Epilog Pejuang

 Trying to make sense of the things that had happened Was one thing And trying to embrace and accept all the things that had happened Was another  "... Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: ‘We believe’, and will not be tested? ..." (Al-Ankabut 29:2) People ignore us, to the extent that we started to lose our trust in others; People hurt us, to the extent that we started to question our self-worth; People abandoned us, to the extent that we started to wonder if we actually deserve love and happiness. "Allah does not burden a person with something more than he can bear" (Surah Al-Baqarah 2:286) Little did we know That Allah sent us those people Into our lives To actually remind us That He is there He controls very single thing that happens, He holds the hearts of all those who drops by into our life; To actually show us That we are worthy of better Than those who had come before them Than those who had treated us a little less That is okay fo

  One day, if you were allowed to venture far enough into my life You might be caught off guard Seeing a landmine of broken pieces Of me I know At this point Many people will simply Turn back And walk away I know I cannot hope for anyone to stay Not everyone can Not everyone will Not even those tied to you by blood They are not yours To keep Enough of holding back All my thoughts All my feelings It's suffocating

I can just hope When and if one day you stop texting me I hope it will not be too difficult to adapt and move on 

right person at the wrong time that feeling when you meet the right person at the wrong time is one of the hardest feelings to go through it's definitely not spoken about hard enough the chemistry you have together are matched you really like each other a lot maybe you even love each other but you know that it is impossible for you to be together right now circumstances just don't allow it but you're in denial you still have hope so every single night when your head hits the pillow you lie there trusting the universe to maybe, just maybe, one day bring that person back into your life...

Am I selfish? Am I being too carefree? Am I taking things for granted? This is really what I meant by having no one to pass the baton to no one to run alongside with I thought I could count on you all But in all honesty I couldn't  Your life is still yours My life is still mine And I have no right to interfere No matter how close we are This is painful Very painful

  It . Came . Back Kacau It's been 15 years Why did you return? . I believe that dreams actually reflect whatever is actually going on in our subconscious mind. But some dreams just never make sense. And to add up to that, the repetitive dreams of the same thing - that definitely doesn't make any sense. Horror ones. Like humans parts getting cut up into pieces, and sold in the market ?  Just like how the butchers do??? Fingers in a plate ?! Or you can choose to have a whole hand instead ?! A whole leg hanged from the canopy rail ?! A whole spine to be cooked into sup tulang ?! And you start to wonder, wasn't these parts of the girl you just met yesterday ?! And worse, someone hid a whole box, parts of a person so dear to you, inside your closet ?! What the H*LL ??? Horror ones. Like being chased by some pagan priest, trying to convert you and join them to worship the sun ?! Horror ones. Like getting chased to be killed .  Actually getting killed . Roaming around predators,