Epilog Pejuang

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim... Above the crushing joy I experienced today when I get to meet two persons I admire most, I was forced to feel bad. Uhh... What a terrible memory I've got with me. A damaged harddisk, a friend say. I asked three different friends about what they are doing these days, and exactly the three of them answered me: "you've asked me this question before" "akak, dah tiga kali akak tanye soalan ni" and "bkan dah jawab ke soalan2 ni dulu?". Many have commented on my memory before, and I don't and I can't deny that I do have a problem when it comes to remembering things. But not when memorising things, nsyaAllah. Right now I'm having a little hard time typing, due to some injuries caused by falling two days in a row. Jatuh katil dua tingkat when I was about to come down (not when I was sleeping!) and the day after slipped on a slippery floor (I didn't see the marble floor has water on it!). As a result, my right kn...

2 Rejab 1427 @ 27 Julai 2006 Dengan study yang berpanjangan, kerja-kerja part time yang tak kenal henti, dan dugaan dan cabaran kehidupan yang sentiasa menguji, terasa macam baru je Ramadhan yang lepas berlalu... Tengok-tengok balik kalendar Hijrah, dah masuk Rejab 1427. Sekejap sangat. Tak sabar rasanya nak berjumpa dengan bulan yang paling best dalam hidup ni... bulan Ramadhan... tapi sedar diri ni masih terkulat-kulat dengan dunia... Leka, leka, dan leka sepanjang masa! Diri ini perlukan persiapan yang lebih mantap! Jadi, sementara masih berada di pembuka bulan Rejab, saya ingin minta kerjasama semua yang berminat untuk forward e-mails berkaitan dengan bulan Rejab, Sya'ban & Ramadhan check semula kesahihan kandungan e-mail yang akan diforward... Ianya amat baik untuk anda dan untuk ummah seluruhnya, insyaAllah. Selamat mempersiapkan diri untuk 'membentangkan' amalan-amalan kita di hadapan Allah pada hari Nisfu Sya'ban dan Selamat mempersiapkan diri untuk berjuang...

”Tidak ada kebaikan pada kebanyakan bisikan-bisikan mereka, kecuali bisikan-bisikan dari orang yang menyuruh (manusia) memberi sedeqah, atau berbuat ma’ruf, atau mengadakan perdamaian di antara manusia. Dan barangsiapa yang berbuat demikian kerana mencari keredhaan Allah, maka kelak Kami akan memberi kepadaNya pahala yang besar.” An-Nisa’:114 Money Case FAST TO FUND CAMPAIGN 97 mm x 190 mm Objektif: · Mengumpul dana/derma dari kalangan ahli dan peserta sebanyak RM 100 seorang · Menambah penghayatan ahli dan mahasiswa amnya terhadap isu Palestin Method perlaksanaan kempen: - Berlangsung selama 3 bulan (Rejab, Sya’ban dan Ramadhan), - Setiap peserta digalakkan berpuasa pada setiap Isnin dan Khamis sepanjang bulan Rejab dan Sya’ban, dan berpuasa wajib sepanjang bulan Ramadhan, - Derma sebanyak RM 100 yang disasar dari kalangan peserta melalui kempen ini adalah dikira berdasarkan jumlah ringgit yang dijimatkan daripada makan pada setiap hari berpuasa tersebut dan digunakan untuk tujuan der...

This is an interesting riddle. Try to solve it on ur own.................... Once there was a bus conductor, who was very rude to his passengers. One day a beautiful young girl, of around 18 years,tried to board the bus, but he didn't stop the bus. Unfortunately the beautiful young girl came under the bus and died on the spot. Angry passengers took the conductor to the police station, who in turn took him to the court. The judge was not at all impressed with him and gave him capital punishment. He was taken to the electrocution chamber. There was a single chair in the center of the room and a single banana peel at one corner of the room. The conductor was strapped to the chair and high voltage current was given to him! But to everyone's amazement, he survived. The judge decided to set him free, and he returned to his profession. After a few months, this time, a good looking middle aged woman tried to board the bus but the conductor didn't stop the bus. Unfortunately, this t...

this picture was taken by accident 16 July 2006

***Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others*** You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking. You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together. You should major in: Counseling Environmental studies Law Social work Political science Nursing What Should You Major In? http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoumajorinquiz/ Ahemm... Engineering ? - not my first choice after all. but i kinda fall in love with it without any understandable reason... Law ? - After going through tough times as an engineering student, I have actually considered this course but I didn't choose to change. Engineering IS interesting. Social work ? - I guess I'm attached to it already... not as a profession but as a commitment Nursing ? - Dad asked me to take medicine but i resisted because I don't like to study hard. Nursing can be an option for studying, but nursing don't really fit my aggressive + rough style. Allahu a...

BALI, Indonesia 15th - 18th July 2006 The night before... I didn't plan to go, and Abah n Ummi said it was okay for me not to go because I would hate to miss my 3-hour lab class on Monday. But Amad somehow succeeded in making me change my mind. "You WILL MISS a FOUR-DAY trip TO BALI just for a THREE HOUR LAB, which is like- how many percent of the whole semester?" that was exactly his final say. "Okay! Okay! You drive me to KL Central sekarang," I demanded. He agreed. I phoned Abah and asked for his permission and we headed to KL Central. . Ilyas in the Air Asia cockpit. Who had a chance like this before, do tell me! I'd like to keep your picture. Oh I'm so jealous! The 10 of us (out of 20) went for the trip. Abah, Ummi, Auntie Mimi, Ahmad, Isa, me, Atiqah, Ilyas, Ismail and Ishak. We were all very excited and surprised when we entered the Villa. Oh I really forgot its name. But everything was beautiful and cool and just couldn't get it elsewhere. A...

Friday, 14th July 2006 I didn't get to follow the others to the KLCC Twin Towers. They went for sight-seeing from the bridge at the how-many-level (..??) and I went for a date with my ex-schoolmate and bought a photo album for my pictures in Jordan.

"Last-last jadi la Nihlah Kasut Sukan" Saya langsung gelak terbahak-bahak dan hampir jatuh dari katil apabila membaca ayat itu di atas skrin laptop saya. Bertambahlah trademark saya di Pusat Matrikulasi UIAM. Saya berlari ke bilik komputer, mungkin 10-15 meter jarak dari katil saya dan menceritakan khabar lucu ini kepada adik saya Atiqah. "Kesiannya awak," katanya ringkas sambil tersengih, masih menghadap PC yang menguji kesabarannya sejak saya balik dari KL Central tadi. Connection internet terlalu slow rungutnya. Tetapi wireless connection saya tidak bermasalah pula, alhamdulillah. Beberapa semester lepas juga saya diberitahu tentang pandangan pelajar-pelajar Engineering di MCIIUM terhadap saya. "Budak yang beg dia banyak badge tu kan" Angguk dan (tahan) ketawa (walaupun tak jadi). Button badges memang kegemaran saya. Eh? Sejak bila? Oh, sebenarnya bukan kegemaran atau untuk menghias beg, tapi untuk promote kepada rakan-rakan dan sesiapa yang nampak. Lai...

Finally, I would like to admit that I don't know how to start packing up for school, and a part of me is still not ready... It has been busy and tiring days since I returned to Malaysia, and to my surprise, my jetlag hasn't left me. In Urdun, I used to sleep at about 10 p.m. for most of the nights and wake only at least 6 hours later and sleep again for an hour or two. Now in Malaysia, I just couldn't fall asleep before 1 a.m. and will wake up at earliest 9 a.m., but ahem~ i do wake up for subh prayer and of course- sleep again. For only one big reason, I wish the tense air is around. Since a year ago, I realised that being pressured and having a tough life would be a better way of living this life. I'd sleep just as much as I need to, work hard, and remember Allah more often... Relaxing my physical, mental and spiritual state is just unacceptable. But how could I bear the damn headache forever? 5 years is already miserable. What do you think? So, I'll start packing...

My morning was miserable... The green baju kurung was somehow uncomfortable, and small~ but I don't think I collected fat anywhere recently... But I just didn't like it. I compared it with the sample baju kurung they sent to the tailor - the one i like - n yes, it is indeed smaller than that baju kurung. I was frustrated. I babbled a couple of sentences. "Tikki, you're sure this's not Basma's or Deena's???" etc etc,, and Tikki go like: "Noooo... You're the only one who have baju kurung. Orang lain semua baju kebarung..." OK- end of baju. I forced myself. Then the tudung. It's really stupid. I swear I'll never ever again pakai tudung macam tu... So horrible... I just don't know how to explain how terrible I felt... Anyways, things went on fine later. Very fine, alhamdulillah. And I had a great day, masyaAllah... akad nikah pelamin masa baru siap bilik pengantin yang sangat cantik, subhanallah... perbincangan doktor-doktor....

Antara minat, tanggungjawab dan tanggungjawab... --- my schedule since I returned to this beloved homeland --- June 27 onwards = Kemas bilik - pack barang into boxes, cat bilik, basuh carpet, re-assemble bilik, pasang langsir baru lining kaler pink argh geramnye!!! = Prep Kakak's wedding - Tolong wedding preparation kakak yang sangat banyak June 29 = HOPE meeting June 3 = HOPE meeting July 4 = GEMA Palestin meeting July 5 = ADNI Alumni meeting [tak dapat pegi] ------------------------- past ---------------------------- July 6 = Gotong-royong utk Palestin - K-Intl's project [tak dapat pegi] = Siap kemas bilik! Yay! ------------------------ future --------------------------- July 7 = DEMO - Himpunan Ummat Islam bagi membantah kezaliman Zionis & Israel di Palestin p/s: ikhwah & akhawat, sila pakai baju hitam . siapa nak beli muffler palestin boleh contact saya (limited! 0122613759) [NAK PEGI WAJIB PEGI mcm mana ni...???] = Aimi's wedding = TaeKwon-Do training (i'm...

Semalam aku dihujani lagi dengan kalam yang menyakitkan hati dan minda. Kali ini: Aku taksub dengan JIM. Aku tersengih sarcastic dan langsung menafikan. Aku taksub dengan JIM?! Wahai kawan-kawan, sahabat handai dan rakan seperjuangan yang mengenaliku lebih dari seminggu, adakah aku sebenarnya taksub dengan mana-mana NGO atau kerajaan??? Memang aku rasa aku tak perlu bergaduh bab ummah centric ni. Apa yang aku utarakan bukannya "haram wujudnya pelbagai badan-badan berlainan dalam Islam", kerana aku bukannya ulama' yang boleh memberi fatwa. Yang aku tegaskan ialah kita orang Islam patut berusaha untuk bersatu dan bekerjasama, walaupun di bawah banner yang berlainan . Selagi mana kita boleh berjalan seiringan, lakukan. Bukannya gaduh sana- gaduh sini- dan mengumpamakan berda'wah dengan pihak yang lain sama dengan kes membersihkan najis - "kalau kita nak bersihkan najis, mana boleh kita bersekongkol dengan najis, nanti dengan kita-kita sekali kotor". Wujud rupan...

Aku ketap bibir geram. Terasa electric current mengalir dalam saluran darahku, menjentik-jentik kedua belah tanganku yang luka-luka dek cuaca kering dan panas Jordan. Aku yang sensitif. Aku memang cukup menyampah dan rimas dengan kehadiran manusia yang cuba untuk mengubah rentak perjuanganku di atas muka bumi ini. Aku punya fokus yang lebih penting. Aku yang agresif. Hanya genggam tangan sehingga wujud bekas kuku jari-jariku yang kurang tajam. Cukup menumbuk dinding, almari dan cermin tandas sejak beberapa tahun yang lepas, walaupun belum puas. Aku yang masih berusaha mengawal sabar. Tanganku punya fungsi yang lebih baik dan penting dari itu. Ampunilah daku ya Allah... Excellerate my achievements in studies. Isnin lepas aku tiba di Bangkok International Airport untuk transit ke KLIA, Abah mengkhabarkan kejayaan abang-abangku dalam pelajaran mereka. Terutamanya Yusuf Johari yang baru aku kenali walaupun lama aku ketahui itu. Adikku Atiqah juga baru tamat final CAT exam, dan aku sangat p...

Assalamu'alaykum! Dengan penuh kesyukuran dimaklumkan walimatul urus kakakku yang tersayang... Dr. Bushra & Dr. Mohd Amin bertempat di kediaman keluarga Johari di No 4, Jalan Mulia 2/4, Taman Bukit Mulia, Bukit Antarabangsa, Ampang. pada hari Sabtu, 8 Julai 2006 2:30 ptg - 4:30 ptg datanglah beramai-ramai ye...