Tuesday, August 23, 2011

I AM A STUDENT, WIFE, MOTHER AND DA`IE

Published in Fikrah Adni 2010 (Adni Year Book)

"Our responsibilities exceed the time that we have. So spend our time wisely..."
Al-Syahid Imam Hasan Al-Banna


2010 might just be another year to many people, but to me it was a year that tested everything in me – my capability, strength, patience and so much more. Juggling responsibilities of a wife, a daughter, an engineering student and a da’ie had occupied every day of life since I got married in October 2008. I attended lectures and lab sessions during the day and sat down in usrahs and Islamic lectures during the night. Weekends are occupied with programs and organizational meetings. Time between those activities are spent with family, and helping my husband with his part-time business.

Alhamdulillah, on 12th April 2010, Allah has blessed me and my husband with an adorable son. Another super huge responsibility now hangs upon my shoulders – to ensure the well-being of the baby and to provide everything he needs emotionally, mentally, physically and even spiritually. I knew it would not be easy. I have known people who perform better academically after having their own family but also those who had to take a break from study. I have known people who continue being active in da’wah after having a baby, but also some who get stuck somewhere and does not turn up for meetings and programs anymore. They were not easy to be dealt with, but Alhamdulillah I believe He has prepared me to multitask ever since my schooling years in ADNI.

10 years in ADNI and my parents had taught me that life is not just about being excellent academically or getting a good job. Nor is it merely about leading a happy life or having a wonderful family. There are greater things we need to do in this life, something that our beloved Prophet (s.a.w.) do throughout his life as the messenger of Allah – calling people to Islam and making Islam the way of life and civilization.



Many people asked me: How do you juggle things up, being married and studying, and now having a baby? What does it take for you to continue being active in da’wah despite having many other things to tend to?

My answer is simple: I have a clear vision of what I want in this life and in the life after I die, and the determination to make things happen.

My nearest target is to graduate, and Alhamdulillah, I am happy to say that the academic result for my final semester – where I took few subjects, completed my final year project and looked after my baby – was the best result throughout my years studying engineering. Nevertheless, whether I am studying or whatever job I am doing, I hope and I pray that Allah will continuously guide me and let me walk on the path of da’wah.

Of course there are ups and downs in life, times when I get very sick, too lazy or stressed out. That is why having a supportive and understanding spouse is very important. I am currently living with my family and they too play a big role in helping me manage daily chores. However, the utmost important thing is to have faith and believe – tawakkal – in Allah and His plans for each and every one of us.

Nihlah Johari
November 2010

Monday, August 08, 2011

rejected?

that day when i couldn't get up due to migraine attack, my mom brought me to see a new doctor, a specialist in this blood thing - radiofrequency or something, i don't really remember because i was walking around like zombie during my visit there. i went there three times in july and august.

during my first visit, the doctor had a general check-up on me and found that my right eye was trembling. so he scheduled me for an MRI. although i had it once when i was about 16. so i went for an MRI, which costs me my mom actually RM950! i had the results only on my third visit, and alhamdulillah there was nothing wrong in my brain. at least nothing visible to the naked eye via MRI.

so the doctor diagnose my headache as migraine. to my disappointment, it seems like he doesn't have any interest in dealing with migraines. the doctor prescribed sibelium for me, but it doesn't help me much - actually, since my first visit i've never had any day free from headache. it's either pale, plain and very mild headache, or throbbing and stabbing until i feel numbness and nausea.

so, that's the end of the story. i don't have to see the doctor anymore, and i don't want to, because he doesn't seem to have any interest in dealing with the headache i have.