Epilog Pejuang

I don't consider myself a person of linguistic intelligence, but words of affirmation is evidently my language. While people usually refer to negative, toxic words and curses as huge red flags, Silence and lack of communication could also be pure torture. Use the right words. Use kind words. B'coz you never know Words that seem so neutral Can hurt a broken heart A lot more Than you could imagine Even when you never meant Any harm It's a dealbreaker  Whatever comes out of your mouth  is a reflection of your mind and your heart. Yes To me Words- They matter

There were times when I felt like I wanted to run away. There were times when I actually ran away and hid myself for hours, only returning at midnight, finding my kids crying frantically in my absence.  There are still times when I feel like running away again, but I'm too tired to even get up, put on my shoes, and drive away. I just want to disappear. Really. But I can't.

 12+ years... You've grown up so much. Looking at the person you've become now, I feel so blessed. As the proverb says, sejuk perut ibu mengandung. Even the caesarian scar could turn pretty.  You were strong, you were brave, and you were rational in accepting the trials Allah has set for you at a young age. You were my strength. You were there to keep me sane. And your presence always reminded me that I should never give up for us. It didn't take long for you to get back up and focus on the future, instead of dwell on the things we couldn't change. فَإِنَّ مَعَ ٱلْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا، إِنَّ مَعَ ٱلْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا... When Allah takes away something from us, He will surely replace them with something better - sooner or later, in this world on in the Next. Yes, we might feel sad and discouraged by certain life events, but Allah has also presented to us things that could make us happy and thankful. Still, the steps you took until now are still just baby steps. Great challenges s...

So many things Left unsaid Only memories And feelings That fades away It's true what they say Befriend a perfume seller You'll get to smell nice.. Surround yourself With positive people You'll get to absorb their vibes.. Recharge When they smile at you When they compliment you When they make you laugh When they lend you a shoulder When they hold your hand When they walk with you When they look into your eyes Don't worry About what The future might bring It's not your call Embrace Their presence Every second Even for a short bit Even if they don't realize it Maybe They are God-sent; To call you out From the darkness You were stuck in; To hold you From falling again; To tell you That you are doing great; I wish I could tell Each and every one Of them That they mean The world To me Bcoz Sooner or later They might not stay And maybe Walk away So All I could Say is Thank you For everything ❤️  

  You can do it You've got nothing to lose You'll be fine You'll get through Just let go Don't hold onto things that do not belong to you Don't wander into thoughts that are not even real Don't dwell on feelings that are constantly suppressed Don't breathe in a space that continuously suffocates you True enough You've swam through greater oceans and even sank countless of times You might have drowned for a bit But you survived 2 was there Offering some Rays of sunshine Through stormy days But now It's time To just let silence stay As silent as our heart Beats

  When it gets too painful to move Too suffocating to breathe Just sit down and take a break. Eventually You will get back up On your feet And continue that journey You started. Just Let me enjoy The walk At my own pace. Please Don't push me To venture Into the grounds I had so much tried To escape from.

  Dearest Nihlah Yesterday, you've victoriously crossed another important bridge in your life. While the waters below go quite wild and dangerous, you could have chosen to cross it differently - by going through the hassle of looking for a boat to float across, or by going into the waters but risking and messing yourself all over, or by creating some big drama so that others around would show some pity come to your aid, or simply by any other means --- but you chose to braved your heart and slowly walk across the fragile, narrow bridge, carefully navigating every step taken by you and your 4 lovely children so that none of you would fall. This week, three dear persons told you that you have a big heart and a big soul. I don't exactly know what that means, but I like the sound of it. I think they meant that you're a very nice person. Everyone who knew the trial you faced yesterday said that they would never attempt to do what you just did or have the courage to go through it...