Epilog Pejuang

29th April 2006 We visited the shrine of Prophet Musa (as) at Mount Nebo, a location very near to Palestine. It’s currently managed by the Christians. A friend questioned: Why do I visit shrines (maqam) all around Jordan? Nak berdoa ke? Uh! Tolong la… I’m not stupid or mad to pray at graves. I visit them to verify the existence of these people by heart. And pray that Allah grant me all the qualities they have. Patience, strength, courage, wisdom, love, and many more…

(this's my laptop wallpaper right now) 27th April 2006 In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious The Most Merciful... Skarang ni baru boleh menaip dgn kurang skema kot. Citer sblm ni rasenye mcm amat plain. Mmg menaip jugak kat rumah, tapi nak merecord hari² yang berlaku ni gayanye macam amat asing bagi realiti hidupku. Macam tak tau nak ckp ape. Kalau tak pun, balik² cerita lebih kurang... Sendiri bosan. Heh... Ni lah orang yg tak menulis diari harian (ulang balik: harian je), untuk pengetahuan semua... Started joining lectures in University of Jordan, particularly Tafseer and Manhaj Mufassirin classes, which is rather 'foreign' for me especially when the whole lecture was in arabic. Not even a sentence of English except for today "i will consider that" by Dr. Muhammad Rayyan. I only join his lectures. He's really great and knowledgable and etc. And the Arab students were mostly participative and the it was really a two-way communication between students and the

24th April 2006 It’s been 10 days since I wrote what happened! Huhuhu… Pardon me… This evening, I suddenly feel like I miss the KARISMA International family. Yesterday chatted with Kak Yam J for about an hour Oh it was soooo exiting. Mase tu rase macam nk cerita smua mender,,, tapi ntah cakap ni cakap tu, tak ingat ape pun ape yg dah cakap. Hehehe… On the 15th we went to as-Salt, where maqam Prophet Shu’aib (as) was located. It’s pretty cold in as-Salt, and I regretted not wearing extra clothing. It rained that day if I’m not mistaken… or the day after…? Anyway, anyone feeling down often tested by Allah with illness, remember the life of Prophet Shu’aib... May we be thankful for each and everything we get. And on 17th April we went to Jabal Hussein and ate Shawarma. People say it’s one of the best Shawarma in Amman… and indeed it is!

14th April 2006 We went to the other part of the Roman Site. Summer’s in, and the sun was really hot. But the wind was still chilling. We burnt our skin.

12th April 2006 Another class at Markaz alFaransa. I guess we’ll join the classes for the time being. Met the principal and she said that it’s too late to quit and refund. Yeah, the first week from 10 weeks is too late. Maybe that’s their policy, Allahu a’lam. She told us that maybe we can try join the 2nd level, higher level of Ammi Arabic--- next Wednesday 19th April. - no picture for today -

11th April 2006 Ahah… We had our first trip elsewhere to practice our Arabic. It’s our tutors’ house. Oh btw, our tutors are Ustaz Marwan and his wife Ala’. Ala’ is a couple of years older than me and yes, younger than Kak Maziah and Cik Nurul. Anyways, we didn’t expect Ala’s family to be so welcoming and friendly. They’re ‘Ammatu Khadijah (Ala’s mother oh she was very glad when we call her ‘ammatu), Noor (she’s my age), Ruba and Lina (both still in high school) and Yasmin (Ala’s sister-in-law). We cooked together from the beginning till the meal was served. Kupas bawang n potong bawang [tak nak pedih mata, siler rendam bawang2 tu dulu), basuh ayam [diorg basuh guna lemon + tepung sikit], dan sebagainye… Masak nasi ayam + minyak arab – qidrah namenye. And yea, dah sehari dok dengan orang-orang Arab ni, macam-macam yg diborakkan. Lintang-pukang jugak kitorang cakap Arab. Haha… Tapi ade berusaha jugak la. Borak-borak pasal nasyid, pasal makanan, hmm ape lagi ekk… Haaa… Ade jugak di-remin

10th April 2006 Classes at Markaz al-Thaqafiyyah al-Faransa started. We joined the 1st Level! I’m not boasting or anything, but they’re teaching ismi Nihlah- ana Malayziyyeh- sakne fi Amman fi Abu Nuseir- etc etc. Huhuhu… The only confusing thing is that we’re learning Ammi instead of Fushah. They don’t offer Fushah Arabic there. I wonder why should we learn such since we’re only staying here for two months and will return to Malaysia, where we will not use even a little percentage of Ammi Arabic. Some error has been done (i.e. we shouldn’t have gone to that Markaz in the first place) and we’re still figuring out how to continue on… - picture from left: kak maziah & nihlah -

09th April 06 Oh yesterday the three of us slept for at least 12 hours. It was damn cold in our apartment, colder than outside (we really wonder why! Perhaps it’s bcoz of the marble floor…? Allahu a’lam…) and all we do was wrapped ourselves in blankets, and soon fell asleep. We didn’t go out because our lecturer from Zarqa Private University was suppose to come but didn’t for some reasons. So we haven’t started any classes. I haven’t spoken any Arabic for real. Kak Maziah did, for she have more vocabs and at least can communicate with the apartment owner like cats and dogs. One speaks fushah and the native speaker doesn’t. Hmm I can’t believe I’m sleepy again!!! Ughh… Well today have just started. Nothing to write yet. I’ll continue later. ---------------------------------------~~~--------------------------------------- I’m back!!! We had no rest today- Went for a visit to Roman Theatre near Amman City Centre. Amman’s a city with many people, and many taxis… Every second you’re on the

07th April 2006 Bapil (real name: Hani Jibril Mohd Aris) fetched us at the airport and brought us to our apartment in Abu Nuseir. The temperature was 10 degrees, and we weren’t wearing any extra clothing. The apartment was really nice & comfy, tapi bantal sikit punye keras la sakit leher gak. Haha ye la, dah kat umah dok guna bantal isi goose feather & another for my backbone... Anyways, the apartment was complete. From kitchen utensils, TV, washing machine – apartment la – to phone & internet line, all complete. But internet line dial-up and mahal. Baik pegi CC, which is just down the street. Oh our phone no here is +962799643883. Oh, but the radiator wasn’t working coz we haven’t bought the gas and it was just yesterday that the water heater operated. We survived one and a half day with freezing cold water that could make our hands numb. Anyways, this morning we were suppose to sit for our placement test – a speaking test. We went to Markaz al-Thaqafiyyah al-Faransa (the

07th April 2006 It has been more than 24 hours since I first stepped onto the Land of The Prophets. Subhanallah. I was exited but nervous. I’ve never travelled far without my beloved dad – I don’t travel often anyway. The three of us, Kak Maziah, Cik Nurul & I, arrived in Queen Alia International Airport at 4:30 a.m. on 7th April 2006 after a two-hour flight from KL (LCC-T : by Air Asia) to Bangkok and a 9-hour flight from Bangkok to Amman (flying with Royal Jordanian), with a 3-hour transit in Bangkok. The other two sisters didn’t eat much or even had a good sleep in the plane. I, on the contrary, ate like I’ve not eaten for a day and slept as if I hadn’t slept enough for days. That’s the very thing I would do when I get bored and have nothing else to do. Paling hampehnye --- lepas makan mesti ngantuk ~ python mode ~ nobody should be shocked if I come back being over 50 kg okay! Hahaha!!! Another reason that made me slept so deeply was the headache. Yea, I was tensed out the night

25th May 2006 Ceh! Hari ni tak de air lagi… Woke up late, and as usual, lalat yang kejut bangun tidur… Hahaha… Malu je. Pastu, lalat sini bukan kecik wo. Langau punya geng la… Pastu bising pun mengalahkan alarm clock. Tapi takpe, ade hikmahnye… Oh, it’s the second time our apartment takde air. Last month was the first time, tapi kejap je. 26th May 2006 Too much to tell… 30 hours without supply of water in our home was so dreadful and seemed like ages of drought. Alhamdulillah ade jiran-jiran Melayu, boleh tumpang gak rumah diorang. We went to two houses on the first day, because the first one had had too many visitors so we voluntarily depart. On the second day, early in the morning we washed ourselves humbly with what is left of the reserved water and went to the bundle store. Each of us bought a cap ‘coz Summer’s Sun really burning hot and intense for a couple of days already. The temperature perhaps reached 30°C or at least 27°C and it’s very dry! Rase macam nak demam pun ade. Tapi