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Disappear

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There were times when I felt like I wanted to run away. There were times when I actually ran away and hid myself for hours, only returning at midnight, finding my kids crying frantically in my absence.  There are still times when I feel like running away again, but I'm too tired to even get up, put on my shoes, and drive away. I just want to disappear. Really. But I can't.

12+ years

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 12+ years... You've grown up so much. Looking at the person you've become now, I feel so blessed. As the proverb says, sejuk perut ibu mengandung. Even the caesarian scar could turn pretty.  You were strong, you were brave, and you were rational in accepting the trials Allah has set for you at a young age. You were my strength. You were there to keep me sane. And your presence always reminded me that I should never give up for us. It didn't take long for you to get back up and focus on the future, instead of dwell on the things we couldn't change. فَإِنَّ مَعَ ٱلْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا، إِنَّ مَعَ ٱلْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا... When Allah takes away something from us, He will surely replace them with something better - sooner or later, in this world on in the Next. Yes, we might feel sad and discouraged by certain life events, but Allah has also presented to us things that could make us happy and thankful. Still, the steps you took until now are still just baby steps. Great challenges s...