22nd June 2020 I was breaking and nearly stopped functioning. I was trembling and my heart was beating so fast. Breathless and panicking. I knew something was not right in me. And this was not the first time in the past few months. I grabbed all purple and pink essential oils on my rack - Lavender, Harmony, Release, Transformation, Motivation, Grounding, Joy. Tonyoh dan deep inhale semua. I desperately needed to get out of this situation. I needed different environment. But I couldn't go far. In fact, I have nowhere to go. So I drove to a nearby coffee shop and sat there for many many hours. Suddenly, I finally gathered up the courage to get more help. Called a doctor friend and went to get a a referral letter to get 'treatment'. 15th July 2020... Diagnosed with MDD - Major Depressive Disorder. While I acknowledge this sh*t, I am not proud of it. Macam jadi trend pulak anak-anak muda zaman sekarang jadi stress. While I wish people around me know what I am going through '
