Epilog Pejuang

feel like crying ... again ...

2012-01-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

i still have no idea how mothers juggle work and house chores.

many told me, learn from your mom.
but for some silent reasons, that just doesn't work!

chicken pox attack !!!

2012-01-24T08:24:00.001+08:00

today is the 6th day. the dots are drying up, which is a good sign. but i guess its more itchy than the past few days.. poor little boy.

but alhamdulillah, Ikram manage to communicate his needs nowadays. he'll point where he's feeling itchy here and there, he can say "mama, sakit pewut..." and more. he talks a lot these days and he loves to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star!

see! why on the third day of attack i was doubting whether it was really chicken pox or something more nasty.

today he's itching badly, and tantrum since 5 a.m. in the morning..

syafakallah..

public speaking

2012-01-23T17:29:00.001+08:00

Do you remember your first experience standing in front doing public speaking or a presentation?

I do, mine was horrible,
and I decided that it will be one of the top three things i will hate for the rest of my life.

I remember standing up on the small stage in front of nearly a hundred of my schoolmates and teachers with absolute nervousness. As much as I wanted to show total confidence, both of my hands trembled, one holding the microphone and the other holding a piece of paper. I am sure I saw the youngest of my classmate who stood right in front of me grinned as he saw how nervous I was.

I was a school prefect back then, and it was compulsory for each of us to take turns giving tazkirah during the school assembly on Mondays. I do not remember what was I talking about, but I obviously did not deliver a good talk. And I decided, I hate speaking in public.

As I grow up, small training sessions come in my way, but informally.

I received my Black Belt TaeKwon-Do degree and became an instructor at the age of 13. I mainly taught ladies, most were younger or about my age, and some were way older than me.

Of course, along the way, I could never run away from the public speaking sessions during assembly, because I was a prefect until I graduated from school.

After high school graduation, I conducted a small weekly usrah group with my school juniors.

And instead of joining clubs or student representative councils in university, I joined an NGO and started to be active in the Palestinian issue. While learning and feeding myself with the issue, I shared what I know with others. I volunteered in exhibition booths and informally trained myself to speak in public.

As I was becoming more active, I had to deliver small talks on the Palestinian issue in front of maybe 20-40 people. And all those while, my hand would still tremble if I hold a microphone!

Then one day, I was asked to deliver a talk to some lower secondary students during their general assembly. I hesitated at first, but took the challenge. I thought there will be only at most 100-150 students, just like the weekly assembly back in my school. But my estimation was not even near. I was totally shocked when there were at least 500 - Yes, FIVE HUNDRED - pairs of eyes which belongs to students younger than me, and at least 20 pairs which belongs to the teachers!
But already standing there, I couldn't turn back.
I held the microphone and tried my best to hide my trembling hands. I gathered all the confidence (and ego) that I have in me and said "Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh"
and.....
all the trembling DISAPPEARED!

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

I continued my presentation, of course with no perfection, but getting rid of the trembling was to me a great achievement..

NOW,
I am formally a teacher.
Talking in public is, maybe, now a second nature to me. Maybe, hehe... But I still need all the preparation time and resources I can have in order to deliver nicely.
But oh, somehow I still have this "aaa..." every now and then when I do formal public speaking... Which totally spoils everything!

Until today, I adore several people I've known closely for their ability not just to speak in public, but also their 'wise-ness' in dealing with all matters we've came across. We've gone on separate paths but I'm sure I will still bump into them now and then because our aim is the same, inshaAllah.

So, my advice to my dear students and others who read this piece, whether you like it or not, just TRY YOUR BEST. You might not be able to meet success immediately, but it will definitely come your way.

InshaAllah!

my graduation pics

2011-12-31T14:20:00.003+08:00

alhamdulillah, finally!

Bachelor of Engineering (Honors) in

Computer Information & Electronics
( 2006 - 2010 )

2011-12-29T09:34:00.001+08:00

if only the words were spoken with a more supportive tone and a helping hand, it would have made a whole lot of difference in where i am now physically mentally and emotionally.

2011-12-29T09:27:00.000+08:00

i know why i'm here. i put my 101% into my tasks, and sometimes eat late and don't really get a break. and then i got scolded for not taking care of myself first. is that what i deserve?

there and back again...

2011-11-03T09:35:00.000+08:00

Earlier this afternoon, a student greeted me and asked, "Teacher, Teacher ada blog kan?". I answered yes. And she said with a big grin, "Mak saya selalu tengok blog teacher.."

A big "OOOOPS..." slipped out of my mouth.

But thinking about it, I don't think there's anything to hide I guess. Of course parents would like to know what kind of teachers their students have in school, because other than parents themselves, teachers too play a huge role in being examplary to the students - which is definitely not easy.

Anyway, today, I'm back again at the spot i was in about 5 months ago - preparing for students' report card pick-up - the point where I can barely move on with my pace because others are stuck with their work. However, this time, I'm truly grateful to Allah for he blessed me with a very cool, awesome, experienced and wise colleague. Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

Now I'm blogging in my car. I stepped out of office more than half an hour ago but I'm bringing with me all the stress and disappointment. I'm still trying to take it out of me and leave it behind so that I can smile widely when I reach home, but it seems not the be that easy...

So how am I supposed to go about it? Any suggestions?

it's been quite a while...

2011-09-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

Again, it's been quite a while since I last blogged. I guess there are very few who still visit this blog but I'll continue to write nevertheless, because this blog is to acknowledge the past and maybe write out some plans for the future.

Anyways, Ikram's 1 year and a half now, and he's being so talkative. He has countless of vocabs now, alhamdulillah, although he still cannot pronounce many words correctly. We'll just wait, inshaAllah :)

Just for the record, I posted this on my FB yesteday:

Ikram just sneezed and he said "a-dillah". After a split second, just realizing something, I turned to him and said "yarhamukallah!" with a surprised face. He then smiled widely! Alhamdulillah.

I hope I can hear him recite his do'a before meals soon :)

Anyways, tomorrow is my beloved hubby's birthday. 13th September. I have so much to say about him, but now I can just say that he has been so great. A great husband, a great friend, a great dad, a great - everything. I couldn't have become what I am today without him.

Thinking back about the past, there was one thing in me that he managed to change: liking sushi. I used to dislike sushi like anything, I couldn't even swallow the rice, let alone eat seaweeds (I still cannot eat seaweed on its own now).. One day after a couple of months getting married, Mujahid asked me to go out and eat sushi with him. I remembered it was in Batu Pahat Mall, his kampung. I hesitated at first but then agreed to just accompany him. Then I ended up tasting, and liking, and eating a lot of sushi! now I'm a hantu of sushi, and it must be with wasabe! I cannot take a lot of it but I still like it - wasabe. Eating sushi without wasabe is definitely not eating sushi.

Hehehe.. Tikki will definitely disagree to this.

BTW, Ikram likes spaghetti bolognese a lot. He's not a fan of cheese, just like I am. He looks a lot like his father, but I think he has my tastebuds :P

I AM A STUDENT, WIFE, MOTHER AND DA`IE

2011-08-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

Published in Fikrah Adni 2010 (Adni Year Book)

"Our responsibilities exceed the time that we have. So spend our time wisely..."

Al-Syahid Imam Hasan Al-Banna

2010 might just be another year to many people, but to me it was a year that tested everything in me – my capability, strength, patience and so much more. Juggling responsibilities of a wife, a daughter, an engineering student and a da’ie had occupied every day of life since I got married in October 2008. I attended lectures and lab sessions during the day and sat down in usrahs and Islamic lectures during the night. Weekends are occupied with programs and organizational meetings. Time between those activities are spent with family, and helping my husband with his part-time business.

Alhamdulillah, on 12th April 2010, Allah has blessed me and my husband with an adorable son. Another super huge responsibility now hangs upon my shoulders – to ensure the well-being of the baby and to provide everything he needs emotionally, mentally, physically and even spiritually. I knew it would not be easy. I have known people who perform better academically after having their own family but also those who had to take a break from study. I have known people who continue being active in da’wah after having a baby, but also some who get stuck somewhere and does not turn up for meetings and programs anymore. They were not easy to be dealt with, but Alhamdulillah I believe He has prepared me to multitask ever since my schooling years in ADNI.

10 years in ADNI and my parents had taught me that life is not just about being excellent academically or getting a good job. Nor is it merely about leading a happy life or having a wonderful family. There are greater things we need to do in this life, something that our beloved Prophet (s.a.w.) do throughout his life as the messenger of Allah – calling people to Islam and making Islam the way of life and civilization.

Many people asked me: How do you juggle things up, being married and studying, and now having a baby? What does it take for you to continue being active in da’wah despite having many other things to tend to?

My answer is simple: I have a clear vision of what I want in this life and in the life after I die, and the determination to make things happen.

My nearest target is to graduate, and Alhamdulillah, I am happy to say that the academic result for my final semester – where I took few subjects, completed my final year project and looked after my baby – was the best result throughout my years studying engineering. Nevertheless, whether I am studying or whatever job I am doing, I hope and I pray that Allah will continuously guide me and let me walk on the path of da’wah.

Of course there are ups and downs in life, times when I get very sick, too lazy or stressed out. That is why having a supportive and understanding spouse is very important. I am currently living with my family and they too play a big role in helping me manage daily chores. However, the utmost important thing is to have faith and believe – tawakkal – in Allah and His plans for each and every one of us.

Nihlah Johari
November 2010

rejected?

2011-08-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

that day when i couldn't get up due to migraine attack, my mom brought me to see a new doctor, a specialist in this blood thing - radiofrequency or something, i don't really remember because i was walking around like zombie during my visit there. i went there three times in july and august.

during my first visit, the doctor had a general check-up on me and found that my right eye was trembling. so he scheduled me for an MRI. although i had it once when i was about 16. so i went for an MRI, which costs me my mom actually RM950! i had the results only on my third visit, and alhamdulillah there was nothing wrong in my brain. at least nothing visible to the naked eye via MRI.

so the doctor diagnose my headache as migraine. to my disappointment, it seems like he doesn't have any interest in dealing with migraines. the doctor prescribed sibelium for me, but it doesn't help me much - actually, since my first visit i've never had any day free from headache. it's either pale, plain and very mild headache, or throbbing and stabbing until i feel numbness and nausea.

so, that's the end of the story. i don't have to see the doctor anymore, and i don't want to, because he doesn't seem to have any interest in dealing with the headache i have.

a big, huge test

2011-07-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

23rd July 2011

I was down and depressed, exhausted and wondering --- How in the world could I possibly be a good mother???

I was not talking about being a GREAT mom, but simply a GOOD mom.

And Allah had answered my question immediately.

Ikram is now over 1 year and 3 months old, and I still have the feeling of not being able to adjust my whole life to become a mother to a child. To give the fullest and not to expect getting something in return is really difficult. Every day I wonder if I am giving my child all the attention he needs, or am I pampering him and spoiling him too much? I wonder if I should do all the daily chores with him - feeding, bathing, etc - or is it okay to let the maid help out with that from time to time?

After a week of high fever (not including fever during the previous week and the week before) and what sounds like a very bad cough, Mujahid and I decided to bring Ikram to the hospital. It was midnight. We went to get a referral from a clinic nearby our house and went to the A&E section in Hospital Ampang. At 4 a.m. the doctor decided that Ikram should be warded, most probably due to pneumonia / lung infection.

I don't think I have any choice. I wanted to cry. Not because of feeling pity towards my son - I think it would be best for him that way - but I dread having to stay in the hospital. I just don't have the confidence to be strong. Last year, I cried every time I see my son lying on the hospital bed.

But we went through it this time. No tears dropping down my cheeks.

Allah had granted me 5 days to be with my son, re-create and strengthen the bond between us which might be getting loose as I get more and more busy with work for the past couple of months. Those 5 days demanded a lot of energy from me. Loving someone wasn't tiring, but caring for someone did drain out the little energy I have in me. The sleepless days and nights and the time when you just have to wait for another hour before you could actually go to the bathroom or have a cup of hot drink just because he doesn't want you to leave the cot - and you dare not as you know he could climb the cot sides and fall off.

Actually, he did fell off once this time. I actually try not forget the fact that he can climb over things as high as his waist. But one morning I was trying to fold the rest chair I was using to sleep during the night, I was doing it with one hand and my other hand was holding his arm, but the chair got stuck. Naturally I tried to use both hands and I guess Ikram instantaneously wanted to 'help' me, he climbed over, and fell on the floor. Maybe 1.5 meters high. ***cries*** but alhamdulillah hopefully there's nothing serious... After that I made it a point not to use the rest chair anymore, but just sleep with him in the cot, never to mind my comfort.

28th July 2011

It's sad that I have to learn things this way, through this kind of test. I did not like it when people try to remind me of how unfortunate many others are compared to me. When simple reminders couldn't work on me, I guess that's when Allah decided that I should be taught in a more harsh way...

Now the lung infection hasn't gone fully gone off. There is still very minimal 'crabs' sound at the lower right side of Ikram lungs, but the doctor said hopefully with the antibiotics it will go off. Many suggested to me that it would be better if Ikram can stay in the hospital until he fully recovers. I would like that too, but I don't think I can handle that and keep work aside for such a long time. It might take a week, or several weeks for his lungs to clear. Plus, my head had started throbbing a little and I would definitely not plan to let it be. Things would definitely get harder for me and maybe for others if I am not able to get up.

Hopefully Ikram will recover soon, and Mujahid's fever will go away, and my headache will disappear, inshaAllah. If Allah Wills. Only He can give us health.

Ya Allah, please shower your blessings on my family...

That reminds me, Ramadhan is now so near but I haven't prepared myself for it... ***cries***

hectic

2011-06-17T21:12:00.005+08:00

It has been such a hectic week and I'm now taking a pause, for the third time I guess, because it seems to be impractical to proceed on my own pace while others are stuck behind unable to meet their deadlines. The feeling is truly not a good one :( so here I am, blogging...

I think it's already a month since I started working in Adni. I'm not teaching yet, well, not formally. I've been doing administrative stuff, which are not even close to computer or electronics engineering. Well, bits and pieces of things I do are related to computers and electronics, but not the engineering part.

People always ask me if this is really the thing I wanted to do, and if so why did I ever get myself into the trouble of studying engineering. Well, it's surely going to be a long explanation, but I guess in simple words I would say:
It's the process of learning that makes one a person, regardless of the subject major.
Well, actually it counts but it's not a very big deal. I had challenged myself to get a degree in engineering and inshaAllah I'm proud to say that I have managed to do so, even though not in flying colours compared to my other siblings.

Oh yes, FYI, my status in IIUM is now GR - Graduated! :D:D:D:D:D I can't wait for the convocation ceremony in October and share my happiness with my parents and beloved hubby and kid. Oh, subhanallah, I can't stop smiling when I think about it :)

*I don't know why but I keep thinking about Kak Maziah while writing this. I guess she was a part of the motivation that keeps me going in obtaining the degree. I once wore her masters convocation robe, and that inspires me! Actually I've never been to anyone else's convocation, not even my siblings :P so Kak Maziah, walaupun Nela jarang2 contact Kak Maziah tapi Nela ingat Kak Maziah tau~ hehehe*

Picture with Kak Maziah in Jordan, 2006

Time pinjam jubah convo Kak Maziah hehehe~ 2 stripes lagi!

Anyway, back to the hectic week. I've been dealing with some parents recently, because the TaeKwon-Do grading session is coming up tomorrow, and I've been scolded and yelled at twice, and another time on text. Oh it's so dreadful. But I'm just going to look forward and smile because I know things that happened were not my fault, and I will try to make things look better. InshaAllah. Allah knows best!

Wowee... I've written a long one here. Ikram's sleeping at home and I'm in Adni. Yesterday I went back home late and I could say that he's quite upset with me, maybe because I didn't put him to sleep. Usually if I go home late he will wake up few times in the middle of the night and cry and I have to hug him and gently talk to him until he goes back to sleep... Such a clever little boy :)

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

My Boy

"teacher"

2011-05-24T11:40:00.003+08:00

My first experience being an English teacher was just AWESOME.

Initially I hesitated as my English is not very good compared to many of my friends, and I've never really taught students properly.. Yeah I've coached TaeKwon-Do since I was 13-14 but the idea of teaching English is totally different. Teaching others something you're not really good at... And teaching Thai students with differnet levels of English... umphh... but I agreed to do it, nevertheless, plus it's only for a month.. It's a good thing that I teamed up with Mubina **credits to her!** so teaching and 'organizing' the English camp was great---even though I got attacked with fever, flu & migraine throughout the camp.

So as I said, it was a great experience. Love my students :D:D:D:D:D each of them have their own way of learning and expressing things.

here's a picture of us taken during our trip to Genting Highlands

standing from left: me - amnan - nasran - sofron - ammal - anas - nafees - mubina - busrin

sitting from left: ibtisam - amney - padilah - sofia - mada

the little adventurer~

2011-05-24T11:15:00.003+08:00

This is the boy who's growing up so fast!

suka sangat masuk dalam bakul / kotak ...

and splash and splash and splash!!!

tapi geli nak pijak rumput huhu...

"nak!" Ikram's trademark when he was about 1 year old

playing happily. mula2 takut buat gradually get used to the overwhelming pool of balls

IkramY's favourite

2011-02-23T17:49:00.003+08:00

SPLASHING!!!
Kalau kat pool or sungai takpe,.. tapi Kalau time mandi, memang basah kuyup la mama or 'makcik kecik' aka Humaira yg suka tolong mandikan ikram :)

Ikram now loves to play passing game. bagi kita barang, pastu dia mintak balik.. huhuhu.. layan~~

Ya Allah, please grant us health, and make this baby boy grow up healthy... Ameen~

*** Ikram mode demam... orang kata sbb tumbuh gigi... orang kata sbb nak pandai jalan... apa pun, turn to Allah ***

the fate of migraineurs...?

2011-01-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

"your boss might understand you because they're your dad and brother, but not all your colleagues will feel the same way"

my dad suggests that it would be best for me to work on my own, i.e. have my own company or something because if i'm stuck not being able to do anything for one day then i won't be holding anyone back with their work..

alhamdulillah, it's great that i have the choice and inshaAllah ability to decide my career path. many other migraineurs are stuck with bosses and colleagues and even family members who does not understand their pain!

sapu habuk lagi...

2011-01-17T16:30:00.003+08:00

Oh I’ve not been blogging for ages!

1 month passed since I started my industrial training, and I tell you, it’s really cracking my brain out. But very fortunately and Alhamdulillah, I’ve only get two days of migraine attacks since then. My boss (my elder brother actually) told me to get a medical leave slip a.k.a. mc for myself, but I had to tell him that I never get mc’s for having migraines. It’s either I cannot afford to get up to see a doctor, or the doctor would simply give me painkillers with assumption that the migraine will go away and thus no mc is needed.

What a pity to migraine sufferers, isn’t it???

Anyways, I am right now doing my industrial training in Kapar, Kelang, which is waaay far from home. It’s a good thing that I do not have to drive :) FYI, I actually planned to do my industrial training somewhere near home but my brother insisted that I should help on some project in Dad’s factory… so here I am, having practically FOUR supervisors looking after my progress. Apart from working on java programming for the factory management system – which I never learnt in IIUM! , I’m assigned to do some tasks from Purchasing Department. The part I think I would hate most is to deal with suppliers – will start on that soon. Ughh… I’ve been working with machines and processors for years, so you know how awkward I feel.

Working far from home – like 1 hour drive away – means I go home late. Kesian Ikram. He sleeps quite early, like 8.30 or 9 p.m. so Mujahid and I only have a couple of hours to play with him, if we don’t have to attend programs during the night. If we have to, the little boy will come with us.

Oh that little boy is growing up well, and he’s super active! He just turned 9 months and now likes to climb up the stairs or stand up while holding onto something/someone. He wants to run if we try to teach him to stand or walk. He won’t sit still for a minute in the car, especially when I am in the car! It’s really hard for me to drive and not having him cry in the car seat, especially at night. All the way I would have to sing for him and make some hand movements to distract him.

That is Mama’s precious little boy!

Baba have been abroad for nearly 5 days already, and he’s coming back tomorrow. Ikram just know that he’s not home. He was behaving well and sleeping soundly at night for the first few days, only calling out for Baba few times when he was playing or before going to sleep. But last night he cried with his eyes still closed, “babababa…”, just like when Baba got warded for a week last month… He was crying every night and wanted to stick with me all the time. This time we told him few days before Baba flew off and it seems like he understands. But maybe now he’s already missing Baba badly so he starts crying…

Oh Ikram, I wish I could spend more time with you. But Allah knows best and He has the best plans for us ^__^

the big-huge family!

2010-11-27T20:50:00.007+08:00

it's been nearly two months since my last post..
sekarang nak menulis, tapi tgh tak tau nak start dari mana.. mungkin sebab dah lama sangat tak menulis kat blog ni sampai berkarat sikit idea nye.. huhu..

so let's start with my latest family picture..

taken on the recent Eid-ul-Adha at 'rumah besar' as referred by Nabil.

oh its so cute Nabil refers to Tok Ummi's house - the house he lives in - as 'rumah besar'. his parents bedroom is 'rumah Nabil', the house i'm living in is 'rumah Ikram', and so on.. he can even differentiate between Muja's Myvi and Kholah Tikki's Myvi although both are silver in colour. and he knows if the turqoise Hyundai Getz he sees on the road is not his mother's. such a brilliant boy, subhanallah!

Ammar is the second grandson of the huge family. he's also super-duper cute and clever. he's a huge fan of Tok Abah's iPad and calls it 'pad'. one day he was at his other grandfather's house and he wanted to play games on iPad. there was none there so his grandfather took out his laptop for Ammar. when all was set, Ammar touched the screen and nothing happened. he said, "rosak". LOL!

another cutesy little boy is Ishraf. he's now crawling actively and could stand up straight and strong while holding onto something. his smile is so adorable and bright and to me the smile says something like this: "i'm happy and nothing else matters ^_^"

baby Zayd oh baby Zayd! i've never seen the real him yet! i hope baby Zayd and his parents will come back home early next year. from his pictures and videos, i could tell he's one clever growing boy nshaAllah

baby Azzam is Nabil's little brother. he's so chubby and have double-triple chin! hehehe.. Nabil and his Papa was playing with him this morning and he got excited and smiled! subhanallah! i still remember the morning Ikram smiled his real smile for the first time. baby's smiles are always the best smiles in the world!

and Ikram... he's my little hero. he's growing up so fast now. he now can do 'commado crawls' - i.e. crawling on his tummy - and sit up on his own. one sad thing is, he went to nursery since early october and caught flu each and every week T__T everyone says is a normal thing for babies and there's nothing i should worry about since nursery is a perfect place to pass viruses, but i don't know if EVERY WEEK is normal enough. it's oh boy what a sad thing that is. but there's nothing much we can do now except to let him get a break from the nursery until i start my industrial training on 13th december..

hmm.. suddenly i remembered being very sad and disappointed one day before i had to submit my final year project report. people always asked me how is it to juggle between studies and taking care of a baby. i say, it's no difference than a working mother. there are times when you just have to leave the baby with his father or anyone else in order to tend to your other responsibilities. i got really sad when some people blame me for leaving my baby behind until late at night or on weekends. what can i do? when i do that, i made sure i was with him throughout the day, or else i would definitely bring him with me. it's sad to know that people only see the bad side of what you're doing. oh i should stop now or i will start crying.

anyways,

this ikram warded at 5 months..

that was when i went through 'the worldly hell' i call it. worse than 12 years of migraine.

my heroes ^__^

right after i finish my FYP presentation, both of them fell very sick T__T i hope i could do more to provide them comfort.. get well soon ok Baba n Ikram, love you both very much!

just for the record :)

2010-10-01T23:32:00.005+08:00

at 5 month ikram starts weaning, eating fruits n vegetable puree and everyone immediately commented that he put on weight!;
ikram knows how to roll from his back to front a week before he turns 5 months;
he learnt how to pass his rattle from his right hand to his left and back again before he turned 4 months;
he could giggle when he turned exactly 3 months;
he couldn't wear his newborn clothes anymore a week before he turned two months. he was too long for them already;
a week before that he started smiling 'real smiles' and learns how to play with people;

4th October will be Ikram's first day of school @ hadhonah adni
praying that everything will go on well, nshaAllah :)

more pics

2010-10-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

Ikram Fakhri's 1st eid
eid ul-fitr 1431h

all boys! taken during tok ummi's birthday makan2
abg amin + nabil
ahmad + ammar
isa + ishraf
mujahid + ikram
now, there's yusuf's baby zayd
n abg amin's new baby boy name unknown yet

cukup utk 1 team futsal :D

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

ikram at the beach~

2010-06-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

Weekend family trip to Kemaman in May 2010~
Baby Ikram's first time to the beach!

waiting for sunrise :)

Ikram Fakhri high up in the sky!

Mama squeeze Ikram

Ikram halfway upside down~

Ikram with cousin Nabil and Ishraf.
Its too bad Ammar wasn't there with us :(

Baby turtles!!!
Nooo.. It's sand-turtles!
Made using Nabil's sand toys ^__^

ikram yang smarties :)

2010-06-25T08:49:00.003+08:00

"ayuh bekerja untuk Islam!"

credits to Sakinah for the baju ^__^

Ikram Fakhri now weighs 4.1 kg and he is 57 cm long

ikram tumpang glamour tok abah

2010-06-24T08:53:00.000+08:00

okay, this is not something to be proud of, but it's an experience to be remembered :)

for Palestine

2010-06-09T17:23:00.004+08:00

Last week was quite hectic for us when Mavi Marmara was attacked by the Israelis. Mujahid's father a.k.a. my father-in-law was one of the activists @ volunteer on that freedom flotilla.

Suspense was indeed in the air as I watched the news on al-Jazeera and a Turkish online website, as we all waited for Abah to call home - if he is still safe and sound. Alhamdulillah, Allah knows best, a couple of days later the Israelis let free the 12 Malaysians who were on Mavi Marmara. As you all had already known, they were sent to Jordan. Abah called home.

Several weeks back, Mujahid had asked me to translate his CV to join the cause. Sorry Abang I really had to hesitate because I was so not ready to raise our baby alone for now, not even for a couple of days, in addition to some other reasons.. It's not "never" it's just "not yet".. inshaAllah..

Anyways, on Tuesday 1st June 2010, Ikram Fakhri went off for his first demonstration for Palestine. Being the youngest demonstrator of the day, he slept soundly in his carrier despite the heat and the noise - which he actually loved.

Mujahid and I had planned to bring him along for the big demonstration on Friday but after some last minute consideration we decided to leave baby Ikram at home..

Oh by the way, Ikram Fakhri & Baba was on TV3 on Sunday, the day Tok Abah Hasan came back. They were also in the local newspaper on Monday. Ikram with Datin Rosmah :P not something to be proud of, but it is an experience to be recorded.
visit --> click here...
All newspapers gave wrong info, eithor Ikram Fakhri's name was wrongly spelled or his age was said to be 18 months. It's so illogical.. A 1-and-a-half year boy couldn't be that small..

one-month pi

2010-05-27T12:46:00.002+08:00

Property of Mom Forever ^__^

Ikram with Baba @ Meeting KNL

meja meeting pun boleh lah.. janji ada tempat tidur..~

more pics of My Sweetie Pi

2010-05-04T22:41:00.006+08:00

1-day old
the night mama took care of me alone at the hospital
it's 12 a.m. and i'm wide awake

nearly 3-weeks old
travelling back to JB

baba went back to KL for work while mama n i stayed back
"hello baba.. ikram rindu baba.. bila baba nak balik sini?"

"hmm...."
*Ikram memikirkan masalah ummat..*

3-weeks old
happy baby boy likes to practice smiling ^__^

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

sudah botak!

2010-04-23T15:59:00.004+08:00

hee~
akhirnya ikram fakhri dah botak..
tok abah hasan & tok ummi mahiza datang tengok fakhri, cukur rambut & tahniq sekali...

ikram fakhri yg selesa tido di pangkuan tok abah :)

maintain je, kan!

"eh eh.. tok abah buat apa kat kepala ikram ni..?"

"oh.. cukur rambut ke.. takpe lah macam tu.. ingatkan ape tadi.."

"lain tak rupa Ikram? haa Ikram boleh geng dgn Ishraf lepas ni ^_^"

tahniq pulak. ikram suka kurma & madu sedap~

welcome Ikram Fakhri! ^__^

2010-04-19T09:56:00.008+08:00

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

I'm a Mom! oh! I'm a Mom now!

that was my thought when i heard his first cry in the OT. unable to move my body, i can just smile a drop of tear :) i'm a mom! subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

Baba made this for baby Ikram the morning before baby Ikram
was born :)
12th April 2010 @ 27 Rabi'ul Akhir 1431H

couple of hours after the c-sect.. still couldn't move half of my body..

Baby of Nihlah Johari
12 April 2010 --- 1.48 p.m.
weight: 3.14 kg
height: 47 cm
(: couple of hours after birth :)

taking a peek.. who's here???

oh! Tok Abah, Tok Ummi and all my uncles and aunties
all the way from JB!!

day 3 - home sweet home we go! ^__^
drive safely ok Baba, Ikram saaayang Baba!

day 5 - i'm a bit yellow, love to sleep but Mama keep telling me to always wake up and feed. inshaAllah i'm going to be a good boy n listen to her. saaayang Mama!

jazakumullahu khayran jazaa to all who prayed for us, may Allah shower his blessings upon you forever!

towards welcoming a new life :)

2010-04-07T14:28:00.002+08:00

fuh.. fuh.. **tiup blog berhabuk**

konon2 berazam nak record pengalaman pertama perjalanan 9 bulan bersama kehidupan lain di dalam diri, tapi nampaknya kurang berjaya.. how fast days goes by, kan!

tup tap tup tap dah 8 bulan lebih pregnant.. nearly 38 weeks!
i'm telling you - those who never or have not experienced this - it's really not an easy thing. but i admit that what i've experienced is nearly nothing compared to many other pregnant women..

this third trimester (7th-9th month) really made me feel like i'm pregnant. LOL~ trust me, before that i still could run up and down the stairs and move about like i'm not carrying any extra load. but suddenly after 7 months of being pregnant, i started to feel some limits to my movements, and that limit increases from week to week.

anyways, last week i was admitted to the hospital for a night. actually i went to the hospital just to inform them about my baby's current condition, i.e. baby is currently breech, and also ask if it's possible to have an ECV done. it's a must to inform the hospital so that they'll be ready to 'receive' you and be prepared for any possible complication.

so they did some check up on me, monitored me and the baby using a machine and found out that i have mild contractions going on, although i really didn't feel anything 'unusual'. so they say i have to stay in for the night, for the following reasons:
- baby's not yet in 'full-term', i.e. just 36+ weeks, slightly pre-mature if borned anytime soon
- baby's in breech position, i.e. if contraction gets stronger they'll have to do emergency c-section
so they plan to give me something to delay/stop the contraction. if it works, they'll perform ECV on me the next day. if not, they'll have to continue with c-section.
however a couple of hours later there were no more contractions detected, so they did not give me that stuff. but i had to stay for ECV.

oh what's an ECV? it's External Cephalic Version (click to read more or simply google it up!), a procecure where a breech baby is turned by hand, while they monitor the baby's heartbeat and so on.. there are some risks that could lead to emergency c-sect *in the middle of my final exam days!* but after discussing with my beloved hubby, Mom, Mom-in-law n my sister (a doctor) within a very limited time, i decided to go for it.

the doctor did an ultrasound to make sure of the baby's position, and said that the chance of a successful ECV has dropped since they baby has engaged down into my pelvis, and also the amount of amniotic fluid is just on the borderline. but we agreed to proceed.

to tell you the truth, i never thought the procedure would be so painful. *but i guess togive birth normally is much more painful, eh?*.. the doctor simply 'gripped' the baby's head and body - which means putting firm pressure on my 1000-times-expanded uterus @ tummy - and attempted to turn the baby, slowly, but i'll not say gently. during that very few minutes i could just wish Mujahid was there with me. first the doctor tried to turn the baby anti-clockwise but baby only moved a little. then the doctor tried clockwise, but the baby didn't even move an inch.

"what a stubborn baby!" I you would say.. no no, he's just feeling comfortable sitting upright, i guess.. *even though it actually gives me a whole load of backpain* =P a mother's words are always prayers, so i always say "good boy, good boy, please turn". after the ECV, my whole body trembled, out of shock, i think. my blood pressure went up a little but everything was stable. i was discharged from the hospital later that evening.

now, why can't i give birth to baby in a breech position?
mainly, the doctors said, it's because this's my first time having a child. nobody knows whether i'm 'physically fit' to deliver normally. you know, the pelvic bone thing and all the 'pushing' stuff, and so on..
however, Dr. Kader said it's all nonsense (putting it the rough way). he asked my shoe size, i said 7, and he said i should be able to deliver the baby normally even if the baby is breech. you see, there's a relation between the size of your feet and your pelvis. many years ago, that's how midwives predict how deal with breech babies.
but these days, doctors do not want to take the risk. they said it's much less risky to perform a c-section than to deliver a breech baby normally.. **cries T_T**

and c-section, even though it's very safe these days and the risks are so minimal, it shouldn't really be a first choice..

so, now i can only pray and pray and pray to Allah to make the baby turn, if that's the best thing to happen. if not, Monday, 12th April will be the date.

inshaAllah, everything happens on the will of Allah..

hari ini dalam sejarah

2010-04-05T23:50:00.001+08:00

sengaja nak tulis kat blog utk record tarikh, walaupun isi kandungan sejarah yg dicatat hari ni akan dirahsiakan atas sebab2 tertentu :)

tahniah pada diri sendiri, Asma' Amatullah, Hidayah Zairul, Wan Fatimah & Wan Syakirah.

... semoga terus tsabat di atas jalan dakwah walau dalam kesenangan atau kesusahan..
... semoga Allah meredhai segala amal yang kita telah lakukan dan akan lakukan..
... semoga kita tidak jemu menyinari dunia yg kian mati ini dengan Nur Allah..
sehingga kita direhatkan..

pic: Mt. Kinabalu, May 2007

sapu habuk - examingitis...

2010-03-23T08:55:00.008+08:00

35 weeks!
today's 23rd march, and in a month time it'll be 23rd april!
the estimated birth date of this little mujahid in my tummy ^__^

baby is now still in breech position, i.e. he's sitting upright instead of head down. this minimizes the probability of baby coming earlier than the expected date, but let's all pray that he'll turn upside down soon.. or a c-section would be waiting for me T__T it's not really impossible to give birth to a breech baby normally, but doctors said better not take the risk when he's the first child. hmm..

alhamdulillah last night i'm done with all projects and tests. oh, except for one more assignment to be submitted on 1st april. now i have to struggle my way for the final exam on 27th march, 2nd april, 6th april n 8th april. four subjects. all the best to me~~

slim tak???

hehehh~ sebenarnya sengaja nak amik gambar tummy dah besar, tapi tak nampak la pulak..
pic taken after aqsa syarif's first press conference

all praise be to Allah

2010-02-18T21:40:00.006+08:00

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.. Loving you
For the rest of my life
Through days and night
I`ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I`ll be there for you

baby says: my first checklist~

2010-02-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

Mommy finally made a checklist of what to buy for me.. To my aunties who have experience in this, can you please help her identify if there's anything else needed?

Clothes
- clothes, 5-8 pieces
- pyjamas, 4-6 pieces
- mittens & socks (all same colour, in case one gets lost..)

read more...

p/s: baby's posts will officially be posted at the family website from now onwards :)

25-26 weeks~

2010-01-16T08:23:00.002+08:00

we did the ultrascan yesterday. he was sleeping, but he suddenly woke up and we saw him opening his eyes! taking a peek of those who are looking at him ^__^ *although he can actually just see bright lights not people yet =P*

from this ultrascan i think he'll look a lot more like his daddy ^__^

UK Holiday Trip ( vi )

2010-01-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

the final long-distance trip...
a day before our departure back to Malaysia...

STONEHENGE!!

one of the 7 Wonders of the Medieval World ^__^
i don't know why it looks so tiny in this picture.. but it's really not that big either compared to other wonders like the pyramids, great wall of china, petra, etc..

want to know more about the Wonders of the World??? click here

Zaid, Kak Manihah & Harith at Bath
it's a very popular place, they say.. coz there's this 'ancient' public bath.. we didn't go in to see though =P

...22nd Nov, Sun...
depart from LCCT, KL
arrive at Stansted Airport, London
home-sweet-home @ Villiers Road (credits to Zaid & K.Manihah)
...23rd Nov, Mon...
London Tour: Oxford Street, Green Park, Buckingham Palace
...24th Nov, Tue...
London Tour: Hyde Park, Bayswater, London Tower Bridge Exhibition, Big Ben
...25th Nov, Wed...
London Tour: Trafalgar Square, Holborn (My Old Dutch Pancake!)
Southampton (~~illegal~~ sleep-over @ SU student quarters
...26th Nov, Thu...
Southampton Tour: City Centre. forgot the names of the places! we bought our own winter jacket at Primark~ had yummy milkshake although the weather was cold! and so on..
...27th Nov, Fri...
Eidul-Adha prayers @ Southampton University
London: delicious lunch & dessert at Zaid's place
Nottingham (sleep-over @ Bro Amir Rashid & Kak Nida's place)
...28th Nov, Sat...
Sheffield - attended some Eid open house, shopping at Asda :)
stayed at Yusuf's apartment ^__^
...29th Nov, Sun...
Barnsley carboot sale! lots of 2nd-hand and brand-new baby-stuff with great prices~
...30th Nov, Mon...
Durham - Ust Maszlee's place
...1st Dec, Tue...
Durham Town Centre & University Tour, Durham Cathedral
Sheffield
...2nd Dec, Wed...
Sheffield City Centre Tour - Mujahid & Yusuf only :(
...3rd Dec, Thu...
London: more window shopping at Oxford Street
...4th Dec, Fri...
Stonehenge & Bath ^__^
...5th Dec, Sat...
late lunch + early dinner : roasted duck at a Chinese Muslim restaurant, Bayswater
depart from Stansted Airport, London
...6th Dec, Sun...
arrive at LCCT, KL

alhamdulillah it was a great and memorable trip indeed! and the farthest i've been from home :)
there were, of course, happy as well as difficult times, and so many things to learn from and ponder upon... time management & being punctual, financial management, ukhuwwah & respect, and just so many more important values in life that many of us take for granted...

pic at Durham Cathedral entrance/exit

UK Holiday Trip ( v )

2010-01-11T21:24:00.002+08:00

Durham Town Centre

Ust Maszlee welcomed us and showed us around Durham town centre..
it was freezing cold there, waaay much colder than London, Southampton, Nottingham or Sheffield! and Christmas decorations were everywhere!

nice decoration!

woke up the next day with ice frosts everywhere - rooftops, cars, window panes, trees and grasses, and even the road was slippery! it was -2 degrees celcius!

despite the coldness, we went out. Also went to the Cathedral where Harry Potter was filmed~

Mujaddid - Ust Maszlee & Ustzh Hamidah's boy~ macam budak besar walaupun 3 bulan je masa tu!

Sheffield's City Centre!
Mujahid went with Yusuf while I stayed at home coz I felt really tired n exhausted!

east midland train from Sheffield to London
our UK holiday trip was coming to its end..

to be continued...

UK Holiday Trip ( iv )

2010-01-10T21:05:00.005+08:00

On 27th of November 2009, we prayed Eidul-Adha prayers at Southampton University ^__^ my first time spending Eid away from home~ it's really an awesome experience indeed!
then we rushed back to London..

had some nice lunch + dessert in Zaid's house before departing for Nottingham

spent a comfortable night at Bro Amir Rashid & Kak Nida's place and served with very nice meals~
then my bro Yusuf came to pick us up and off we go to Sheffield ^__^

car-boot sale at Barnsley, just outside Sheffield

outside Yusuf's house, before departing for Durham~

to be continued...

UK Holiday Trip ( iii )

2009-12-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

on Day 3, Wednesday, we departed for Southampton. went out few hours earlier than the scheduled coach departure time.

fountain at Trafalgar Square. it was a sunny day, and so the beautiful rainbow appears

My Old Dutch pancake restaurant - a must-go for pancake lovers!
isn't it huuuuge and mouth-watering!! with those scoops of ice cream, fruit salad and chocolate dip!

Day 4 at Southampton.

somehow the weather was pretty much colder compared to London.
had a morning walk at a park, along a beautiful river. i forgot its name though..

Hidayah & Ammar~

feeding swans, but precaution taken so as not to get bitten again :P

to be continued...

UK Holiday Trip ( ii )

2009-12-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

the next day, Zaid, Kak Manihah & Harith bawak kitorang jalan-jalan around Central London~

the lovely couple & their cute baby in the stroller

ta'aruf session with the birds at Hyde Park ^__^

and as we fed them with some crackers, the swan bit - yes, BITE - my hand a couple of times until it turned red..

autumn breeze! ^__^

had always wanted to take a pic inside the unique phone stand since i was a kid :P

London Tower Bridge Exhibition.
too bad it was under maintanence or the picture would have been nicer.. it's the one that can open/split up if a huge ship wants to pass through

London's Eye
the one we had for two years at Taman Tasik Titiwangsa. when facing this side, behind us was the infamous Big Ben.

to be continued...

UK Holiday Trip ( i )

2009-12-29T22:48:00.005+08:00

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

My beloved hubby & I got the chance to experience our 2nd honeymoon ^__^

21st Nov - 4th Dec (Autumn-Winter) 2009, United Kingdom

tempat persinggahan pertama~
rumah Zaid, Kak Manihah & Harith chumeyl~

we arrived late at night n caused Zaid some hassle to pick us up at Stansted Airport... we had a good rest that night. i especially love the air bed! i finally got a break from backpain since my pregnancy days started.. nak beli satu bawak balik tapi at last dah banyak sangat barang pulak..

after getting ourselves an Oyster Card the next morning and 'studying' the Tube Map, we went off to Oxford Street for some window shopping. it wasn't easy for us to find lunch for the first day. finally found a small arab stall and grabbed a slice of pizza + kebab + water and guess what! it costs us about £9! we immediately learnt not to convert the currency to RM anymore =P then we passed Green Park to visit Buckingham Palace, but to us nature lovers, Green Park was much more interesting!

friendly pigeons at Green Park ^__^

"i want some yummy chocolate!!" says the squirrel.

sunset at Buckingham Palace was beautiful :) it was getting colder at night and a whole day of walking was quite tiring, so we went 'home' ^__^

to be continued...

stress!!!

2009-12-22T00:03:00.004+08:00

feel like yelling my lungs out right now
mainly because of the stress, and partly because i really want to get rid of this sleepy-head feeling.

last Friday i received a call from Engineering Academic Affairs telling me my Computer Security exam will be on the 24th (this Thursday). since friday was a holiday i had to wait until today to know my Decision Science exam time. So glad Maya was willing to help me get my exam letter from Economics general office
BUT
it was written on that letter Decision Science special exam - 24th December.

i went to Academic Affairs to settle the clash, but guess what???

COMPUTER SECURITY EXAM IS ON THE 22ND!!!!
i.e. tomorrow morning!

uhh.. it was a good thing that i had started my revision, but it was still a horror to know that i have less than 24 hours to prepare myself for the paper.

i just could not focus for many hours already! T__T
just had a late supper with Abah, and he said "just do what you can do"
but i still fear, is that enough?

*now blogging bcoz i've tried hard to focus on the subject but it didn't work out. hoping to get some refreshment*

trying not to fall off the track...
- pic taken at Southampton, UK -

sapu habuk...

2009-12-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

permulaan sem yang sangat busy dan penat! -__-" mungkin lepas ni kena consider betul-betul kalau nak spend the whole school holiday - yes the WHOLE school holiday dgn melancong..

khamis ni ada special exam Computer Security.. Decision Science punya belum tau bila lagi, esok kena call Econs utk confirmkan.. mujahid punya exam pulak next week.. memang kena pulun study lah minggu ni..
harap2 dapat perform dgn baik utk special exam ni supaya pointer dapat naik.. ameen~

gambar di UK yang sekarang dah snow.. tapi kitorang sempat jakun dengan ice frost je..
- Durham at minus 2 degrees celcius -

dah rindu kat Harith jugak.. baik je tuan rumah kecik ni masa kitorang serbu rumah dia.. hehe.. TQ so much to Zaid & Kak Manihah sbb melayan kitorang dgn sangat sangat baik sepanjang jaulah ke sana!!
- satu2nya gambar yg sempat snap masa 'che awang' ni senyum -

gambar2 bercuti di UK & Jogjakarta akan dikongsikan selepas exam @ PKN kot.. harap yg dah tertanya-tanya tu dapat bersabar ye :)

congratz to sakinah & khalil~

2009-12-01T17:53:00.003+08:00

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

my childhood friend Sakinah just gave birth to a pair of twins on 30th November 2009 - a boy Sulaiman Abdullah and a girl Fatimah az-Zahrah ^__^

the first pair of Adni's 'grandchildren' eh? :)

they're so tiny and cute, aren't they?? ^__^ let us all pray to Allah that these babies will grow up to be excellent Muslims and also strong and healthy. ameen!~

will definitely visit them when I return from the UK, insyaAllah~

our holiday!!~

2009-11-16T12:58:00.004+08:00

Today is Daddy's first and last final exam *coz he has to sit for another four next month!*, and Mommy's will be tomorrow *before she sits for another two replacement papers*!
then we'll be going to Cameron Highlands with Uncle Auzan & Auntie Nazihah for the night, just to watch sunrise! Heyy,, I CAN see light through mom's tummy, ya know?? and I'm already responding to soothing musics, kick dance kIck!~

we will also balik kampung JB for a couple of days before flying off to England ^__^ my first air-flight, I hope I won't get air-sick or I'll be giving Mommy a hard time.. I'm glad I'm still in Mommy's warm pouch coz I'm pretty sure I'll freeze in the winter breeze over there. Mommy, don't forget to eat plenty of vitamins and habbatussauda' ya :) we got lots of walks to do!

Mommy's organizer-board

UK here we come!!~
Stansted - London - Southampton - London - Loughborough - Sheffield - Leeds - Durham - Middlesbrough - Sheffield - London - Stansted

17 weeks

2009-11-15T22:42:00.004+08:00

Fetal development in pregnancy week 17:

fetus in fourth month

Don't be too shocked but... the baby is EVEN bigger than it was last week, not to mention getting cuter, and smarter every day! The baby is now nearly 11.1cm long from crown to rump and weighs about 140g.

Alhamdulillah the baby is healthy, moving about actively inside the safest sanctuary that ever existed on earth, but we still haven't known his gender yet~

so you just gotta wait if you're planning to buy him/her gifts and toys ^__^

Allah's Love

2009-11-07T09:02:00.007+08:00

Subhanallah walhamudilillah wallahuakbar!

While I was drowning in the sea of life, making myself busy with the worldly test called final exam and taking every moment of my life for granted, my Creator and Sustainer 'poked' me with a simple test, to make me remember that none of us belong to this world forever.

After a whole busy Sunday preparing for my final exams, my hubby returned from Perak with a little complaint of having a stomach ache. A couple of hours later, all of a sudden and without warning, he vomited blood - a lot of blood. I freaked out. We immediately went to the hospital. After hours of waiting and check-up, Mujahid was warded. Of course, terrified, all I wanted to do was to stay with him in the ward that night despite having a test the next morning.

Subhanallah Allah sent us family and friends who really cares. Within 24 hours, at least a dozen of them came to visit. I was trying to make myself comfortable to accompany Mujahid at his bed for another few days, but a greater horror came...

I was studying on my hubby's bed when a nurse came in with a face mask, telling us that my hubby has got positive Influenza A H1N1. Even though he had no fever, cough or flu, that meant a pregnant lady should leave as soon as possible. The nurse told me to get a test done for myself downstairs at the ER. I went and I was instructed to immediately take Tamiflu coz I am pregnant, but I did not, due to its uncertain effects on pregnancy.

24 hours was dreadful. That night I could not sleep at all, nor could I study for the coming exam. The shocked-and-frightened me could not stop crying every time an SMS came in asking how's Mujahid. I feared for Mujahid as he has a bad asthma and I feared for our unborn baby's health.

24 hours later, i received no call from APSH. I tried calling the hospital's main line but nobody answered. I need to get my results or I'll be sitting for my VLSI Design exam. No call. I went for the exam with a terrible headache, troubled mind and unstable emotion, and of course a face mask and hand sanitizer. It was 3-hour paper and I spent 45 minutes sleeping at my desk. My lecturer came twice knocking at my table "sister, don't sleep..." but I couldn't help myself. Sleeping is the best thing I could do with the current state of headache. My optimist target of getting an A- or a B+ for the subject immediately dropped to a pass. But Allah knows best and I can only pray that He will give me the best result i deserve.

After the exam, I received news from Auntie Mimi who also got infected, that my result is also positive. But no fever, cough or flu. Only usual super-painful headaches. My gynea said I must take Tamiflu, so I did. Couple of hours later, I started vomiting, many times, even when my tummy was already empty. Even plain water made me run back into the bathroom. By nighttime, I was exhausted & weak. But there was nobody around so I just had to force myself to move around and do things myself. After dealing with IIUM clinic (with Sulafa's and Tikki's help) for me to take special exams later, I decided to go to the hospital. Until now, I'm so grateful to the newly wed couple Kak Nazihah & Auzan for helping me out that night. No more vomiting. Kak Nazihah stayed with me in the ER until 4 a.m. and I was warded. Thank you soooo much my dear sister!!

Selayang Hospital's isolation room was terrible. No TV is definitely acceptable, but just imagine there was no plain water provided for a sick person! No visitors were allowed, so nobody was around to bring me some water. The food was okay (although I didn't have the appetite to finish my food) but the fact that I had to take my own meals and send empty dishes to and from the isolation room door is shocking. Is that to be expected from a government hospital? Oh my first experience of being admitted to the hospital was definitely indecent.

Thank goodness I was discharged in less than 24 hours. Around the same time Mujahid was on his way home too. Thanks to Kakak & Abg Amin for helping us out. An 'infectious disease' specialist said I do not have to continue with Tamiflu, with approval of a gynaecologist, and I'm just so happy about that. But I really have to pray that my antibody is strong enough to kill away all the H1N1 virus inside me.

Now that we are home, I'd like to say thanks to all who have prayed for us. Mujahid's tummy is getting better and we hope the ulser that caused him to vomit blood will heal soon. We'll have to sit for special exams later, maybe in about three weeks time. For me it'll be two papers, but for Mujahid it'll be four, or three if he decides to dump his medical leave on the 9th.

Indeed, this is a tremendously great reminder from Allah s.w.t..

"And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).
Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: "Truly! To Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return." "
al-Baqarah: 155-156

last week of lectures for this sem

2009-10-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah walaupun kelam kabut next week start final exam things are going on much better than expected ^__^
except for the headache that doesn't seem to fully disappear since the '53 hours....' post. and yes, i did not add to the counting because it'll just make me miserable.

anyways, skrg ni tinggal kena hantar Smart Aquarium System project report n assignment decision science jumaat ni. Dr. Anisah itu saaaangat baik!!! dari 3 soalan yg panjaaang tu dia wajibkan pilih 2 je bila ada students pegi mengadu kat diat his week sgt havoc..
other than that, i HAVE to study for my final exams -__-" especially utk 3 paper yg berderet itu...

so, enough of that.
below is the outcome of my new toy this semester. did this with 5 other girls :)

Smart Aquarium System.
features: automatic feeder & water temperature display

and the one below with the laundry hanger is not my toy. it belonged to Najmi and her team, but they're doing it for another lab class. the fan is connected to a heat sensor, so that when the weather is hot it turns off automatically and we don't have to waste electricity to dry our clothes :)

i find this prototype very cute! ^__^

mato-mato

2009-10-28T20:50:00.001+08:00

in mid july, one of my bro had his wedding reception, just a small one. we washed the dishes at a nearby tap near my dad's garden, and guess what grows there now???

TOMATO trees!

there are three of them, now about two feet tall. two of them are already bearing fruit ^__^

nak tulis jugak!

2009-10-26T22:27:00.003+08:00

walaupun tau blog ni ada beberapa lecturer ECE yg visit, nak tulis jugak!

CIE Lab I weighs 1 credit hour - and it consists of two subjects:
Data Structure & Multimedia

hence DS Lab only weighs 0.5 credit hour.

yet..
the workload is beyond any 3 credit hour subject!!!

esok kena submit DS Lab so-called mini project which includes: Binary Search Tree, AVL Tree, Heapify, insert & delete node into a tree, perform sort and implement hashing - and those listed does not include all the 'requirements' demanded by the lecturer.

and guess how much time we got?
1 week, to be submitted with a multimedia mini-project (yang buat orang tak tidur dan rupa2nya tak payah submit on that day). and of course there are tonnes of other projects and assignments and quizzes!!

and trust me, i did not procrastinate this time!

so much for a 0.5 ch subject. ugh!!

aktiviti menghilangkan bosan semasa group presentation software engineering projects

What Do Teachers Make?

2009-10-22T10:53:00.001+08:00

What Do Teachers Make? A Profound Answer!

The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life.

One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He argued, "What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in life was to become a teacher?"

To stress his point he said to another guest; "You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?"

Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, "You want to know what I make? (She paused for a second, then began...)

"Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could.

I make a C+ student feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor winner.

I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents can't make them sit for 5 without an I Pod, Game Cube or movie rental.

You want to know what I make? (She paused again and looked at each and every person at the table)

I make kids wonder.
I make them question.
I make them apologize and mean it.
I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions.

I teach them to write and then I make them write.. Keyboarding isn't everything.

I make them read, read, read.

I make them show all their work in math. They use their God given brain, not the man-made calculator.

I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to know about English while preserving their unique cultural identity.

I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe.

Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were given, work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life. (Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.)

Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, with me knowing money isn't everything, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention because they are ignorant.

You want to know what I make?

I MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
What do you make Mr. CEO?

His jaw dropped, he went silent.

A profound answer!!!

. . .

2009-10-21T22:41:00.005+08:00

friday
- decision science midterm
- multimedia lab project submission

saturday
- software engineering project presentation

monday
- ??

tuesday
- data structure lab project submission
- ece lab project presentation

wednesday
- ce big assignment submission
- ce big quiz
- vlsi quiz

of course, with the above-mentioned activities, i could not fly to Beirut even if i really really want to =( even if i could postpone everything to a later date, i wouldn't choose to do that

especially when i cannot predict migraine attacks

:)

2009-10-19T02:28:00.000+08:00

this is indeed really true!!

53 hours, and hoping NOT to add to the counting

2009-10-18T17:57:00.006+08:00

53 hours

and right now i'm taking caffeine, hoping it'll give me few good hours for me to finish my mini project for software engineering which is to be submitted tomorrow!

luckily this time panadol helped prevent the pain from increasing for a couple of hours, but i dare not take more than 2 tablets. last night i did 'bekam' when i complaint to my mother-in-law about feeling numb at the left side of my face, good that the numbness disappear immediately as blood was pumped towards the my temple. but the headache remains..

sometimes i just wonder when will this end, or reduce- time and pain-wise, or at least when can be as strong as my hubby when he gets his asthma attack. i can only cry when i can't handle it anymore. several times these few days.

i didn't go for my midterm exam for 0.5 credit hour TaeKwon-Do skill class on Friday. it's my only chance of proving to the trainer that i, who practiced TaeKwon-Do since i was 11, don't deserve a B- or worse - which i got last semester, but i just couldn't help it. i could not even stand in the bathroom with lights on.

i've read about some children to suffer headaches since the age of 3 - yes, THREE - because either or both parents suffer from migraines. it's really a horrifying thought and i really really really pray that my kids will never have to go through that. i pray that they'll be healthy!

by the way, Paan and i never had any Java class and we're working on a phone software. didn't make it from scratch, but we're having problems to compile it into .jar format. any help available?? please sms me a.s.a.p.!

havoc week --> less havoc week

2009-10-13T10:36:00.003+08:00

last sunday, i forced myself to stay at home to study for this havoc week, only to find that all my classmates were enjoying attending open houses or resting at home when i give them a call to ask about some things i was stuck at. i ended up playing computer games...

12th oct
- VLSI design quiz
- ECE lab test (30% of that 1 credit hour lab!)

13th oct
- Data Structure lab was cancelled :) yeay!

14th oct
- Communication Engineering assignment submission

15th oct
- Computer Security assignment submission
- midterm for my TKD skills (i'll only be doing the theory part)

16th oct

- quiz for Multimedia lab? Macromedia Flash
- midterm for Decision Science postponed to next week! (it's supposed to be on the 17th but of course i'm attending Auzan's & Kak Nazihah's wedding :) nsyaAllah)

yesterday morning, i woke up with a mild migraine on the left side of my head. alhamdulillah it did not increase (nor decrease..) up until now..

after the tough lab test yesterday, baby & i decided to take a walk to IIUM convest hill. it took us 25 minutes to reach there from kuliyyah of engineering! we just bought a drink and meehoon. the place was still crowded and noisy at 11pm! so we decided to go to the main stairs. BUT baby doesn't want to walk anymore. so we sat somewhere for a while to have a rest, and to our delight the IIUM bus came! :D it's been ages since my first-and-only ride on that bus. so we went on the bus and it's baby's first ride on a bus! hehe.. ^__^

hope everyone will have a nice week!

12 weeks

2009-10-09T17:26:00.002+08:00

it's 12 weeks already!!
^__^
subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

yesterday i went for my 2nd antenatal check-up, and the ultrascan was really fun! although i've read quite a lot about pregnancy and look at the pictures of the baby in the tummy in various websites, it's totally a different excitement when i saw my own baby moving about inside my tummy. it's like--- MAGIC!

first the kid was facing downwards, then he turned, facing up and we saw the heartbeat going dup dup dup.. a few seconds later he turned to the side and showed us his tiny little arms and fingers. then he faced down again and... we coudln't get a clear scan picture because he doesn't want to turn again..

actually, we still don't know if he's a HE.. but let's pray for the best!

i can't help smiling everytime i remember about the incident ^__^ it made me remember that it's really a miracle.. and it's really a great blessing from Allah.

smiles ^__^

on the other hand,
i didn't get any advice from the gyn on my migraine T__T didn't expect much in the first place.. but the thought of another migraine attack still scares me when i don't have any idea how to deal with it..

happy birthday to me~ ^__^

2009-10-05T10:24:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to me
i was born in the sea
with the seahorse and the sea anemone
and the clownfish is me~~

although it is actually EVERY DAY that we grow older, to me, birthdays are always a great reminder. i receive messages with good and nice wishes, and best of all reminders about my amal and death on this day. i also take the opportunity to spend some cents to send my beloved ones messages of gratitude, thankfulness and apologies.
to me, it's not just another day, but a day to be 'USED' wisely and reflect upon what i have done for the past years i've been on this earth.

some may not agree, but please don't bother lecturing me at the comments section :P

my first birthday with my significant other ^__^

activity-wise, today is just another day. i actually plan to spend today studying for my Data Structure Lab tomorrow and also complete 3 assignments which i have been delaying since last week -__-" NOT a good thing but believe me, each time i take a glance - not even a close look! - at the Computer Security textbook copy (it was passed down from my seniors ok) i feel like vomitting.. hey, even non-pregnant women can feel like that after getting so tired of reading the textbook. and yes, it's a reading, understanding and memorizing subject.

hmm.. why am i babbling about my studies today...
anyways...

this is me with Ibrahim my youngest brother.

he turned 2 yesterday - 4th October.
two years ago when my step-mom went into the labour room, i received an sms while i was in the engineering workshop and i replied "nooo!! wait for tomorrow!" coz my birthday is on the 5th. but you know, people say it doesn't take long hours in the labour room if it's the 5th child. so Ibrahim was borned on the 4th of October.

close-up pic of my birthday cake.

it's a carrot cake with walnuts and raisins! my favourite since i was a kid.
i really appreciate this especially when it's not easy to find very nice carrot cakes and when chocolates are migraine triggers for you. thanks so much Auntie Mimi! everyone said the cake is super-delicious!

what's with the candles? it's a controversial issue and i'm not going to talk about it here. to my family, it's just for the fun of getting the kids to blow them. really, it's fun when you look at the ways they try to blow off the candles ^__^

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!

some pics :)

2009-09-24T22:50:00.002+08:00

iftar at JB home~
it was my first time making home-made donuts! dip with fine sugar, choc syrup and peanut butter!

family pic for this year's Eidul-Fitr
1st day was spent @ Batu Pahat so no family pic in Bukit Antarabangsa
isn't this quite a big family too?? alhamdulillah! ^__^

morning or all-day sickness? or gastric attack?

2009-09-23T07:20:00.006+08:00

8th week:
started having some so-not-nice morning(actually ALL DAY!)-sickness. especially when i'm hungry, i would get dizzy & feel like vomitting. yes, only the feeling. but that is still uncomfortable.. fasting gets very challenging but i still forced myself to fast as long as i can handle it. coz i don't want to qadha' puasa banyak sangat!

9th week:
once i really vommited after fajr prayers bcoz something was smelling ~~funny~~ terrible!. i asked my hubby what smell was it and he says it's the plant fertilizer - and you know what they are made of! it was a good thing that we planned to go to the beach that morning ^__^
to my tiny disappointment, by tiny i meant: just a little disappointed, the Senai-Desaru highway is still not completed yet so we end up going to Tanjung Langsat which has no sand. only a small jetty and port nearby, thus making the sea water not so beautiful. but the smell of the sea is way much better than plant fertilizers!

10th week:
baby is now 9 weeks & few days. i had a bad gastric attack last night. one moment i felt really hungry and wanted some real food - instead of bread or instant mee. 'forced' my hubby to make nasi goreng for me at 10.45 p.m. but soon felt some tornado going on inside my tummy. however since he cooked for me, i still forced myself to eat few spoonfuls but end up vomitting everything including what i ate for dinner at 6 p.m. (the carbohydrates did not get digested even after 5 hours!) . i don't know if it's the gastric or 'morning' sickness, but oh it was terrible T__T

it has only been 9 weeks plus and now i know how hard & tough it is to become a mom! i'm really grateful to my Ummi for everything, even though she did not experience any kind of sickness during all her pregnancies - which is super great! - i'm really grateful to my Ummi for everything she have done for us.

it has only been 9 weeks plus and i'm so thankful that i have a really caring & loving husband who would take care of me when i feel not-so-good. even though i don't think i have to, i still keep apologizing for all the mess i did.. uh-uhh.. i really hope that all husbands should be as caring and supporting as my Mujahid :)
after all, we are the ones who carry your children from 0-9 months and shall take care of them after they are born, so do take care of us well! ^__^

third month

2009-09-21T07:39:00.005+08:00

fetus in third month

Fetal development in pregnancy week 9:
Congratulations! Your amazing growing baby has been accepted into to the fetus-club, a very exclusive and exiting new stage in their prenatal development. Basically, this means the little sweet pea has graduated from swimming embryo creature to a recognizable human being!
Your baby weighs under 10g - a fraction of an ounce - but is poised for rapid growth. All the body parts are now present, including arms, legs, eyes, genitals and other organs, though they're not yet fully formed.

^_^ praying and praying to Allah that the baby will develop perfectly, ameen..

family planning?

2009-09-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

some friends asked me, "did you dump your family planning?" or "what happened to your family planning?"

my simple answer is:

Good planners have Plan B. or even C and D and E and so on!
When circumstances change, your plans change.
it really took me a lot of time and courage to decide at first~

what an AGILE family! **those taking software engineering classes would definitely understand this! ^__^ **

1 - 7 weeks

2009-09-11T16:03:00.005+08:00

whoa..

i read my previous posts and looked back at what i've done since the beginning of this semester.. and guess what???

1st week of pregancy:
- i was called to help out with the props for COVER GIRL theatre performance. lifted up chairs, tables, heavy props, etc!

2nd week:
- had a not-very-active week, but trained for the upcoming Engineering Sports Carnival a couple of times.

3rd week:
- i played table tennis for the Electrical & Computer Engineering (ECE) department and got 3rd place!

4th week:
- did pregnancy test and the result was negative. so i eagerly participated in the "world's most dreadful camp", PERKASA 2009. walked and hiked for at least 15 kilometres in 3 days, cut bamboo poles using a blunt parang to prepare for dinner and set up bonfire for the night! i got exhausted throughout the following week and only attended few classes.

5th week:
- super-duper exhausted

6th week:
- found out that i was actually pregnant! started taking folic acid for my baby~ and was forced to rest a lot. no long distance walking and travelling.

7th week:
- had scanning for the 2nd time (the 1st time we couldn't see anything) and saw the baby's heartbeat ^__^ it's only 1.44 centimetres long!

this IS FUN, indeed! subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

welcoming a new life~

2009-09-10T14:57:00.001+08:00

^__^

I haven't blogged a real post for quite sometime and I realize that not many people come to visit this blog anymore. it's really okay though :)

Anyways,,, ~~uhh.. i don't know where to start..~~

Ah, firstly I really want to apologize to most of my usrah-mates for not breaking this joyful news to you guys first.. I actually planned to make it public after 'Eid, but my hubby was just more than excited so he kept asking me "dah boleh announce ke belum???", just like I would ask on some very-tiring days "berapa minit lagi buka puasa???".. LOL~

This is really a very new experience to me. Right now, I still can't imagine being a mom :P or even moving around with a big tummy :P hehehe~

Not as mentioned on the baby ticker, I don't experience any morning sickness, alhamdulillah! However there are some awful discomforts (which i've suffered from since my teen-ages) - gastrics and migraines.
My tummy started to feel extremely bloated and painful around last week (7th week) and I guess the trigger was the mid-term examinations around the corner. Uh-oh! Before that everything was bearable.. And migraine came right after I finished my last paper on Wednesday, AFTER my actual first visit to the doctor. Hence i did not ask for any advice on migraines. I certainly will do during the next visit next month! Other than that, I often feel dizzy and nausea but no vomitting though, alhamdulillah!

The embryo in the 2nd month

Their oversized head isn’t just large and oblong anymore, it’s actually a little bit pointy. The tiny receding tail bud is now starting to be overshadowed by the growth of their legs, which are now complete with knees and the beginnings of toes. Their eyes and ears are the most visible features on their head and their miniature bones are starting to harden throughout their body.

8 days to go for Ramadhan. I have to admit that I couldn't manage to fast the whole 29 or 30 days this year although I had the chance to T__T It's really a sad thing that now it's really a challenge for me to make the best out of this Ramadhan and I'm still struggling to finish my tilawah al-qur'an on time (especially because of the bad timing of exams but that should never be an excuse).. but I will try my very best, nsyaAllah!

Please pray for me and for my (AND mujahid's) baby! ^__^

tingkatkan amal~ Bermula Ramadhan!

2009-08-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

dapatkan segera di pasaran!!

klik gambar untuk imej yang lebih besar :)

havoc

2009-07-28T00:06:00.006+08:00

I NEED OXYGEN!!!

fuh.. fuh.. baru 3rd week sem 1 ni..

17.5 credits hours JE -- some would say

but 4 mini projects and 2 labs are driving me vegetable.. haha.. not nuts but vege.. coz i have classes from 8:30 a.m. to 5 p.m. (no break except for Zuhr on Tuesdays) every day!
and this 1st semester of the academic year is always hectic with events.. al-quds day with all those related campaigns and engineering sports carnival for now..

anyways,
this is the not-so-latest pic of my beloved huge-but-little-for-this-pic family

taken on 4th of July 2009

Fast2Fund 1430H

2009-07-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

Fast 2 Fund Campaign 1430H

Maybank - Pertubuhan Jamaah Islah Malaysia - 5622 0960 8847

for enquiries & bank-in notification, e-mail to fast2fund.pal@gmail.com

~~~*****~~~

Bandingan (derma) orang-orang yang membelanjakan hartanya pada jalan Allah adalah sama seperti sebiji benih yang tumbuh memberikan tujuh tangkai, setiap tangkai itu pula mengandungi seratus biji.
Dan (ingatlah), Allah akan melipatgandakan pahala bagi sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya, dan Allah Maha Luas (rahmat) kurniaNya, lagi Meliputi ilmu pengetahuanNya.

The parabale of those who spend their substance in the way of Allah is that of a grain or corn:
it groweth seven ears, and each ear has a hundred grains.
Allah gives manifold increase to whom He pleases: and Allah cares for all and He Knows all things

-al-Baqarah 2:261-

~~~*****~~~

Cover Girl

2009-07-21T21:29:00.004+08:00

Adni Islamic School
brings to you

a performance themed

~~COVER GIRL~~

on 26th July 2009 Sunday, 2 p.m. - 5.30 p.m.

at KL Convention Centre

Directed by Erma Fatima & MC is Wardina.

open only to all sisters, wives & mothers :)

~~**********~~

WOMEN as ordained by Allah s.w.t. have been endowed to receive God's creation. This is an honour and responsibility given and women are accountable for their part in shaping and molding the next generation. In realising the importance of women's role in our society from the beginning of time, Sekolah Islam Adni, is organizing ALL-Women theatre performance touching the life experiences of women in different countries that can be shared and learnt together.

The theme is "COVER GIRL". Cover Girl is the Muslim women who draw their outer garments around themselves. Cover girl is also the unique face that draws ones attention on a front page that highlights her beauty, dignity, honour and importance. That is the distinctive women, wives, mothers and sisters featured and honoured on the front page of life itself.

The entire stage show is produced, directed and managed by the women from the family of ADNI. Women who have carved a name for themselves in the society like Erma Fatima, is the Director of the play and Wardina is our MC for the evening. The scripts are written by the students, teachers and members of Adni Alumni.

Ticket prices RM 20, RM 40, RM 60, RM 100 & RM 200 each.
They are available at ADNI office in Taman Sri Ukay. Proceeds of the show will be donated to the Palestinians in Gaza.

enquiries: e-mail to nihlah.j@gmail.com (tickets also available with me)

round-table discussion?

2009-07-07T20:39:00.001+08:00

A lady from the US embassy gave me a call, asking if I can get a dozen of Adni upper-secondary students and also some Adni Alumni to sit down and have a round-table discussion about Obama’s speech this Saturday in Moscow.

I can’t help but think of the big agenda behind these activities. No doubt what they’ll get from the discussion will be compiled and reported to the US intelligence.

And that idea brings me to the photography workshop held last month. I had submitted a database of photographers, complete with their full names, phone number, e-mail address, field of study/expertise, and so on. Oh is it really okay…

Hmm… I don’t think I will personally attend the upcoming discussion IF it is to be done. For one thing, I’m not that kind of person who has interest in politics. And second, my face had always and will always appear in front of the US embassy for peace demonstrations.

I-MAC 2009

2009-07-01T23:33:00.004+08:00

Islamic Media Award Competition 2009 (I-MAC 2009)

Tema : “Media Meriah Rancakkan Dakwah”

Tarikh : 30 Mei 2009 – 13 Julai 2009

Sasaran Peserta : Individu berumur 15 tahun dan ke atas

Penganjur : Kelab Rakan Siswa Islah Malaysia (KARISMA)

Pemantau : Jamaah Islah Malaysia (JIM)

OBJEKTIF

1. Menggalakkan penyampaian bahan bermesej dan nilai-nilai murni menggunakan alat media yang pelbagai.

2. Menjadi satu testimoni kepada masyarakat tentang kesungguhan dan iltizam pihak penganjur iaitu KARISMA dalam menyebar luaskan kemurnian ISLAM.

3. Membudayakan budaya menulis yang berorientasikan informasi dan nilai-nilai murni dalam kalangan masyarakat yang sedia meminati bidang penulisan.

4. Membantu dalam pembentukan minda yang kreatif dalam kalangan masyarakat untuk melihat sesuatu dari perspektif yang berbeza menerusi tema-tema yang disediakan penganjur.

5. Mengenalpasti individu-individu yang berbakat dan berpotensi dalam bidang penulisan, fotografi, dan multimedia agar mereka berterusan menyampaikan dakwah serta nilai-nilai murni kepada masyarakat.

TEMA PERTANDINGAN

1. Adat dan Tradisi (Custom and Heritage)

2. Malaysia yang kuimpikan (My Dream Malaysia)

3. Kehidupan Pelajar (Student Life)

4. Alam (Nature)

5. Islam itu kebanggaanku (Proud to be a Muslim )

6. Di bawah naungan Al-Quran (In the Shade of the Quran)

7. Manisnya Dakwah (The Beauty of Doing Dakwah)

8. Fikrah Islam Dominan Alam Kampus

*Penyertaan adalah dalam dwi-bahasa iaitu Bahasa Malaysia dan Bahasa Inggeris

untuk MAKLUMAT LANJUT, sila layari blog I-MAC <--click

tagged with an award~

2009-06-25T23:59:00.004+08:00

1. Copy award di atas dan letakkan di blog anda.

2. Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ni..

FanaHikari a.k.a. Paan

sangat terpengaruh dgn semua yg berkaitan dgn Jepun
is clever, cuma bnyk sgt tengok citer :P
terer men pingpong ^__^
suka merempit dgn berhati-hati
adalah seorang kakak sulung yg garang.. huwahwa~~

3. Setiap penerima award "Amazing Blog" perlu menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi sendiri sebelum memilih untuk penerima award seterusnya...

very happy and fortunate to be married to the guy she loves most~
cracking her brain to survive another 3 semesters of CIE Engineering with the best grade she deserves from God
loves to eat, and forces herself not to skip meals during times when she doesn't feel like eating
really loves to travel and appreciates nature, and a little of historical stuff
still tend to always procrastinate.. uff..
still tired of migraines, but really grateful for the recent 2 months of just plain, mild headaches
not very fond of gadgets. the things she owns are sufficient to suit her lifestyle
not really into TaeKwon-Do anymore, but still remembers that her main goal of going this far is to train other girls how to defend themselves.. thus she can't quit
doesn't really like doing businesses. but whether she likes it or not, business seems to run in the family blood
wants to try the recipes in the Little Big Cook Book which she bought at the book fair, but only managed to get her hands on one

4. Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka

of course, my significant other, Mujahid
and all those who wish to receive this award ^__^ jangan malu-malu nominate diri sendiri yehh..

2009-06-22T18:36:00.002+08:00

another wedding on 20th June 2009
my big bro Isa J & Fatin Liana

barakallahu lakum wa baraka `alaykum wa jama`a bainakum fi khair

pics from SleeplessInKL & LangkahBermula

horseback-riding and archery - after years of no practice

2009-06-15T21:38:00.004+08:00

went for a Horseback-Riding and Archery Camp
organized by Adni on the 11th & 12th of June 2009
in Commonwealth Forest Park & Resort, Rawang.

rabbit named "gemuk" LOL~!

CT swimming. believe me, she's SWIMMING!

me and CT :)
see, she's shorter than an adult, that's why she HAD to SWIM in the pond!

my Mom with CT. isn't this a very great view! SUBHANALLAH!

AND THE NEXT DAY...

traditional archery. my soulmate's pretty good at this! even while running!

a practice for those who wants to be an equestrian archer like Legolas of LOTR ^__^

i have always dream to be one since i watched LOTR.. but couldn't get the chance to focus on both just yet.. and, i did pretty bad this session T__T **cries**

aiming for the polystyrene cup... but did not succeed even after countless attempts **louder cries!! T__T**

.. while my younger bro Musa hit the cup so many times and even managed to pierce through the bamboo pole and cut it into two- TWICE!

waterfall time.. quite small for 15 people, but it's still a beautiful and nice waterfall

and finally, horseback-riding!! after years of not riding, i had forgotten my upright position and diagonal.. uhh..

as promised

2009-06-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

as promised last month, there were some pics i owe to update..

first, is a lost bird inside my house. we found it flying around in the kitchen, caught n brought to the living room to take some pics, and then we shoed it out of the house

second, fluffy little feathers in my hands ^__^ not torturing, okay, it was just that it would not fly out of the house voluntarily..

third, the biggest clot of blood when i did that bekam on my head... -__-"

counting the days...

2009-05-21T01:44:00.005+08:00

^__^

tonight mujahid will fly off to istanbul - that's the farthest place he's going since our marriage a-little-bit-more-than half a year ago..

hence,
i shall spend these 5 days wisely ^__^
and get well as soon as possible! \^_*/
and not forget my meds =P
and study for mid-semester exam on the 27th
and settle tonnes of unfinished 'business'~

insyaAllah.. insyaAllah..

of 'bekam'~

2009-05-20T12:25:00.000+08:00

get those stinkin' blood out of my head!

it's waaaay much better alternative than killing all the pain receptors in my head.

alhamdulillah since i got for my head something new last two weeks, i.e. a couple of 'bekam'-s on my temples i had not had any terrible migraines! ^__^ only twice which lasted less than 12 hours!
so i shall do it again next time balik JB!~
walaupun sakit sikit when that stuff suck out the dirty clot of blood as big as a normal-sized recently-fed pacat - yes, pacat! - out of my head but it is still much better than some 'torture' machine and countless tablets of supplements everyday.

i'll post d pic of d clot of blood next time. lupa pulak nak amik gambar tu dari ext hdd..

let's do this!

2009-05-05T01:00:00.004+08:00

CLICK HERE for some cool, think-out-of-the-box game!

all hints are in the game but not expressed by words

see how many minutes u take..

i took quite a long time to solve it -__-"

Adni Alumni Paintball Tournament

2009-05-04T16:33:00.004+08:00

Adni Alumni Paintball Tournament 2009
2nd May 2009, Subang Jaya

photo taken after the "Conquer the Base" game, some had already left
46 participants (including 3 ustazs)
but less than 10 girls joined.. why???
all teams A to H fought at least three rounds, but we still don't understand why team D & F got into the finals! =P
but nevermind, it's a game after all~

Fattah & Mujahid, team Ustaz Badrol~

ngeheh~ i got shot three times throughout the tournament, but only had one bruise!

Sharaf in team E for the first game. also the last man standing from Black Team against Hafiz from the Blue Team

da Black Team during "Catch the Flag" and "Zombie"
we won "Catch the Flag" (2 to 1) and got a draw for the "Zombie" game
in this case, i say we cannot count on the number of bullets coz Sharaf's marker got jammed twice while Hafiz's once, and also each time the marshall shoots as he likes while fixing the markers so countless pellets were wasted.
hence it's a DRAW!

Fatimah aka Fuddy
this photo is awarded as the best pic of the day.
photo taken by Amer during one of the earliest rounds of "Conquer the Base" :)

everyone loves the game!

baked tomatoes with pasta filling

2009-05-03T13:28:00.001+08:00

one of the activities done during the recent two-weeks holiday~ actually on the 24th of april but the wireless internet at home was going crazy so i kept forgetting to upload this..

simply potatoes, pasta, olive oil, salt, parsley leaves and black pepper.. i wanted to add some more stuff but decided to try the original recipe.

it was a wise decision indeed. i was only in the kitchen for 15 minutes when i received a phone call from my bro, saying that he'll pick me up in 15 minutes to meet someone.

uff.. i couldn't say no.

after cooking the pasta halfway i threw everything into a big bowl, stir the pasta quickly, stuffed them into 7 medium-huge sized tomatoes and put them in a pre-heated oven. in the car, i called someone to keep an eye on them.

it's a good thing to have many people in the house ;)

one fang

2009-04-29T18:21:00.004+08:00

this morning after eating toasted bread with butter for breakfast, i realized that my upper right fang was chipped, although i didn't remember hitting against anything hard at my face or munching on anything hard.

i was truly shocked. how can this be??

i called my dentist but the receptionist said that she's busy until saturday. but i cant wait until saturday evening with a rough surface on my lost-fang! so i scheduled in to meet another dentist. when i reached the clinic, Dr. Zalinda was about to leave but luckily she recognized me! ^__^ actually she was initially confused whether it was me or my mother. LOL~ but she took a look at my chipped fang and said she'll deal with me for a while...

she was surprised too, especially when i cannot recall hitting my tooth on anything hard. but then she said, "or are you stressed out? sometimes people who are really depressed tend to grind their teeth hard during sleep, resulting in many dental problems..."

and even a migraine! i've heard about this from a pal in that migraine mailing list i subscribe to. these people have to wear some sort of special braces when they go to sleep..

so now she has smoothen the surface. alhamdulillah~

BUT I LOST MY FANG!!

but alhamdulillah i manage to curve a smile again ^__^
because finally someone 'acknowledges' my depression since a few days ago

2009-04-29T16:38:00.003+08:00

very vErY VERY TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tag : Life's Journey

2009-04-22T14:22:00.003+08:00

i got this tag from facebook. but i'll also post here..

The rules are:

1. Choose at least five pictures which taken when you were a little boy/girl until now.

2. Describe the pictures.

3. Please tag at least five of your friends.

So.. here i go..

i guess this pic was taken when i was in Junior 2, IIC, that is in 1995. i'm d girl with the pink - yes, PINK - beside the one with blue, that is Atiyah. next to me was Aneesah, then Anas, Ahmad n Atiqah.
we were the top-3 students in 2 classes. Anas, Atiyah and I in Junior 2 while Aneesah, Ahmad and Atiqah in Junior 1.

this is the next 'youngest' pic i have in collection. i won't go to the mess of searching other pics in photo albums and scanning them. we were the most-senior prefects in 2003, but this pic was taken in 2004 when we 'stepped down' from being school prefects. i'm the one at the utmost right, at the back line of course.
this pic reminds me of my school days ^__^ i should say, while many people long to return back to their teenage life and misses school days so much, i treasure the memories and experience but i do not feel the same way.. for some silent reasons

this pic was taken in August 2004 in Bogor, Indonesia. i really love this pic, despite having a another similar pic taken in 2008, because i can hug the tiger cub!
apart from not having other 'younger' pic in my laptop right now, i chose this pic bcoz it shows that i really love nature (including animals), and travelling.

a huge, memorable, brave step i took was to get married ^__^ with someone i only knew for 3 years (at that time) on 11th October 2008. May Allah bless us and all those who marry for His sake..
This pic was taken during our precious honeymoon~

These are my sisters, my usrah-mates. I chose this pic bcoz it represents my way of life - tarbiyyah & da`wah - nsyaAllah. i hope we will walk with firm steps on this path, never to go astray..

this is a simple story of the journey of my life.. ^__^

now, i tag everyone who reads this post. yes, YOU!

of almonds

2009-04-14T17:35:00.006+08:00

Almond Nut

ALMOND, my favourite nut since i was a kid ^^, is actually a fruit, or a seed!

Almonds are a rich source of Vitamin E, and they're also rich in monounsaturated fat, i.e. one of the two 'good' fats responsible for lowering cholestrol. When these foods which lowers cholesterol are combined with a healthy way of eating, the beneficial effects are multiplied!

They improve the movement of those stuff through the colon and helps to prevent cancer! They are also nutritive for our brain and nervous system! This is because they contain anti-inflammaroty and immunity boosting effects. They help prevent osteoporosis and also regulate blood pressure.

They contain nearly NO carbohydrates, thus is a good diet for people suffering from diabetes. they can be processed into flour to make cakes and bread! especially for people on carbohydrate-restricted diets, but i guess the price would be quite high...

Almond tree flower

Almonds' pollens are spread by insects, like bees. Although packaged almonds are available all year round, they are the freshest in mid-summer, which is their peak season.

Unripe almond on tree

Although many people believed that almonds are too fatty to be a healthy snack, scientific research has actually shown that eating nuts (except ground nuts) actually lower blood cholestrol levels. Furthermore, eating almonds is a filling snack. They are a good source of fiber, contains protein and other antioxidants.

Flowering almond tree

even though some natural remedies recommend almonds for migraneurs and they actually help some people, there are also cases where others experienced them as migraine triggers. i'm not really sure whether they work on me since the cause of my migraines are quite random, especially with food, but other migraineurs can always try. take them as a snack or rub some almond oil on your temples during the early signs of an oncoming migraine.

s t r e s s e d

2009-04-14T14:53:00.005+08:00

S T R E S S E D
is
D E S S E R T S
spelled backwards

^__^

that's why we all tend to eat chocolates, cakes, cookies and all those yummy yummy fattening stuff to reverse the stress!

LOL~

4 papers through, 2 more to go!
Differential Equations & Linear Algebra
Discrete Mathematics

addiction or hobby?

2009-04-14T13:56:00.004+08:00

i thought my habit of bringing a nail clipper nearly everywhere i go was odd enough since i cannot live to let my nails grow long and i practically trim my nails twice to three times a week.

last sunday i went to study at Paan's room, and apart from noticing that she too recently started to bring a nail clipper to class, she has a set of nail clippers in her room!

yeah there are nail clippers sold in sets but somehow i find this interesting ^^

speech circuit

2009-04-14T13:41:00.004+08:00

the last time i experienced a fault in my 'speech circuit' was years back when i just finished high school.

statements like "makcik tu 50 RINGGIT!" instead of 50 TAHUN slipped out of my mouth,
and "lepas 2 RINGGIT" instead of lepas 2 MINGGU, and few other incidents i don't really remember -__-"

today, when i was at the dining table, i said "nak sikit TERUNG" instead of PETOLA, and some moment later, "nak UDANG?" instead of SOTONG.. which was not really a hilarious error since they still make sense ^^,

but then another statement that made me and Tikki laughed until tears went out of our eyes was: "saya tak jadi makan nanti KERANG sangat" >__< i wanted to say, KENYANG sangat!

somehow the output of the circuit just got wrong!

but i know it's not the 'examingitis' =P

disappointment

2009-04-05T19:23:00.008+08:00

since the beginning of this semester, due to my 19-credit-hour subjects i'm facing, i tend to prioritize my studies but at the same time not 'fully' neglecting other responsibilities (but i have to admit that i neglected some.. T__T). however i realize that my heart and mind became more and more - how should i say this - dry?? and ignorant..

so i pushed aside the feeling of guilt for not studying and decided to attend the Iron Wall screening organized by COMPLETE, which was followed by a forum despite having my exams around the corner..
all because of the reason that i've read through the questions drafted by the forum moderator, someone i really look up to that is Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor - the director of PACE, and that one of the forum panelist would be Ust Maszlee Malik.
i thought with the presence of these two big figures i respect would make the forum 'hot and lively'.

while watching 'The Iron Wall' in the dark auditorium, a headache slowly sneaked into my head. i ignored it coz the documentary film was a good one ^^ especially for those who want to know more about the real issue.

the screening ended after a while and the event continued with a forum. i waited eagerly for the two very-familiar faces but they did not appear on stage. instead, the forum was moderated by someone i never knew of and the panelist were the palestinian ambassador and another person i did not recognize.
i was confused.. where are Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee?

the forum moderator (middle) and panelists

i texted my friend, who happened to be incharge of the auditorium's backstage and asked if there will be another forum following the ongoing one.. he said no. still confused, i texted Makcik Azian (one of PACE's fellows) and ask her where is Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee, only to know that she is as confused as i am. i also texted Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee's wife, Ustzh Hamidah but there was no reply.

the backstage guys

i could not focus. the Palestinian Ambassador was reading - yes, reading - from his text about the Apartheid Wall and honestly, i did not care to listen because he was ~~reading~~ ~~repeating~~ talking about what we all had watched in the Iron Wall screening. i told my hubby i'd rather go home and study. then it was the other panelist turn and he started to read from his text too! my hubby went out of the auditorium while i waited for TJ and a friend who carpooled with us. soon, i realized many of the audience took off as well, for some unknown reasons.

outside, we met Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee. now, what had happened???

Ust Maszlee & Dr. Hafidzi while the forum is going on

Before the forum, the Palestinian Ambassador was surprised to see Dr Hafidzi and he said something like "i don't want that man" and when he saw Ust Maszlee he was even more shocked and demanded for Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee not be sitting with him on stage discussing about the Iron Wall!

why??? because he knows that both Dr Hafidzi and Ust Maszlee's stands about the issue are against his - to put it in a simple way, it's like a mild version of HAMAS vs. Fatah - and he was a little bit too coward to face ~~embarassment~~ the truth. ** i still clearly remember in a forum a couple of years ago how he tried his best to avoid answering some controversial questions regarding Fatah and HAMAS but that's another story **

the Palestinian ambassador

how can this issue end when people who doesn't want to speak out about the truth still exist??? how can this issue end when people still misuse their power for their own interest???

in the end, i ~~was and still~~ am truly disappointed,
especially because i had chosen not to study this morning and then got a bad headache!

but we're all sure that there are hikmah behind all these that happened today.
and i'm sure you will never say "serves u right for ditching your school books and notes for (just) one morning" if you really understand the plight of the Palestinians..

p/s: this piece may sound bias because it's really MY point of view.

Ka Dijah, Ustzh Hamidah, Rufaydah & me ^_^

---***---
entry continued on 6th of April

oh i just can't help but to continue this post! *tried not to since this morning*
reported by Makcik Azian who stayed until the forum ends:

during the Q & A session, Ust Maszlee who was supposed to be one of the panelists but end up sitting with the audience raised up a controversial question on who supplied the cement for the construction of the wall, but he was interrupted by the angered ambassador, who denied the fact that Saudi Arabia was the cement supplier and said that we should not be blaming anyone (especially the Arabs).

in addition to the cover up, the panelist from Wisma Putra (the guy i have no idea of before) warned that the world might label us as people who make up stories if the forum is broadcasted worldwide, because the Media has a huge influence on everyone - which caused the audience to become more unsatisfied and angry.
the forum was brought to an end by the moderator although there were still people who wanted to ask questions.

ah what a bunch cowards and liars..

exam! study!!!

2009-03-31T20:02:00.003+08:00

uh-uhh..
bila dekat dengan exam, tu lah masa nak online YM secara 'visible' dan update blog. haha. sebabnya: dah takde kelas, lepak dekat rumah.

fuh, sem ni sungguh memenatkan! pertama kali catat sejarah dalam kehidupan sendiri, satu sem amik 19 credit hour. exceed working load utk orang average macam saya, tak berapa rajin nak study. mula kelas jam 8.30 pagi, habis jam 7.30 malam, but of course ada gap sejam atau sejam setengah antara dua kelas.

final exam ni pulak, alhamdulillah tak berderet paper... TAPI, ada satu hari yg ada 2 paper!! DS & DSP.. huwaaa... yg teruknye, both subject itu masa midterm exam haritu pun satu hari jugak, and i screwed up pretty bad.. *** cries *** T___T
actually, we could have appealed from A&R to change the date for the finals, but both lecturers were not that supportive.. ** cries again ** they said "two papers a day is okay, as long as they don't clash." ugh!!

CS pulak, cerita sedihnya, pertama kali dalam sejarah hidup saya ~~lagi~~, saya tak dapat attend exam kerana diserang migraine lagi.. selalunya teruk-teruk pun boleh paksa diri pegi exam lagi, tapi disebabkan tak ready langsung + makan ubat migraine called Cafergot pun tak jalan, i decided not to sit for the midterm exam, with an mc of course... two days later i had the exam replacement, only studied the night before. and i flipped. ** cries!! ** T__T

so, nak tak nak, here's my final exam schedule:

7th April : Computer Architecture & Design
10th April : Control Systems
13th April : Data Structure & Algorithm Design + Digital Signal Processing
15th April : Differential Equations & Linear Algebra
17th April : Discrete Mathematics

hmm.. kepada suami tercinta~ hehee.. selamat menempuh final exam ^__^ jom blaja rajin-rajin!

yosh! gambatte kudasai, ne! ma`at taufiq wan najah!

picnic with my usrah-mates

2009-03-30T16:41:00.006+08:00

hihi.. nampaknye adik beradik yg lain belum update blog pasal rehlah haritu kecuali cik timie yg menyambung entri sedih percumanye yg lepas.. **huhu gomenne timie, i really didn't realize my mistake!**

alhamdulillah, AKHIRNYA, setelah merancang dari tahun lepas ~~atau beberapa tahun lepas lagi~~ tapi asyik tak jadi, pada 28 Mac 2009 my beloved usrah-mates and i went for a picnic ^__^ patutnya nak pegi laut & overnight, tapi disebabkan final exam yg sangat dekat - ade yg ade paper 1st April! - kami membuat keputusan utk mandi sungai & BBQ separuh hari je..

nevertheless, it was truly a memorable experience!! subhanallah!!

bbq ayam, sausage & kentang bakar nyum nyum!~
tapi nampak cam hangus je tu... ^^,

Asma` & Yusra antara yg paling awal
terjun ke dalam sungai selepas Cik Timie~

cool and refreshing!!!

bergambar bersama souvenir rehlah:
lukisan character masing-masing oleh Yasashi Yusra ^__^
semua orang jadi ayu dlm lukisan LOL XD

*hehe mesti Asma` bising nnt gambar dye takde dlm ni sbb jadi photographer*

rantai ukhuwwah yg diikat dengan kasih sayang, usik-mengusik
dan ketaatan kepada ameerah k-uia hehe

pics taken by me, Asma` and Timie ^__^
tapi ade label iN junior photography saje je takpe kan?

having fun @ batu pahat~

2009-03-13T22:43:00.003+08:00

actually these pics was taken in january, but i just managed to get my hands on them even though my roommate has them all the time =P

feeding the goat

it's fun! but you can feel its warm saliva.. eww~~ O__o"

playing catch and throw!

LOL.. it must have been a hard time for the goose and ducks and chickens to run away from us =P

gone forever, in just one night

2009-02-16T14:09:00.001+08:00

many already know this news, but i hope no one will say " i never heard about this "..

Puan/Teacher Badariah passed away on Sunday, 15th February 2009, about 3 a.m. in the morning..

why? you would ask, because it was so sudden.

one of the blood vessel in her brain snapped due to high blood pressure, causing internal bleeding. of course it's only a reason/cause.

but to me, it's a very great reminder. just imagine, earlier that evening everything was as normal. she was having a meeting with my mom and jabbar also met her.. but suddenly the next morning all of us realize that we'll never see her again.. we'll never see Puan Badariah who watched us grow up in IIC and then Adni ever again..

to me, it's so sudden that i keep thinking..

when will my time come? will i be ready for that time? and will i be ready for all that i'll have to go through after leaving this world? but at the same time in my heart i somehow feel so arrogant towards my Creator.. it's like i'm so confident that death will not approach me, at least not in the near future.. astaghfirullah!! astaghfirullah!! astaghfirullah!!

ya Allah.. how has my heart turned so hard and black...
please protect me from your Hellfire ya Allah..
please ya Allah..

Get Busy Living - Kareem Salama

sekali lagi... examingitis...

2009-02-11T01:56:00.006+08:00

esok, saya ada 2 mid-term exam + 2 assignment kena hantar + ~~1 quiz yg macam~~ 2 quiz

11:30 pagi - exam Digital Signal Processing
2:00 ptg - exam Data Structure & Algorithm Design + hantar assignment
5:00 ptg - hantar assignment Differential Equations + ada quiz

sebenarnya ada satu quiz, tapi sebab saya kena gastrik masa quiz yg lepas dan lecturer malas nak buat replacement quiz, quiz esok akan cover markah utk 2 quiz... hwa hwa hwa...

emmm... saya amat mengantuk sekarang, tapi kena kEnA KENA stUdyyyy... woohooo~~ gambatte kudasai ^^,

semoga sem ni jauh lebih baik dari sem lepas walaupun saya amik sangat banyak credit hour.. 19 wooo... O__o" 6 core subjects + 1 seminar + 1 skills TaeKwon-Do

oh! cakap pasal TaeKwon-Do, haritu pertama kali saya join tournament WTF. guess what~~ i lose on the first round!! hwaaa... SEBAB!! kena 4 kali warning i.e. tolak dua markah... SEBAB!! saya tak tau dalam WTF tak boleh tumbuk kepala/muka orang!!! huu.. kesian fadhilah dari matric tu, dua kali kot kena direct punch kat muka, takde glove pape.. indeed, sejak 10 tahun lepas saya join taekwondo memang menumbuk orang masa sparring adalah satu reflex action.. kalau dapat ITF dapat point tu.. aisey..

oho.. dan seminar.. haritu saya dan Paan ade wat presentation pasal "TAKEOVER: A New Vertical Handover Concept for Next-Generation Heterogenous Networks". research oleh 2 orang korean researchers. hwa hwa~ initially, the title wasn't that. tapi baca title pun kitorang dah freak out. i was really thinking what in the world is this ~~crap~~ thing??? after a week of research (which was done most by Paan) barulah kitorang tau yg title tu budak communication engineering punya.. aisey.. nak tak nak kena teruskan jugak.. last2 minute (rasanya disebabkan ke-blur-an kitorang) sir kecikkan lagi scope research @ presentation kitorang jadi takeover nu.. tangan sejuk badan menggeletar nervous akhirnye kitorang berjaya present di depan..

dan.. the good news is:
MY HANDS DIDN'T SHAKE WHEN I HELD THE MICROPHONE!! ^^ weee~~

satu kemajuan.. sila tepuk tangan utk saya.. ^__^

eh, bukan action tau, berkongsi kegumbiraan saja..

thanks to my beloved hubby for his continuous support in making me do public speaking.

TAG! Boycott Israel & the USA

2009-01-13T17:12:00.008+08:00

here's what we should do. it's simple:
list down 5 of the products from the list below that you are boycotting,
and then list down 5 of the products that you will try your best to boycott,
and finally list another 5 of the products that you find it hard to boycott,
and tag 5 others.

this tag is to get everyone to read the list below carefully and identify which products affects your life and the lives of the Palestinians most! You can also compare your list with your friends and see: if they can boycott one product that you haven't been boycotting, why can't you start to boycott the product too?

i'll start first.
5 products i'm boycotting (Allahu akbar! ^_^):
1. Nokia
2. Coca-cola
3. Starbucks
4. L'Oreal
5. Marks & Spencer

5 products i will start to boycott (insyaAllah ^^,):
1. McDonalds
2. Johnson & Johnson
3. Timberland
4. Danone
5. Sara Lee

5 products that i find hard to boycott (**cries! T_T**):
1. Intel
2. IBM
3. Nestle
4. Delta Galil --Carrefour--
5. Kimberly-Clark

I tag
1. Mujahid
2. Atiqah
3. Wan Maryam
4. Tuan Azmil
5. Farhana

COMPANIES TO BOYCOTT

AOL Time Warner Time Life magazine, CNN, ICQ
Apax Partners Jonny Rockets, Sunglass Hut.
Arsenal Football Club
Coca-Cola Fruitopia, Fanta, Kia Orange, Lilt, Sprite, Sunkist..
Caterpillar
Danone HP foods, Evian, Volvic, Jacob
Delta Galil Hema, Barbie, Carrefour, Auchan, Tchibo, Victoria's Secret, GAP, Banana Republic, Structure, J-Crew, JC Penny, Pryca, Lindex, DIM, DKNY, Ralph Lauren, Playtex, cK, Hugo Boss, M&S
Disney
Emblaze
Estée Lauder Aramis, Clinique, DKNY, Prescriptives, Origins, MAC, La Mer, Bobbi Brown, Tommy Hilfiger, Jane, Donna Karan, Aveda, Stila, Jo Malone, Bumble & Bumble, Kate Spade
Home Depot Villager's Hardware, Georgia Lighting, Apex Supply, EXPO Design Centres
IBM
Intel
Johnson & Johnson
Kimberly-Clark Kleenex, Kotex, Huggies, Andrex
Lewis Trust Group River Island, Isrotel hotels, Britannia Pacific
The Limited Inc Express stores, Lerner New York, Structure, New York & Company, Mast Industries, Intimate Brands, Victoria's Secret, Bath & Body Works, White Barn Candle Company, Henri Bendel
L'Oreal Giorgio Armani, Redken 5th Avenue, Lancome Paris, Vichy, Cacharel, La Roche-Posay, Garnier, Biotherm, Helena Rubinstein, Maybelline, Ralph Lauren, Carson
Marks & Spencer M&S, St.Michaels
McDonald's
Motorola
Nestle Nescafé, Perrier, Vittel, Pure Life, Carnation, Libby's, Milkmaid, Nesquik, Maggi, Buitoni, Cross & Blackwell, KitKat, Milkybar, Quality Street, Smarties, After Eight, Aero, Polo, Lion, Felix cat food, L'Oréal
News Corporation TV: Fox, Sky, Star, Phoenix, Granada, CNBC. UK newspapers: Standard Newspaper, News of the World, The Sun, The Times. Australian Newspapers: The Telegraph , Gold Coast Bulletin, Herald Sun, Independent, Sunday Mail. US newspapers: New York Post. Publishers: Harper Collins Ragan, Zondervan, National Geographical. Nursery World, Rawkus, NDS, Mushroom Records, ChinaByte.com, Festival Records
Nokia
Revlon New World Entertainment, Forbes
Sara Lee Hanes, Playtex, Champion, Leggs, Douwe Egberts, Bryan, DIM, Ambi Pur, Bali, Superior Coffee, Just My Size, Kiwi, Maison Cafe, Nur die, Pilao, Lovable, Outer Banks, Wonderbra, Sanex, Pickwick, Gossard, Body Mist, Brylcreem, Aqua Velva, Radox
Siemens
Selfridges
Starbucks Seattle Coffee, Pasqua, Hear Music, Tazo
Timberland

Boycott List by Brand - View the Labels to boycott

"Each riyal, dirham …etc. used to buy their goods eventually becomes bullets to be fired at the hearts of brothers and children in Palestine.. To buy their goods is to support tyranny, oppression and aggression." -Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qaradawi

nela sombong

2009-01-06T09:00:00.001+08:00

that day, i met my friends whom seldom met
and few of them commented--

"Nihlah sombong! dah tak tegur orang kat YM sejak kawin"

T__T

i was like-- helloo...
is it sejak kawin, or is it sejak zaman batu lagi??

uhh.. sungguh kecik hati

if only they try to get to know and understand what i do in every day of my life

how can i spend my time chit-chatting when i have tonnes of other things to be done???

awal tahun 2009~~

2009-01-06T08:30:00.004+08:00

ini adalah post yg pertama untuk tahun ni
amat berharap saya tidak akan berhenti berkongsi pengalaman

uh-oh!!

sebenarnya,
kelam kabut dengan schedule awal tahun ni... O__o"

belajar dengan tekun,
proaktif terhadap isu palestin
& berorganisasi dgn baik

semoga dapat belajar & buat kerja dgn baik & teliti!!

*** al-Quds Institute Malaysian Chapter macam plan nak buat misi kemanusiaan ke Gaza.. ohh-- saya mahu ikuuuuuuuttt!!!!~~~ *** T__T

Press Conference

2009-01-03T13:16:00.005+08:00

Press Conference
Bantahan JIM terhadap serangan ke atas Gaza

2 Januari 2009

Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor, Pengarah PACE

Ir. Zairulshahfuddin Zainal Abidin,
Naib Presiden JIM @ Pengerusi JK Perhubungan Antarabangsa JIM

Dr. Harlina Hj Siraj, Ketua Wanita JIM

me & press from BERNAMA

memorandum against israeli assault on gaza

2009-01-03T13:00:00.004+08:00

A Demonstration Expressing Our Solidarity Towards Our Brothers and Sisters in Gaza & Palestine

30th December 2008

U.S. Embassy, Jalan Tun Razak, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

wakil-wakil JIM Karisma & PACE

Free Al-Quds!!

Our Palestinian Brothers~

Me & my hubby ^__^

Makcik Azian (one of PACE's top speakers) & me

buat placard utk demo sampai 12.30 pagi~

gambar YOQ

2008-12-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahu akbar.

10 Disember 2009 : genap 2 bulan sejak saya bertukar status :P hehe.
blog pun dah jarang disapu & dikemas disebabkan laptop hanya ada satu dan penggunanya sudah ada dua ^__^ jadi kena lah kongsi-kongsi~

untuk pengetahuan sahabat semua, alhamdulillah my home is not affected by the recent landslide tragedy in Bukit Antarabangsa except for some traffic jam occasionally, which i don't really mind.
since my hubby and i came back from Johor, i still didn't have the chance to help out at the tragedy site since my schedule was already packed with other events. my hubby went with his friends while i was attending a meeting, and he said there's already A LOT of help at the site alhamdulillah. so the truth is i'm not feeling that guilty for not helping out.. uh-oh.. O__o*

oh, as i mentioned last time, here i attach the pictures during the last mukhayyam Youth Outdoor Quest di Bukit Tabuh dan Bukit Cerakah

right view of one of Bukit Tabuh's low-peaks!
i've never imagined there's a lake
behind the hills surrounding my hometown, and it's like--- Subhanallah!!

left view of another low-peak :)

ikan patin from bukit cerakah's lake. besar kan!

blowing dust~

2008-11-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

yeayy!!!

FINALLY i'm done with my final exams this semester.. my last paper was on the 11th, the last official day of all exams -- official b`coz my beloved significant other had another paper on the 12th and a test on the 13th while others were already enjoying their time..

despite finishing my exam on the 11th, i still had to stay up and accompany him studying for his 4-credit-hour subject O__o" but i don't mind coz after all i have to settle some things as the one of the committee for this semester's camping.

Youth Outdoor Quest was the name. 12th to 15th November 2008. I'll post some pics later coz they're in my laptop. it's my first time being the catering committee, together with my hubby ^__^ alhamdulillah the participants commented the food was good :D we didn't actually cook, but we got some restaurants to prepare the nice food for the 75 of us within the allocated budget.

right now, after a little bit more than a month since the wedding, i'm in my in-laws place ^__^ it's very veerryy NICE here, alhamdulillah. i'm very happy to be a new member of this family. hehe~ thanks to Abah Hasanuddin & Ummi Mahiza, n also adik-adik for the very warm welcome ^__^ i really lOooove the maqlubah~ hehe..

i bet Tikki is feeling bored these days. especially since my beloved Mom and my younger bro Musa flew to Yemen. Abah coming back n forth from and to Jakarta every week. Ahmad, Kak Nadia & Ammar live in Jakarta. Yusuf in Syria. Isa lives in Shah Alam n usually come back home during the weekends. Kakak & Abang Amin go to work everyday and have on-calls. So only Nabil stays at home 24-7. my other siblings and the big family-- alhamdulillah they're around even though everyone don't stay in the same house ^__^

all in all, i'm super glad that i have 'a' very nice, big family ^__^!

subhanallah walhamdulillah wallahuakbar!

Qurban for Palestine and Darfur

2008-11-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

Saff Perdaus is humbled to be given the opportunity in organizing a Qurban campaign where canned "qurban" meat from Australia will be distributed to the refugees from Darfur and Palestine. Since, there are lack of electricity thus proper refrigeration, canned meat are the best form of contribution from us to them.

As such, I implore you to join us in this cause. A goat is enough for 24 can of meat which can help families to sustain for weeks if not months - something we take for granted here in Singapore.

For more information or to order - email to Sis Afifah (Executive Officer, Saff Perdaus): afifah@perdaus.org.sg or call us at 65132305 today.

finally!!!~

2008-10-23T19:17:00.003+08:00

salam`alayk~

afwan kepada para pengunjung yang terus terbatuk-batuk melawat blog yang berhabuk ni..
sejak sebelum walimah haritu memang teramat sangat busy nye... sampai kan dah pasang niat nak buat 'final entry while being single' pun tak terjadi...

sekarang--- he he~ dah berapa hari nak final exam baru la nak update O__o*
sebenarnya esok ada 2 assignment + 1 project kena hantar~ hwaaaaaaa~ tapi curi2 update blog kejap sementara bayang-bayang baru pegi solat kat masjid hehe~

alhamdulillah bayang-bayang baru saya sangat sAngAt SANGAT baik ^__^

sorry to AO sbb tak dapat cari gambar yg umur lebih kurang sebaya gambar kat blog nta.. ana ade cari gak tapi yg ade time masa boleh merangkak-- pastu dah boleh jalan dahh.. tapi yg confirm nye, mmg jauh beza la dari rupa AO hehehe =P

thanks to all for your wishes and prayers.
barakallahu fiikum..
** untuk yg belum kawin, semoga kawin cepat juga.. ^__^ **

ok lah, jap lagi nak gi usrah. hehe

utk yg nak tengok gambar walimah~ (saya sendiri tak sempat tengok semua & tak sempat update semua) boleh lawat blog baru...

Langkah Bermula + Epilog Pejuang
= LANGKAH PEJUANG

hee~ take care everyone!
rumah ni akan sapu jugak, cuma lagi selalu sapu rumah baru kot =P hehehe~

blessings of Allah in Ramadhan

2008-09-29T13:59:00.003+08:00

Ramadhan is almost over.

How did YOU do?

Find out using this scale --> click HERE

I got this:
You have lost many blessings! May Allah grant you a long life to make up for it!

wuu.. i can't help but cry..
nobody knows except Him if I will live - and in the state of iman - until next Ramadhan..

I HAVE LOST MANY BLESSINGS...
where was I for the past 28 days...

i just attended a funeral this morning.. my best buddy Anisah's grandma passed away last night..

T__T

a great reminder for me indeed..

will i be blessed enough with a long life so that i can pray and worship Him more..

but i fear that living longer will draw me away from Him each day..

Ya Allah..
You know what is the best for me
and for those around me
grant me the best of this world and the next world..
grant me the best for the eternal hereafter..