix until fluffy.
5. Scoop Nutella Mix into muffin cups (half-full) and top it up with a tablespoon of Cheese Mix.
6. Top it with hazelnuts / chocolate chips.
7. Bake muffins for about 20 to 25 minutes.