Epilog Pejuang

23rd July 2011 I was down and depressed, exhausted and wondering --- How in the world could I possibly be a good mother??? I was not talking about being a GREAT mom, but simply a GOOD mom. And Allah had answered my question immediately. Ikram is now over 1 year and 3 months old, and I still have the feeling of not being able to adjust my whole life to become a mother to a child. To give the fullest and not to expect getting something in return is really difficult. Every day I wonder if I am giving my child all the attention he needs, or am I pampering him and spoiling him too much? I wonder if I should do all the daily chores with him - feeding, bathing, etc - or is it okay to let the maid help out with that from time to time? After a week of high fever (not including fever during the previous week and the week before) and what sounds like a very bad cough, Mujahid and I decided to bring Ikram to the hospital. It was midnight. We went to get a referral from a clinic nearby ou...

It has been such a hectic week and I'm now taking a pause, for the third time I guess, because it seems to be impractical to proceed on my own pace while others are stuck behind unable to meet their deadlines. The feeling is truly not a good one :( so here I am, blogging... I think it's already a month since I started working in Adni. I'm not teaching yet, well, not formally. I've been doing administrative stuff, which are not even close to computer or electronics engineering. Well, bits and pieces of things I do are related to computers and electronics, but not the engineering part. People always ask me if this is really the thing I wanted to do, and if so why did I ever get myself into the trouble of studying engineering. Well, it's surely going to be a long explanation, but I guess in simple words I would say: It's the process of learning that makes one a person, regardless of the subject major. Well, actually it counts but it's not a very big deal. I had...

My first experience being an English teacher was just AWESOME. Initially I hesitated as my English is not very good compared to many of my friends, and I've never really taught students properly.. Yeah I've coached TaeKwon-Do since I was 13-14 but the idea of teaching English is totally different. Teaching others something you're not really good at... And teaching Thai students with differnet levels of English... umphh... but I agreed to do it, nevertheless, plus it's only for a month.. It's a good thing that I teamed up with Mubina **credits to her!** so teaching and 'organizing' the English camp was great---even though I got attacked with fever, flu & migraine throughout the camp. So as I said, it was a great experience. Love my students :D:D:D:D:D each of them have their own way of learning and expressing things. here's a picture of us taken during our trip to Genting Highlands standing from left: me - amnan - nasran - sofron - ammal - anas - nafe...

This is the boy who's growing up so fast! suka sangat masuk dalam bakul / kotak ... and splash and splash and splash!!! tapi geli nak pijak rumput huhu... "nak!" Ikram's trademark when he was about 1 year old playing happily. mula2 takut buat gradually get used to the overwhelming pool of balls

SPLASHING!!! Kalau kat pool or sungai takpe,.. tapi Kalau time mandi, memang basah kuyup la mama or 'makcik kecik' aka Humaira yg suka tolong mandikan ikram :) Ikram now loves to play passing game. bagi kita barang, pastu dia mintak balik.. huhuhu.. layan~~ Ya Allah, please grant us health, and make this baby boy grow up healthy... Ameen~ *** Ikram mode demam... orang kata sbb tumbuh gigi... orang kata sbb nak pandai jalan... apa pun, turn to Allah ***

time passes by so fast n Ikram has turned 10 months few days ago! few days before he turned 10 months, he took 3 small steps while trying to balance himself ^__^ it was so cute, believe me! Baba n Mama got very excited! hehehe...

"your boss might understand you because they're your dad and brother, but not all your colleagues will feel the same way" my dad suggests that it would be best for me to work on my own, i.e. have my own company or something because if i'm stuck not being able to do anything for one day then i won't be holding anyone back with their work.. alhamdulillah, it's great that i have the choice and inshaAllah ability to decide my career path. many other migraineurs are stuck with bosses and colleagues and even family members who does not understand their pain!