Epilog Pejuang

TAMING THE MIGRAINE MONSTER. 24 years of migraine, and hopefully it stops HERE. My earliest memories of suffering throbbing, painful headaches was when I was 11. But a diary which I used to write in for English lessons was an evidence that the series of headaches had started since I was 9. I've been wondering how I survived being so active in sports, but slept throughout my classes in school. I'm sure my teachers still remember my sleeping-not-beauty attitude (huhu!)... My only guess was that sports promotes blood flow to my head, that's why I loved it so much. At 15, I started having terrible backpains. Yet I still go for TaeKwon-Do tournaments, horseback riding, archery, netball and few other sports. I started visiting the hospital for series of x-rays and CT-scans and MRIs. I had scoliosis and started attending physio sessions weekly. But TaeKwon-Do and horseback riding was still a weekly thing for me. I started taking migraine prescriptions when I was 16...

If only I could scream my heart out...  If only I could let the world know how much it hurts to keep on going like this... I only I could simply make decisions without worrying about the consequences... If only I could put myself and my own interests first... If only I could pull myself up and leave all this mess...

2016 was my last post. I just want to jot down here that it’s been a long struggle, and I honestly don’t know if I can cope any longer..... I can just take One breath at a time One step at a time One day at a time To my four sweethearts, I hope you all know much I love you... and I really wish I could do more for each and every one of you... But I guess I’m reaching my limit soon... I don’t know

'Read in the Name of Allah' literally means reading anything with the intention of doing it for the sake of Allah. While 'Read the Names of Allah' literally means to read up the 99 Names of Allah or the attributes of Allah. Although both actions are important and highly encouraged in Islam, the first is claimed to be much related to Islamic Education according to many scholars. "Read / Proclaim! In the Name of Your Lord" - Al-Alaq:1 - This verse is the first revelation from Allah s.w.t. to the Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. and it is being discussed by scholars of the past as well as contemporary scholars to be the basis of seeking knowledge in Islam. In this verse, the word iqra' have a wide meaning and it does not limit the reading to any particular topic or area, whether religious or non-religious, whether academic or non-academic. It opens up the call to seek knowledge through reading. The only condition of this verse is to read in the Name of Allah...

17th November 2016 marks another milestone in my personal TaeKwon-Do life. Since I was a teenanger, especially when I was very active in participating in national championships and spending my weekends as an instructor - at the age of 13 - to those younger and older than me, I have dreamt of having the honourable 'wings' (in Malay we call it 'sayap'), or black stripe on my uniform. And today is the day I get to wear that uniform. Releasing the truth only today, to be honest, I was pretty much demotivated when I had to withdraw myself from being a part of the Malaysian contingent to the 6th World Junior Championship, for the sake of my IGCSE O-Levels examination and my entire future. At 2nd Dan in 2004, it was a point where I thought I was losing everything I have strived for in TaeKwon-Do. It was a point where I thought I could and will never achieve more. So I attempted to join Karate, but only for a year. And later I attempted to join WTF TaeKwon-Do but also only ...