Epilog Pejuang

23rd July 2011 I was down and depressed, exhausted and wondering --- How in the world could I possibly be a good mother??? I was not talking about being a GREAT mom, but simply a GOOD mom. And Allah had answered my question immediately. Ikram is now over 1 year and 3 months old, and I still have the feeling of not being able to adjust my whole life to become a mother to a child. To give the fullest and not to expect getting something in return is really difficult. Every day I wonder if I am giving my child all the attention he needs, or am I pampering him and spoiling him too much? I wonder if I should do all the daily chores with him - feeding, bathing, etc - or is it okay to let the maid help out with that from time to time? After a week of high fever (not including fever during the previous week and the week before) and what sounds like a very bad cough, Mujahid and I decided to bring Ikram to the hospital. It was midnight. We went to get a referral from a clinic nearby ou...

It has been such a hectic week and I'm now taking a pause, for the third time I guess, because it seems to be impractical to proceed on my own pace while others are stuck behind unable to meet their deadlines. The feeling is truly not a good one :( so here I am, blogging... I think it's already a month since I started working in Adni. I'm not teaching yet, well, not formally. I've been doing administrative stuff, which are not even close to computer or electronics engineering. Well, bits and pieces of things I do are related to computers and electronics, but not the engineering part. People always ask me if this is really the thing I wanted to do, and if so why did I ever get myself into the trouble of studying engineering. Well, it's surely going to be a long explanation, but I guess in simple words I would say: It's the process of learning that makes one a person, regardless of the subject major. Well, actually it counts but it's not a very big deal. I had...

This is the boy who's growing up so fast! suka sangat masuk dalam bakul / kotak ... and splash and splash and splash!!! tapi geli nak pijak rumput huhu... "nak!" Ikram's trademark when he was about 1 year old playing happily. mula2 takut buat gradually get used to the overwhelming pool of balls

Oh I’ve not been blogging for ages! 1 month passed since I started my industrial training, and I tell you, it’s really cracking my brain out. But very fortunately and Alhamdulillah, I’ve only get two days of migraine attacks since then. My boss (my elder brother actually) told me to get a medical leave slip a.k.a. mc for myself, but I had to tell him that I never get mc’s for having migraines. It’s either I cannot afford to get up to see a doctor, or the doctor would simply give me painkillers with assumption that the migraine will go away and thus no mc is needed. What a pity to migraine sufferers, isn’t it??? Anyways, I am right now doing my industrial training in Kapar, Kelang, which is waaay far from home. It’s a good thing that I do not have to drive :) FYI, I actually planned to do my industrial training somewhere near home but my brother insisted that I should help on some project in Dad’s factory… so here I am, having practically FOUR supervisors looking after my progress. Apar...

it's been nearly two months since my last post.. sekarang nak menulis, tapi tgh tak tau nak start dari mana.. mungkin sebab dah lama sangat tak menulis kat blog ni sampai berkarat sikit idea nye.. huhu.. so let's start with my latest family picture.. taken on the recent Eid-ul-Adha at 'rumah besar' as referred by Nabil. oh its so cute Nabil refers to Tok Ummi's house - the house he lives in - as 'rumah besar'. his parents bedroom is 'rumah Nabil', the house i'm living in is 'rumah Ikram', and so on.. he can even differentiate between Muja's Myvi and Kholah Tikki's Myvi although both are silver in colour. and he knows if the turqoise Hyundai Getz he sees on the road is not his mother's. such a brilliant boy, subhanallah! Ammar is the second grandson of the huge family. he's also super-duper cute and clever. he's a huge fan of Tok Abah's iPad and calls it 'pad'. one day he was at his other grandfather's h...

at 5 month ikram starts weaning, eating fruits n vegetable puree and everyone immediately commented that he put on weight!; ikram knows how to roll from his back to front a week before he turns 5 months; he learnt how to pass his rattle from his right hand to his left and back again before he turned 4 months; he could giggle when he turned exactly 3 months; he couldn't wear his newborn clothes anymore a week before he turned two months. he was too long for them already; a week before that he started smiling 'real smiles' and learns how to play with people; 4th October will be Ikram's first day of school @ hadhonah adni praying that everything will go on well, nshaAllah :)

Weekend family trip to Kemaman in May 2010~ Baby Ikram's first time to the beach! waiting for sunrise :) Ikram Fakhri high up in the sky! Mama squeeze Ikram Ikram with cousin Nabil and Ishraf. Its too bad Ammar wasn't there with us :( Baby turtles!!! Nooo.. It's sand-turtles! Made using Nabil's sand toys ^__^

Last week was quite hectic for us when Mavi Marmara was attacked by the Israelis. Mujahid's father a.k.a. my father-in-law was one of the activists @ volunteer on that freedom flotilla. Suspense was indeed in the air as I watched the news on al-Jazeera and a Turkish online website, as we all waited for Abah to call home - if he is still safe and sound. Alhmdulillah, Allah knows best, a couple of days later the Israelis let free the 12 Malaysians who were on Mavi Marmara. As you all had already known, they were sent to Jordan. Abah called home. Several weeks back, Mujahid had asked me to translate his CV to join the cause. Sorry Abang I really had to hesitate because I was so not ready to raise our baby alone for now, not even for a couple of days, in addition to some other reasons.. It's not "never" it's just "not yet".. inshaAllah.. Anyways, on Tuesday 1st June 2010, Ikram Fakhri went off for his first demonstration for Palestine. Being the youngest dem...

Property of Mom Forever ^__^ Ikram with Baba @ Meeting KNL meja meeting pun boleh lah.. janji ada tempat tidur..~

1-day old the night mama took care of me alone at the hospital it's 12 a.m. and i'm wide awake nearly 3-weeks old travelling back to JB baba went back to KL for work while mama n i stayed back "hello baba.. ikram rindu baba.. bila baba nak balik sini?" "hmm...." *Ikram memikirkan masalah ummat..* 3-weeks old happy baby boy likes to practice smiling ^__^ subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

hee~ akhirnya ikram fakhri dah botak.. tok abah hasan & tok ummi mahiza datang tengok fakhri, cukur rambut & tahniq sekali... ikram fakhri yg selesa tido di pangkuan tok abah :) maintain je, kan! "eh eh.. tok abah buat apa kat kepala ikram ni..?" "oh.. cukur rambut ke.. takpe lah macam tu.. ingatkan ape tadi.." "lain tak rupa Ikram? haa Ikram boleh geng dgn Ishraf lepas ni ^_^" tahniq pulak. ikram suka kurma & madu sedap~