Epilog Pejuang

29th April 2006 We visited the shrine of Prophet Musa (as) at Mount Nebo, a location very near to Palestine. It’s currently managed by the Christians. A friend questioned: Why do I visit shrines (maqam) all around Jordan? Nak berdoa ke? Uh! Tolong la… I’m not stupid or mad to pray at graves. I visit them to verify the existence of these people by heart. And pray that Allah grant me all the qualities they have. Patience, strength, courage, wisdom, love, and many more…

(this's my laptop wallpaper right now) 27th April 2006 In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious The Most Merciful... Skarang ni baru boleh menaip dgn kurang skema kot. Citer sblm ni rasenye mcm amat plain. Mmg menaip jugak kat rumah, tapi nak merecord hari² yang berlaku ni gayanye macam amat asing bagi realiti hidupku. Macam tak tau nak ckp ape. Kalau tak pun, balik² cerita lebih kurang... Sendiri bosan. Heh... Ni lah orang yg tak menulis diari harian (ulang balik: harian je), untuk pengetahuan semua... Started joining lectures in University of Jordan, particularly Tafseer and Manhaj Mufassirin classes, which is rather 'foreign' for me especially when the whole lecture was in arabic. Not even a sentence of English except for today "i will consider that" by Dr. Muhammad Rayyan. I only join his lectures. He's really great and knowledgable and etc. And the Arab students were mostly participative and the it was really a two-way communication between students and the...

24th April 2006 It’s been 10 days since I wrote what happened! Huhuhu… Pardon me… This evening, I suddenly feel like I miss the KARISMA International family. Yesterday chatted with Kak Yam J for about an hour Oh it was soooo exiting. Mase tu rase macam nk cerita smua mender,,, tapi ntah cakap ni cakap tu, tak ingat ape pun ape yg dah cakap. Hehehe… On the 15th we went to as-Salt, where maqam Prophet Shu’aib (as) was located. It’s pretty cold in as-Salt, and I regretted not wearing extra clothing. It rained that day if I’m not mistaken… or the day after…? Anyway, anyone feeling down often tested by Allah with illness, remember the life of Prophet Shu’aib... May we be thankful for each and everything we get. And on 17th April we went to Jabal Hussein and ate Shawarma. People say it’s one of the best Shawarma in Amman… and indeed it is!

14th April 2006 We went to the other part of the Roman Site. Summer’s in, and the sun was really hot. But the wind was still chilling. We burnt our skin.

12th April 2006 Another class at Markaz alFaransa. I guess we’ll join the classes for the time being. Met the principal and she said that it’s too late to quit and refund. Yeah, the first week from 10 weeks is too late. Maybe that’s their policy, Allahu a’lam. She told us that maybe we can try join the 2nd level, higher level of Ammi Arabic--- next Wednesday 19th April. - no picture for today -

11th April 2006 Ahah… We had our first trip elsewhere to practice our Arabic. It’s our tutors’ house. Oh btw, our tutors are Ustaz Marwan and his wife Ala’. Ala’ is a couple of years older than me and yes, younger than Kak Maziah and Cik Nurul. Anyways, we didn’t expect Ala’s family to be so welcoming and friendly. They’re ‘Ammatu Khadijah (Ala’s mother oh she was very glad when we call her ‘ammatu), Noor (she’s my age), Ruba and Lina (both still in high school) and Yasmin (Ala’s sister-in-law). We cooked together from the beginning till the meal was served. Kupas bawang n potong bawang [tak nak pedih mata, siler rendam bawang2 tu dulu), basuh ayam [diorg basuh guna lemon + tepung sikit], dan sebagainye… Masak nasi ayam + minyak arab – qidrah namenye. And yea, dah sehari dok dengan orang-orang Arab ni, macam-macam yg diborakkan. Lintang-pukang jugak kitorang cakap Arab. Haha… Tapi ade berusaha jugak la. Borak-borak pasal nasyid, pasal makanan, hmm ape lagi ekk… Haaa… Ade jugak di-remin...

10th April 2006 Classes at Markaz al-Thaqafiyyah al-Faransa started. We joined the 1st Level! I’m not boasting or anything, but they’re teaching ismi Nihlah- ana Malayziyyeh- sakne fi Amman fi Abu Nuseir- etc etc. Huhuhu… The only confusing thing is that we’re learning Ammi instead of Fushah. They don’t offer Fushah Arabic there. I wonder why should we learn such since we’re only staying here for two months and will return to Malaysia, where we will not use even a little percentage of Ammi Arabic. Some error has been done (i.e. we shouldn’t have gone to that Markaz in the first place) and we’re still figuring out how to continue on… - picture from left: kak maziah & nihlah -